007.6. Canon prompt (OOC)
Write a diary entry from your character with their thoughts of a specific event that deeply impacted on their life
My life tends to be a bit like Days of Our Lives sometimes, so at lot of things have impacted on me so damn much that it feels like they have knocked my very soul loose. To pick a single event seems almost impossible. I could talk about when my mom died, but I was so young and all I really remember was that day she was there, and the next she was just... gone.
Or there is always coming out of the closet, which was a gradual event because I was standing with barely a toe dipped out of the closet door for so long trembling in fear that my very life as I knew it would change forever. And it did, but one could argue that coming out isn't so much an event as an inevitablity when you're like me. It wasn't like I just woke up one day in Gay Land like Dorothy did in Oz. I've pretty much always been gay, so I don't think I can classifiy it as an event. Dad's heart attack was sure a shock to my system, and I think it was the first time in my life that I was absolutely terrified in cold dread that I would lose him forever.
But I think the thing that has impacted the most on me is so simple and beautiful in essence that I could almost take it for granted. It was a chance meeting on a staircase one day, where I had no freaking where I was going or what I was doing. A gorgeous guy with a pocketwatch checking the time, and the second I asked him for help, he looked up at me with these amazing eyes that will honestly live in my heart until the day I day. Meeting Blaine wasn't just an impact on my life, it changed my life. It changed me. For the first in my life, I started to feel like I didn't have to hide in the shadows to be myself because there was someone right there who wanted to share and celebrate me just the way I was.
He was beautiful, inside and out. Where he should have been pissed off I was infiltrating his school and spying, he was friendly and caring. Not that I was actually there to spy on the Warblers. That was never my intention. I went to see if maybe - somehow - there was a place right there in Ohio I could belond without fearing my own shadow or what could be waiting around the corner for me. It was a horrible time of my life. I spent most nights crying myself to sleep because I was so lot and alone. I had no one to talk to, no one seemed to listen, and it got to the point where I stopped hoping they would. But Blaine listened, and he's never stopped listening. Even when I'm not talking, he's listening to. It's just like that song, When You Say Nothing At All. That one line of lyrics, "It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart", is Blaine in a nutshell. He gave me a reason to hope again and to pause and find some tiny little sliver of courage left inside me to not let the world beat me down. I got back up, and I brushed myself off, and started all over again.
And it was all thanks to one guy, who has now because the love of my life. My first, my everything. I sometimes wonder how life would have gone if I made it onto those steps at Dalton just a few moments later and missed Blaine completely. Would we have still been destined to me? Is there really such a thing as soul mates? Guardian angels, even? I don't know. But what I do know is that my life is a better place with Blaine in it, and if I can have him in it forever, bring it on.
justbeingaqueen ★ GLEE (Canon)
My life tends to be a bit like Days of Our Lives sometimes, so at lot of things have impacted on me so damn much that it feels like they have knocked my very soul loose. To pick a single event seems almost impossible. I could talk about when my mom died, but I was so young and all I really remember was that day she was there, and the next she was just... gone.
Or there is always coming out of the closet, which was a gradual event because I was standing with barely a toe dipped out of the closet door for so long trembling in fear that my very life as I knew it would change forever. And it did, but one could argue that coming out isn't so much an event as an inevitablity when you're like me. It wasn't like I just woke up one day in Gay Land like Dorothy did in Oz. I've pretty much always been gay, so I don't think I can classifiy it as an event. Dad's heart attack was sure a shock to my system, and I think it was the first time in my life that I was absolutely terrified in cold dread that I would lose him forever.
But I think the thing that has impacted the most on me is so simple and beautiful in essence that I could almost take it for granted. It was a chance meeting on a staircase one day, where I had no freaking where I was going or what I was doing. A gorgeous guy with a pocketwatch checking the time, and the second I asked him for help, he looked up at me with these amazing eyes that will honestly live in my heart until the day I day. Meeting Blaine wasn't just an impact on my life, it changed my life. It changed me. For the first in my life, I started to feel like I didn't have to hide in the shadows to be myself because there was someone right there who wanted to share and celebrate me just the way I was.
He was beautiful, inside and out. Where he should have been pissed off I was infiltrating his school and spying, he was friendly and caring. Not that I was actually there to spy on the Warblers. That was never my intention. I went to see if maybe - somehow - there was a place right there in Ohio I could belond without fearing my own shadow or what could be waiting around the corner for me. It was a horrible time of my life. I spent most nights crying myself to sleep because I was so lot and alone. I had no one to talk to, no one seemed to listen, and it got to the point where I stopped hoping they would. But Blaine listened, and he's never stopped listening. Even when I'm not talking, he's listening to. It's just like that song, When You Say Nothing At All. That one line of lyrics, "It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart", is Blaine in a nutshell. He gave me a reason to hope again and to pause and find some tiny little sliver of courage left inside me to not let the world beat me down. I got back up, and I brushed myself off, and started all over again.
And it was all thanks to one guy, who has now because the love of my life. My first, my everything. I sometimes wonder how life would have gone if I made it onto those steps at Dalton just a few moments later and missed Blaine completely. Would we have still been destined to me? Is there really such a thing as soul mates? Guardian angels, even? I don't know. But what I do know is that my life is a better place with Blaine in it, and if I can have him in it forever, bring it on.
justbeingaqueen ★ GLEE (Canon)