. . . . blarrrrgh.
According to my doctor, I have caught the stomach flu/food poisoning bug of doom. For the last forty eight hours, life has been nothing but a slow, rotating trek from the bed ... to the bathroom ... back to bed again.
( But I'm not dead yet! I feel better! XD )
( But I'm not dead yet! I feel better! XD )
Let's see question question.
What do you think happen between the time Sai got accused and him killing himself? -maybe the thought process that made him goes - i want to die but wait can't die yet until i got Hand of God. - ^_^ <-- hehe i come up with weirdest thing
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He walks, slowly, unsteadily, without a destination in mind. He only knows he has to keep moving; stopping does not even touch upon his thoughts. He does not know how long he has been walking, not since the castle gates closed against him. He does not know how far he's traveled, except his robes are now weighted down with the morning dew and the dust of the road. If he looks behind him, he would have seen a trail of ragged footprints, dark imprints on the well worn road. Here and there, the marks would be dyed with a deeper color, like blood.
He does not look behind.
With each step, he thinks of moves on the goban. What if I had played this kosumi instead of that cut? What if I had played 9-15 instead of 9-17?
It doesn't matter now, he tells himself. It doesn't matter what move I may have played ... not when he did not follow the rules. For when one step does not come after the other, as expected ... when the entire pace is interrupted, then what else can I do but ( ... )
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Well. I nearly ran out of drabble space ... so here's the "explanation" behind the drabble, since the drabble itself is a bit muddled.
Erm. There is a reason I don't usually post challenges off the fly. I do better if I have time to think and revise. But this is a good practice for me; thank you for submitting your challenge. XD
I always thought that it wasn't the fact that he lost that made Sai suicidal ... it was the manner in which he lost. Although losing his honor had a lot to do with it, I think he was most upset that Sugawara no Akitada violated the sanctity of the game ... and destroyed the potential that could have formed between them. Sai wasn't only denied the right to be the Emperor's teacher ... or even thrown out of the lifestyle he knew. The very basic principles he based his life on were shattered ... so yeah, while I don't agree with his decision at ALL, I can sorta see why he did it ( ... )
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and your drabble (drabble?? man mine is still ranging at 100 words for drabble ^_^) is awesome.
You brought to life one possibility of Sai's feeling after the match and now you mention it
I always thought that it wasn't the fact that he lost that made Sai suicidal ... it was the manner in which he lost. Although losing his honor had a lot to do with it, I think he was most upset that Sugawara no Akitada violated the sanctity of the game
Yup yup that's it. Sai is very very serious regarding Go and to him he revered it above others and to think someone dared to cheat, the though itself is very alien to him coz to him all that matter is Hand of God.
hehe i'm getting incoherent as well and repeating your words.
Thanks for this ^_^
*look at other request * :D
oooh i'm keeping an eye on this post for a while ^_^
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Mmm. I've been thinking. How about this for my reply question: I've been meaning to write this for awhile, but am interested to see what someone else might do with it. What do you think Sugwara no Akitada, Sai's rival (and the one who cheated) was thinking once he won the game?
I've never seen his POV done before, though I really have been meaning to write that for awhile. XD
cheers,
muri
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Okay you are forewarned though i'm not that good a writer <-- am realistic and i could be considered as very very eratic ( ... )
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It wasn't messy ... drabbles are weird critters, especially if you're writing it ont fly. (At least YOU didn't mispell a characters name ... like I did. XP)
I like how you didn't paint Sugawara as the ultimate evil I-just-want-to-crush-him-muwahahahah sort of person... that he saw it as a lesson to Sai. He truly does have a better grasp on how the court works, much more than Sai ever had.
And I believe this is the first time i've heard Sai referred to as "boy" ... and it works. Sometimes, I think we forget how young Sai was when he died ... young and headstrong and still somewhat passionate (and thus more prone to rash actions such as suicide). And the last line ... This was life, after all ... it harkens nicely back to how Sai will not ever learn from this. T_T
Great drabble. XD It makes it worth coming up with the challenge to see other people writing as well! I hope to see more out of ya too!
cheers,
muri
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Hehe i was tempted to at first but i figured it , in the end it boiled down to one thing, the thing called politics . whether it's in ancient form or not, it just that. Manipulation and all that. And Sai being the purist he is wouldn't just play in the same playing field as they are. And that's what cost him..
and on the "boy" thing. Well Sugawara IS being rather conscending?? [looking down] on him. He can afford to now, as he had won
Well glad you liked it ^_^
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