i had a really bad time last night... i sat in front of the TV and cried...i've shed a few tears recently but not like this. It was awful, and I can't even explain why I was upset. I'm really tired of this roller coaster emotion ride. I didn't have a good sleep last night, and I feel like I'm drifting through the day and life. Don't get me ( Read more... )

I had a convo. about this with someone earlier this week...
Listening to "Crazy in Love" -Eminem
so is it wrong to want that kind of love???
is that sick??

today was okay besides almost crying three times... not dealing well... emotions bad... its just hard realizing why this hurts soo much things i thought i had grieved about...i really hadn't. I feel like i was in a coma for three years ... well i guess i sort of was... today would have been lee's birthday, and my nana kept talking about it... i ( Read more... )

i want a car with a DVD player and a 24" flat screen TV so i can play porn while i drive around... i want a phone that i can download pictures of naked bitches to be my wallpaper ( Read more... )

cleaned in the morning, painted misi's christmas present in the afternoon with mikey..and made clam chowdah for dinner. watching last laugh 2004 now ( Read more... )

its not that i haven't had anything to write about i just havent felt like going online when i come home... hmmm i made honor roll woohoo.. the other day mikey treated me to dinner at legal seafood...mmmm it was goooood....
mikey is over and we are watching fahrenheit 9/11 i have never seen it so i promise i will write more later

wow i have so much to say but no time ... at my grandparents we can all relate to going home for the holidays.. but i'll never take it for granted! we just got the internet back so i can get my quick fix before i have to get off and share the computer with all the other people that want to use it... hmm lets review quickly and we will elaborate ( Read more... )

mikey p came over last night, we watched Saved, it was okay... funny yes ( Read more... )

i'm sitting in mike's dorm room, we walked to newbury st., great fun, its nice to have some one from home here i dont feel so lonesome. I keep thinking about john... god i sound like a broken record... its so frustrating. but its been nice getting out of school so early and hanging out at home and all, me and my aunt are going to a midnight ( Read more... )

i got home from school around 9 am... this week was filled with nothingness ( Read more... )