The ex...

[mudhooks]

I just found out today that my ex husband and the younger replacement had a baby girl a couple of days ago.

I'm happy for him, I guess... a little sad because of the three we lost over as many years. I'm a little sad, also, that he didn't bother to let me know so I wouldn't find out about it through the grapevine. However, since he didn't bother to

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[frenchpress]

thank you for your kind and wise words on my recent post and thehomelessguy's blog. i only wish i had such words or wisdom now for you...

just thinking about you, that's all.

Thanks....

[mudhooks]

All said and done, I find it hard to settle on a particular emotion about things. We ended amicably (until, of course, I found out about the exact timing of his relationship with the younger replacement and the identity -- a former friend and colleague whose exploits with other married or "otherwise involved" men of our acquaintance were well known to us... not to mention the whole annulment crap) and I have had a great deal of respect for his knowledge and his work.

My anger sometimes wells up, sometimes sadness, sometimes bitterness....

In my heart, I know that it isn't that I think he doesn't deserve to be happy... just who he is happy with. The fact that someone I know and have no respect for is party to my private life... Since, at the Tribunal, I was asked about certain situations which were very private and painful things I had shared with my husband with the firm belief that he would never divulge them to anyone -- things I cannot even share with my closest family members -- and know that he very likely told her....

Re: Thanks....

[frenchpress]

that must be the most difficult thing, that an enemy, of sorts, is where you used to be. so intimate. almost like you're uncomfortably intimate with her, now.

add the insult of the "annulment". as if the relationship were nothing.

Re: Thanks....

[mudhooks]

Exactly...