[MULTI-CHAP] Behind the Song [CARE]
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Creating Verse I
The words are forming on his mind, one by one the jumbled words are appearing on his mind as if it was having its own will to show it to his brain, words that he wanted to have so much and wanted to arranged for he knew that after completing this, something in him will be completed also and as for Akanishi Jin, he has been searching for completion for a long time now, more so as now that he is already 24 years old.
What’s wrong with him, Jin thought, he just cannot find any source of inspiration from the music that he loves to listen or from the old and new places that he had visited. He knew he has to get the lyrics out from his experiences but he cannot understand why all his memorable experiences points to those instances that involves only one person, that person that he truly believes in his heart that holds the key to completing him, and as if his brain was being run by his heart that angelic face pops up in his mind again.
Kamenashi Kazuya, another member of the band KAT-TUN created by Johnny-san, a boy who always harmonizes with him on their every song they have to sing, and a lot of people are saying that they blended perfectly and as for Jin singing with another JE no matter how good they are of no use to him as he felt empty inside singing with them and the song doesn’t affect him in any way, Jin only wants Kame and Kame fits him well.
Kame, , , as he fondly calls him both endearingly and teasingly, a boy 2 years younger than him but he believes is his equal in all aspect of his life and the only person he gives his respect and trust. The boy who Jin thinks when he smiles at him gives him not just smile but warmth that was much refreshing that anything he had ever known in his life.
And on cue just remembering Kame the first stanza of the song where formed for Jin.
Verse I:
“Nareai to uso no naka de bukiyou na ai seoi
Jikan ni oware iya ni natteta hi ni
Sukoshi jiyuu kanjita"
“Within affairs and lies, I am burdened by my awkwardness at love
On an awful day when I am pursued by time
I felt a little free”
Something about this line made him remember that time as if his brain has specially segregated this special memory just for this line of his song. . .
[Flashback Verse I]
“Jinnnnn” shouted Kame
Jin remembered they were on a location shoot for another magazine that day and they were both playing catch ball. Baseball was always been Kame’s favorite sport, truth be told if Jin can choose he much wanted to sleep inside the van as it was mid morning and the heat is just so much for him to take, but seeing how much fun Kame was having just throwing and catching that ball was affecting Jin in matters he cannot understand and he doesn’t have the heart to say no to Kame when he is being this energetic and happy.
Somehow seeing Kame happy makes Jin happy as well, oddly enough Jin just labeled it as true friendship as they have always been like this
“Jin, hey! Throw the ball!” positioning himself in anticipation of catching the ball
“Ne, Kame aren’t you tired yet?” asked Jin then throws the ball for he think a hundredth time already
“Nope, we have 1 hour break and we have just used 15 minutes and we have a lot of time to spare, don’t tell me you are tired already?” Kame said while throwing back the ball with all his might as if he is back on his field along with the other professional baseball players
“Well not really tired, but I was thinking of adding spice to this catch ball as its getting boring on my side though so at least we can find more fun in this, what about adding question and answer while doing catch ball?” shouted Jin and deliberately not throwing the ball
“Baka, what’s this like 20~questions/game/catch~ball?” Kame said while laughing and signaling him to throw the ball
“Something like that, just so we can see who can outwit who?” Jin said but deep inside him he just wanted to know more about his friend Kame, still keeping the ball to himself
“So what would be the topic like?” Kame said getting interested standing upright now
“Hmm, lets say something about confessing to the one you love, also something about love just to be fun, what do you say?” Jin already has list of questions that he had at the back of his mind, he knew this is cheesy but heck he wanted to know more about Kame
“Ah, baka,,, okay as it looks like you wont be throwing that ball anytime soon if I don’t agree with your “add on” game..” Kame said while shaking his head, emphasizing on the word, but if only Jin can see the sparkles on Kame’s eyes it would be enough to convince Jin that Kame likes the idea of the game
“Yosh, I’ll go first Kame” said Jin, “Ano, have you been in love before?” firing the first question then throws the ball
“Jin that was so hard for a first question!” Kame catches the ball shouting at the other boy
“Well just answer it, its not as if that wasn’t asked to you before” Jin said waiting for Kame’s answer and half heartedly dreading the answer as Jin knows that the answers that Kame gave to the other magazine interviews are just answers rehearsed by their manager so no actual facts are to be divulge from Kame’s private life and that goes also for the other members so the answer that Kame will be giving him will be a new information for Jin
“You are really serious about this ah!, ano,,, actually,,, Ahhh, Ok, I have before during high school days, I don’t normally openly discusses this to anyone else but because its Jin so I will talk, got that?” Kame said smiling sweetly at Jin’s direction and pausing a little bit on where to start talking
“Hmmm,, I liked her since the school term of my last year in high school started, I was a total goof in high school, I really don’t have that confidence in approaching girls at school but somehow this girl seems to like me also, smiling at my direction, being nice and sweet at me, she was kind of in the popular group so it was an added factor for me, I was thinking ~ wow a girl as popular as her would like me also, so I took my chance and asked her out and to my surprise she accepted it, we went to the cinema first and after eat at a fancy restaurant, mind you Jin I saved up a lot for that date as I want to impress her so much. Then I thought to myself to finish the day I asked her prior to our date if she likes going to the park at night and she said yes, so I prepared some fireworks for us to light up just to make it the most memorable first date for me, for us. You know Jin, I had 1 date in high school and that was I think half the best time of my life and the other half the worst time in my life…” Kame mused
All the while Jin was just silently listening to Kame’s recollections; the distance separating them did nothing to change the fact that Kame’s voice has gone a little low while relating his story.
“It was a date out of a losing bet!” Kame stated as a matter of fact, “When we were at the park I thought at first I was too excited that my eyes are seeing moments of white flashes, like I was being pictured at, then out of nowhere I saw her other popular friends snapping pictures of us. At first I was so surprised that I hid her at my back because I don’t want her to feel bad as I was thinking that they are going to make fun of her, but I felt her slowly stepping back and I looked at her and she has tears on her eyes, and that confuses me, because normally you don’t cry that easily over this you get annoyed but not cry,, hah so I asked her and she said ~“gomen nasai Kamenashi-kun, hontoni gomen, I got involved in a game with my friends and I lost and they dare me to go on a date with you so I will be forgiven”~, I was so really caught up in a dream that heck I have forgotten that it was too good to be true” finished Kame
“Kame,,,” was the only words that Jin can utter
“It’s alright Jin that was in the past…” Kame said bravely
“Ok, my turn” dismissing any further question from Jin and shaking the odd feeling of relief being able to say that to someone and not feeling ashamed that there was a time in his life that someone made a fool of him, and as he has confidence that Jin knows him so much more to make fun of him or tell other people about that chapter of his life
Jin upon hearing that has a lot of questions he wanted to ask Kame, about that girl, he was curious if Kame already forgave that girl or if she is still contacting him or if he really love this girl so much, heck he even want to know the name of the girl so he can check around about that girl who made a fool of his friend, , not just his normal ordinary friend but it was his friend Kame, but somehow seeing that Kame doesn’t want to further discuss it just keep the questions to him until another time permits him to ask them to Kame
“Same question Jin, , , have you loved someone before or do you love someone now?” Kame then throws the ball reverting back to his energetic self as if he did not tell Jin anything big about his past
Jin is not that great at baseball his more of a soccer athlete but simple catch ball doesn’t make him suck at this so he was so surprised that he missed that thrown ball by Kame
“Ah, eh,,” Jin fumbles in getting the ball
“You suck at this Jin!” tease Kame and Jin saw that the earlier momentary glaze of Kame’s eyes and lowering of voice disappeared and was now replaced with that warm smile of his again that Jin love so much, , , LOVE?!?!, , , as Jin pondered on that realization as that big word dawned upon on his sometimes slow understanding brain, the answer hits him.
“Hai, I do . . . and . . . it’s . . . Kame” softly Jin muttered to himself as he still cannot believe what he just realized and said
“Ahhh, what did you say?” Shouted Kame as he cannot believe that Jin would answer in a very inaudible tone, “Jinnnnnnn,,, baka don’t go answering without shouting it to me, I cannot hear you from here, that is not fair, I answered you earlier and that was loud enough for you to hear.” Rants Kame
Jin slowly raises his eyes towards Kame’s direction was already thinking that if Kame would feel offended about his confession then the hell with it, he cannot simply go on like this being close to Kame and enjoying his company but never really getting the chance to tell Kame what he really feels though how oddly that would sound to Kame Jin doesn’t care anymore
“Ano,,, Kame..” starts Jin still muttering to himself
“Jin, I cannot hear you louder please” shouts Kame
“Ano, erm , , , KAME!!!” Jin clearing his voice, “Kame I need to tell you something … about my answer . . . ” continued Jin, “I think I love someone now. . . “
“Hontoni?,,, you must tell me who that girl is,,,!” Kame yelled back awaiting Jin’s answer but upon hearing those words from Jin something in Kame’s heart ached as if a pin was darted at his chest and it pained him a lot
“This maybe sudden but, , ,” Jin said
“AHHHH, yabai!” Kame yelled, “Jin this is bad our 1hour break is already over, we have to go back to the shoot, let’s go” Kame said while running towards Jin removing his gloves
Kame knows that he purposely cuts the words that were going to be uttered by Jin as he feels a little unsure if he will like the answer that his friend will give him. Kame knows that his watch is always 5 minutes earlier than those of the watch of their manager so he will not have a problem with being on time after their break, truthfully Kame just wants to postponed what his friend will tell him, he felt a little bit odd at the thought that Jin loves someone now and he felt this should be talked to in a private place not just in a location shoot while they are playing catch ball
“Hey, you owe me your answer!” Kame stopped in front of Jin and gave Jin his famous wink then continues running towards the shoot as after the break it was his turn for the photo shoot
Jin was so prepared to shout to Kame’s back his answer but something in him was pulling him back making his throat closed in on the words that he is so ready to say out loud for Kame to hear, he recalled just what happened and Jin thought to himself, did Kame just wink at him and for the life of Jin he cannot remember ever been winked at before by Kame at that way and that made him choke even more the words that he wants to tell the other boy
[End Flashback Verse I]
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A/N: Ahhhh,, i've posted it,,, *shyingly hiding at the closet* i was actually planning to make this a one-shot fic but as there were a lot of good "akame moments" that i want to explore in this song so it took me 6pages already just for the 1st stanza of jins song... *o* lovelies,,, and then i kinda thought of making it a [MULTI-STANZA] *if theres somethng like this XDDD lolz i was checking with my nee-chan if that is possible and she said a flat out NO! ^^ *lovely person.. hahahaha,,, so so so,,, let me know if i just stop it here and post the rest of the stanza's and verses,,, if this is boring you people... ^^ but please be gentle ne,, as i am really a softie like my ichiban boy... ^^> mwahzzzz
Title: [MULTI-CHAP] Behind the Song [CARE]
Author: muchie05
Pairing: AKAME
Genre: Romance / Fluff / and a little bit of Angst thrown in
Disclaimer: I live and breath about them and I hope to own them!!! The song is entirely owned by Akanishi Jin and his management… ^^ whatever memories puts in between those lines are just me and my fictional mind can conjure for fangirling purposes.. no hurt intended! ^^
Summary: For Akanishi Jin writing a song is easy as anything under the sun or even what happens after dark, but this particular song was harder to write than any other song. [no good at summaries XD lolz]
A/N: First time to write a fic so please, please comments are so so love and tell me if I suck at this.. ^^>