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mturtled

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Jan 18, 2006 22:12

i'm sitting here alone in justin's room, and it's one of those times when you just feel really alone, and not just because you actually are in "reality," but whatever that's not the point. the point is i just watched this documentary on Larry "wildman" Fischer, and it was totally moving. you know when you're feeling a certain way for a while, ( Read more... )

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()o()o()o()o() aptlylaconic January 19 2006, 06:49:56 UTC

yeah mad props to aunty joe

overtheedgegirl January 19 2006, 08:27:17 UTC

dang gurl yer sure on about this one. i wanna see it hekxa bad.

mturtled January 20 2006, 06:18:14 UTC

in response to tori's comment, yeah it was a great movie, but i don't know if you'll like it as much as i did, i don't know if i like it as much as i did, i am in a strange place at the moment, hating myself mostly, so i hugely identified with the struggles of a very confused schisophrenic manic-depressive, oh well it was still hella good anyway, just ask vicki, kevin, bram or jake.

nearlyparadise February 1 2006, 01:43:29 UTC

why do you hate yourself...? is that too personal?

mturtled February 1 2006, 05:51:20 UTC

It's not a matter of hating myself solely. It's something that I think everyone experiences, and I'm sure that doesn't exclude you, and that is the feeling that sometimes you wish you could get out of your head, be someone else. It's a point one reaches when they begin to truly look at themselves. Maybe you've experienced this on hallucinogenic drugs, or maybe when you've done or said something you wish you didn't. I'm not going to lie, sometimes I wish I wasn't who I am, but that's not to say that I think that I'm better or worse than anyone else. I think we are all on the same level, and that's why I'm hesitant to judge people or call them crazy or stupid. I think everyone has ways of distracting themselves or whatever, but we are all capable of great things as well, and anything we try legitamately, we can do well. I just feel very limited by societal constraints, and the inhumanity of most people because of the world we live in. This is not to say that I don't think that people can change, but many don't want to, and I can ( ... )