feeling better today. I have band , but i'm feeling better. Better about almost everything. just thought i'd update something happy for once

I hate this... Ted got me up early so i could try and work out his stupid cable, but it is being retarded... We've tried it on 2 computers and it's just bugging the shit out of me. Not to mention everything else! I must have woken up about five times because of stupid dreams, and then when i fainally get a good one my brother disides i need to hook ( Read more... )

just me again... not that anyone pays attentiong... thought i'd just update and tell you guys it's still not going good, but you all could have guessed that

::sigh:: new huants are added... and the old ones havn't even left yet...so many things running through my brain... so little brain prossecing speed... i wish i knew the answer... all i really know is what people want me to think or do... and what i know about that is i usually am dissiagreeing... i have to forget all the old things that hurt, and ( Read more... )

and yet i still feel like shit... it's just like that song by linken park, in the end it doesn't even matter... no matter how hard you try, you're bound to failure... or at least i am... prove me wronge world.. prove me wrong... show me i can do something right... the only thing that matters right now...

still not feeling good... like anyone cares... my thoughts are devouring my hope... how depressing. If it's all true, then i'm screwed... if not.. then what next? I'll just try to keep on keeping on. Everything will be better, no matter how long it takes! Hopefully the better I'm thinking of. ::sigh:: I'm sick of this... Damn it all....

::sighs of discontent:: I know thing'll get better.... I just know they will. But right now it hurts so much. I can't stop myself from thinking about her. Nomatter what i do, something always seems to remind me of her. I doubt it's the same way for her... she has better things to worry about. I can't even go to sleep without thinking about her for ( Read more... )

I cried ( Read more... )

I'm not feeling good right now...I don't even want to sleep. I'm so bored latly. I'm just ganna chill out and wait for things to get better...noone cares...prove me wronge......or i will think noone cares

GRRR...AHHHHHH....Ughhhh.... frustration overwelming... Ken has such a lose tounge.. he had to tell Brandee.. one of the few people i didn't want to know... now she's ganna get all "poor baby ben" on me... Grrr...ACKKK ....ughh ....so much to think about ... so confused ... so many stupid dots............................ oh the stupid dots.