I didn't find out until late August, ironically just a couple of days after I had to put my cat down and was still reeling with mourning. That was the day I decided to check up on you. I'd been worried about you since February...
I'm really sorry that we didn't talk more. And I wish there was something I could have done. You seemed like you were doing so much better recently...
Even though we never had more conversation than a few comments back and forth occasionally, I thought about you a lot, and I still do, probably even more now. My friends page is half as busy now without your frequent posts.
Wanted to mention that I kind of regret that I stopped posting to LJ. The last thing you ever saw me post was a lyric from "Shake It Off", and now every time I hear that song at work or anywhere I think about you and it makes me sad. I'm sorry we didn't interact more. Your daily presence on my friends page is missed.
Terry, I just found this tonight and I'm so so sorry to hear how much pain you had been enduring. I'd only known you on LJ and am so sad that I never took the opportunity to know you more. You were one of the "realest" online people I have ever met and I took you for granted. You were a regular, man. You were always here. When the whole damn place was filled with crickets, here you were, sharing. Fuck.
I'd been away from LJ for awhile and recently came back, prompted by some other friends. Came to ping you because WTF, why were you MIA? And then oh shit. I'm so sad. I'm so sorry. I'm checking out all the links and videos and all of the etcetera.
Fuck. Depression is a fucking bullshit evil lying monster. I'm so sorry it took you. It somehow convinced you that we'd be better off without you. What a fucking crock. That lying fuck.
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There is a a memorial page for Terry on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/pages/Memorial-To-Terry-Lee-Mathews/221868637964121
http://oddharmonic.livejournal.com/492688.html
http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/gazette/obituary-print.aspx?n=terry-lee-mathews&pid=165889998
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I'm really sorry that we didn't talk more. And I wish there was something I could have done. You seemed like you were doing so much better recently...
Even though we never had more conversation than a few comments back and forth occasionally, I thought about you a lot, and I still do, probably even more now. My friends page is half as busy now without your frequent posts.
I'm really sorry. I'm thinking of you.
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I'd been away from LJ for awhile and recently came back, prompted by some other friends. Came to ping you because WTF, why were you MIA? And then oh shit. I'm so sad. I'm so sorry. I'm checking out all the links and videos and all of the etcetera.
Fuck. Depression is a fucking bullshit evil lying monster. I'm so sorry it took you. It somehow convinced you that we'd be better off without you. What a fucking crock. That lying fuck.
I miss you.
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