Nightmares

[morethings5]

Dear Livejournal,

That last entry was utter bullshit.  As I finished writing it I became sick with how composed it was.  I become sick of how composed I am.  It's absurd.  I wind myself up and wear myself down until I present my most polished face when I need it most.  It's disgusting.  I've been trying to live for days leading up to this day

Comments

[anonymous]

I'm worried about you. Please don't be so hard on yourself. We're all only human, prone to the mistakes and mired in the muck that accompanies that fact.

[morethings5]

You know nothing of my "mistakes."

I'm charmed that you choose to express your concern for me anonymously.