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[morethanjake543]

So I guess my last entry wasn't all my fault. Or, at least it wasn't just because I suck at communicating. After talking it over with her for a bit, I realized that the frustration I was all shitfucked over was because our relationship was teetering near collapse. Well . . . not exactly teetering. She had been thinking "about it" for the week

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[barbiebabe1231]

Heya how are you? I know it's weird I'm commenting on a break up post but how's it going???
ps - I also had an "other person is inebriated often" relationship. It wasn't much fun, so I can relate.

[morethanjake543]

It's going really well! I don't want to make it sound like I'm horribly depressed or anything like that. I love my school work and I'm actually finding satisfaction in some of it.

Now that I've had some more time to think about it, I feel using the inebriated bit is a bit of a scapegoat. Or, at the very least, it is for me. I don't think my relationship lasted longer than the fling-time-amount-thinger. There is this disjuncture between how I wanted to see the girl, and how she actually was. My head let me see past a bunch of things I would've disagreed with from the get-go, and it's in this drastic variation between image and reality that I've found most of my disappointment all post-relationship like. Up until recently, I thought that the inebriation was just another "image" one step further removed from who she really was.

I am riding bikes and smiling more than ever, though. Hurray sunshine!

[bathroom_ninja]

you can't be friends right after a break up. unless you want a lot of angry sex.

[morethanjake543]

You can't get angry sex if they jump into a relationship with someone else a couple of days later.

Well, you can. But most of the time that's just rape.

ZING!