Glee | Words & Fear | Terri (One Shot)
Three week Glee hiatus, the horrors! To try and make it go by faster, I decided to do this project. I'll put up one new ficlet every day (I hope...) up to the day Glee returns! So be on the lookout! :)
"WORDS & FEAR"
Terri
“I went to the baby doctor today.”
“And?”
“And…”
Terri sat there, staring back at her husband. The look, his eyes… she couldn’t escape them.
Looking into his eyes, she realized something that made her pause… She hadn’t seen him so attentive to her, so happy… in so long. It took seeing him since she’d told him she was pregnant to realize how long it had been since she’d seen him like this.
More than that, his being happy… it made her happy, gave them so much more as a couple… she couldn’t explain it, they were just… better.
Ever since the doctor had explained to her about the baby, or lack thereof, she’d been left to fear that her new happiness, everything she and Will had been rebuilding… it would all be taken away from her.
They’d wanted that baby so much, wanted to be whole… a happy family.
She’d wanted it too much… or her mind knew it was all she could do to keep her husband?
She didn’t want to think that, which could only guarantee she would be thinking about it constantly.
All she wanted to know was how they’d come to be in this place. They’d been in love, hadn’t they? Were they… was he still in love with her? Of course… of course?
People got divorced all the time. They probably didn’t go and imagine they could one day find themselves without the love that united them to keep them together. They also probably never thought it would happen to them…
It wasn’t going to happen to them, right? Sure, they had their problems, but who didn’t? They had a chance, they could fix the holes in their marriage, she knew they could.
This baby had been their chance, their way to start on repair. It could still be their chance if...
“It’s a boy!”
The words ran past her lips, and she froze, as though in her mind she was reviewing what had just happened.
And then Will had smile, so she’d smiled.
What had she done? She’d meant to say “there was nothing, there never was…” So why hadn’t she?
The fragile bridge they’d built wouldn’t have held, would have crumbled without its supports. She’d known, and she’d done… what she could.
She’d delayed the problem… or made it worse?
No… she could make it work. She had to find a way to make it work… For Will, for their marriage… there could still be time to fix things…
Five years married… it had been the happiest day of her life, and from then she’d done her best to have as many days like that one day as she could. Sure, it wasn’t easy. Neither of them made much money, a point which had been a constant battle between them.
She remembered, being a little girl, using her dolls to invent the happiest little home she could imagine. Her sister Kendra would often tease her for it, tell her that her games were stupid. It wasn’t a game to her though, it was… possibility.
And then she’d met Will, the first year of high school. He wasn’t like the others, which was what had drawn her to him, right from the start. She was… curious, intrigued. He was the perfect expression of her childhood dreams.
She’d cared for him from the start, and he’d returned the feelings. Everything was just perfect, and she assumed that was how it would always be… easy, happy…
And it was, for a while. They were both content with one another, in love with each other…
So when had it changed? When had their love changed, and why hadn’t she seen it? Even if it was gradual, little things, she should have known…
The baby would have changed that… it would change it… right?
What if she still lost him? What if it only delayed the inevitable?
She hugged him just a little tighter in that moment, wanting to hold on to as many good memories as she could. She wasn’t giving up.
THE END
PREVIOUS DAYS
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"WORDS & FEAR"
Terri
“I went to the baby doctor today.”
“And?”
“And…”
Terri sat there, staring back at her husband. The look, his eyes… she couldn’t escape them.
Looking into his eyes, she realized something that made her pause… She hadn’t seen him so attentive to her, so happy… in so long. It took seeing him since she’d told him she was pregnant to realize how long it had been since she’d seen him like this.
More than that, his being happy… it made her happy, gave them so much more as a couple… she couldn’t explain it, they were just… better.
Ever since the doctor had explained to her about the baby, or lack thereof, she’d been left to fear that her new happiness, everything she and Will had been rebuilding… it would all be taken away from her.
They’d wanted that baby so much, wanted to be whole… a happy family.
She’d wanted it too much… or her mind knew it was all she could do to keep her husband?
She didn’t want to think that, which could only guarantee she would be thinking about it constantly.
All she wanted to know was how they’d come to be in this place. They’d been in love, hadn’t they? Were they… was he still in love with her? Of course… of course?
People got divorced all the time. They probably didn’t go and imagine they could one day find themselves without the love that united them to keep them together. They also probably never thought it would happen to them…
It wasn’t going to happen to them, right? Sure, they had their problems, but who didn’t? They had a chance, they could fix the holes in their marriage, she knew they could.
This baby had been their chance, their way to start on repair. It could still be their chance if...
“It’s a boy!”
The words ran past her lips, and she froze, as though in her mind she was reviewing what had just happened.
And then Will had smile, so she’d smiled.
What had she done? She’d meant to say “there was nothing, there never was…” So why hadn’t she?
The fragile bridge they’d built wouldn’t have held, would have crumbled without its supports. She’d known, and she’d done… what she could.
She’d delayed the problem… or made it worse?
No… she could make it work. She had to find a way to make it work… For Will, for their marriage… there could still be time to fix things…
Five years married… it had been the happiest day of her life, and from then she’d done her best to have as many days like that one day as she could. Sure, it wasn’t easy. Neither of them made much money, a point which had been a constant battle between them.
She remembered, being a little girl, using her dolls to invent the happiest little home she could imagine. Her sister Kendra would often tease her for it, tell her that her games were stupid. It wasn’t a game to her though, it was… possibility.
And then she’d met Will, the first year of high school. He wasn’t like the others, which was what had drawn her to him, right from the start. She was… curious, intrigued. He was the perfect expression of her childhood dreams.
She’d cared for him from the start, and he’d returned the feelings. Everything was just perfect, and she assumed that was how it would always be… easy, happy…
And it was, for a while. They were both content with one another, in love with each other…
So when had it changed? When had their love changed, and why hadn’t she seen it? Even if it was gradual, little things, she should have known…
The baby would have changed that… it would change it… right?
What if she still lost him? What if it only delayed the inevitable?
She hugged him just a little tighter in that moment, wanting to hold on to as many good memories as she could. She wasn’t giving up.
THE END
PREVIOUS DAYS
[1] [2] [3] [4]
Suggestion Drop Off