I'm just sitting here, thinking about what to say to you. Or what I would've said to you. And then thoughts of him cloud my mind and I don't know what to think...I just know that I am in a sort of dilemma. If you can even call it that. Well, thats whats on my mind. It would've been nice to talk to you. I miss talking to you. I miss... ( Read more... )

Hello guys! How is everyone? I am good. Slightly confused and feeling bad though, but whatever. I did something that I shouldn't have done. And now I don't know what to do about it. Its kind of sucky. So yesterday I had fun. Me and Kristine had our little picnic in the rain. It was fun. Except we sorta cheated and ate in her car instead ( Read more... )

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Wow, my last entry sucked. Why do I let myself get that down? Its so stupid and worthless, right? Ahh, whatever. Today turned out ok. I got to spend some time with my auntie and Hailey. I had fun. We just went to the mall and looked for wedding stuff. Oh, my grandma got me this totally cute dress for ONE DOLLAR! Can you believe that? Its ( Read more... )

What am I doing? Going around with a smile that isn't true? I'm not truly happy right now. I thought I was, but now its quite obvious that I'm not. Sure, I laugh and smile and crack jokes right along with everyone else, but its always there. Always there in the back of my mind. I can't even stop it. I try but it won't go away. I was doing ( Read more... )

Yesterday was fun. School sucked like usual, but after school is when all the fun starts anyways. The lovely Kristine came over to stay the night. We had some plans but they all fell through, so we just went to open mic night. That kind of sucked because Kristine didnt want to be there and it was sorta corny. Then after wards we rode with Paul ( Read more... )

So today got a little easier. Not much though. I didn't cry all day until around five or so when I went to the beach with Kylee. God, so many memories there...But I had fun. I think the best period in school was first. Kristine brought me some nummy carmel popcorn (comfort food) and made me laugh the whole time. I even turned on the water ( Read more... )

So life isn't so great and wonderful right now. I've got a headache from crying a whole bunch. And I can't stop crying. Its like every time I calm I see or hear or think of something else that will make me cry. I'm such a cry baby. God, I need to get out of this house and do something. I need someone to talk to. Maybe Kristine, shes great to ( Read more... )

Today is lazy. I haven't done anything. However, Kristine did come and see me for a little bit. My weekend was good. I hung out with Kristine on Friday. That was great fun. We went with her "homie" Kyle, his gf and Evan, oh and Ian down to Alki. I like going there. Kristine got stuck like twice, that was great. I got a slurpee too. I love ( Read more... )

Happy Green Day all! Today was kind of boring and way too normal, well except for the whole green theme, but yeah. I'm even chewing green gum right now. Lol. Anyways, I paid more of my money for New York and found out that I have to pay $400 more...great. Yesterday I got some cute skirts to wear when it is nice and a fun pair of strappy ( Read more... )