Fic: "Clemency," Criminal Minds, Hotch/Rossi, R.
My first Criminal Minds fic and second Porn Battle ficlet! Eep!
Title: "Clemency"
Author: monimala
Fandom: Criminal Minds
Rating/Classification: R, Hotch/Rossi, angst, slash, spoilers for the current season.
Disclaimer: I don't own them and am making no profit.
Summary: 500 words. Written for Oxoniensis' Porn Battle IX, for the prompt "Hotch/Rossi, restraint."
Everyone sees the shadows under Hotch's eyes after Haley. All that regret, all that misery. Dave is the only one who gets to taste them. To press his mouth to the harsh slashes of Aaron's cheekbones and wrap his fingers around his throat in a parody of strangulation. "Do it," Hotch whispers, dully, but Dave pays the empty whisper no mind, instead stroking his pulse with his thumb and murmuring nonsensical things about how he should get some rest.
Aaron's barely holding it together these days. The guilt, the loneliness, tethers his pieces like fragile bits of thread. He hasn't slept in weeks, and Dave can hear --*has* heard-- him telling Reid or Morgan or J.J. about the importance of not giving one's nightmares power. Of course Hotch can't follow his own advice. None of them ever can. We few, we happy few, Dave thinks, bitterly.
Dave helps Aaron undress. Unknots his tie, unbuttons his shirt. Aaron stands there like an overgrown doll, letting him bend his limbs this way and that, moving sluggishly when it comes time to step out of his slightly wrinkled suit pants. "Come on," Dave whispers, tugging him to bed. "Come with me."
Once his back hits the cool, clean sheets, Aaron seems to finally snap out of his malaise. As if he realizes it's time to bridge the space his terrible burden of sadness, silence and stoicism has put between them. He rises up, hooking one leg around Dave's hips, and kisses him with a ferocity that surprises them both. Every time they've done this before, it's been easy, gentle, like lovers who have been together for years and have all the time in the world to explore each other. Like two friends offering each other simple comforts after a day filled with horror. Hotch shows no such restraint now. Freed of his clothes, of his chains, temporarily absolved of his sins; he tells Dave he doesn't want to rest. That he never wants to rest. "Keep me up, Dave," he begs, bringing him even closer with just the whisper of his name, even though mere inches separate their bodies now. "Keep me up all night."
Everyone sees the shadows under Hotch's eyes after Haley. All that regret, all that misery. Dave is the only one who gets to taste them. To devour all of Hotch's grief. From throat to chest to groin. He engulfs the pain inch by inch, until Aaron is raging, throwing his head from side to side on the pillow and beating the mattress with his fists. He begs, pleads, and curses in turns. Dave works him with his mouth and his hands, gently trying to mend what is so fundamentally broken. He's never been the team's healer, the one they go to for solace and strength. But he will always do for Aaron Hotchner what Hotch so selflessly does for others.
He'll give him a safe place, without judgment and without fear.
He'll give him the gift of release.
--end--
January 24, 2010
Title: "Clemency"
Author: monimala
Fandom: Criminal Minds
Rating/Classification: R, Hotch/Rossi, angst, slash, spoilers for the current season.
Disclaimer: I don't own them and am making no profit.
Summary: 500 words. Written for Oxoniensis' Porn Battle IX, for the prompt "Hotch/Rossi, restraint."
Everyone sees the shadows under Hotch's eyes after Haley. All that regret, all that misery. Dave is the only one who gets to taste them. To press his mouth to the harsh slashes of Aaron's cheekbones and wrap his fingers around his throat in a parody of strangulation. "Do it," Hotch whispers, dully, but Dave pays the empty whisper no mind, instead stroking his pulse with his thumb and murmuring nonsensical things about how he should get some rest.
Aaron's barely holding it together these days. The guilt, the loneliness, tethers his pieces like fragile bits of thread. He hasn't slept in weeks, and Dave can hear --*has* heard-- him telling Reid or Morgan or J.J. about the importance of not giving one's nightmares power. Of course Hotch can't follow his own advice. None of them ever can. We few, we happy few, Dave thinks, bitterly.
Dave helps Aaron undress. Unknots his tie, unbuttons his shirt. Aaron stands there like an overgrown doll, letting him bend his limbs this way and that, moving sluggishly when it comes time to step out of his slightly wrinkled suit pants. "Come on," Dave whispers, tugging him to bed. "Come with me."
Once his back hits the cool, clean sheets, Aaron seems to finally snap out of his malaise. As if he realizes it's time to bridge the space his terrible burden of sadness, silence and stoicism has put between them. He rises up, hooking one leg around Dave's hips, and kisses him with a ferocity that surprises them both. Every time they've done this before, it's been easy, gentle, like lovers who have been together for years and have all the time in the world to explore each other. Like two friends offering each other simple comforts after a day filled with horror. Hotch shows no such restraint now. Freed of his clothes, of his chains, temporarily absolved of his sins; he tells Dave he doesn't want to rest. That he never wants to rest. "Keep me up, Dave," he begs, bringing him even closer with just the whisper of his name, even though mere inches separate their bodies now. "Keep me up all night."
Everyone sees the shadows under Hotch's eyes after Haley. All that regret, all that misery. Dave is the only one who gets to taste them. To devour all of Hotch's grief. From throat to chest to groin. He engulfs the pain inch by inch, until Aaron is raging, throwing his head from side to side on the pillow and beating the mattress with his fists. He begs, pleads, and curses in turns. Dave works him with his mouth and his hands, gently trying to mend what is so fundamentally broken. He's never been the team's healer, the one they go to for solace and strength. But he will always do for Aaron Hotchner what Hotch so selflessly does for others.
He'll give him a safe place, without judgment and without fear.
He'll give him the gift of release.
--end--
January 24, 2010