this is a letter dana sent to me in a big birthday package that arrived a little over a week ago (on my birthday, who'd imagine). he said he wrote it approximately when i touched down in australia, so it is vague and encouraging all at the same time. i write it here for reasons unknown to me ( Read more... )

my journal turned three about a week ago, and i turn twenty tomorrow. it's very strange. at the same time, it's not ( Read more... )

i need to get out and do the things i know i need to do, but i feel like there are some things i need to say before i can talk myself into it.
( where are you now? )

number one: i have a absolutely killer story to tell when i get home, but it is too sensitive to tell here or anytime soon. but PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE remind me. it's shocking ( Read more... )

hey, all. i'm doing well. classes started yesterday. thanks to the butt-whipping wheaton ususally gives me, these classes should be challenging but tolerable. i'm experiencing some knee problems at the moment--probably tendonitis or just not wearing the right shoes, etc., but nothing is getting my spirits down. i just hope all is better for spiro ( Read more... )

last thing i remember, the penvensie children were talking to beaver. the next thing i know, mom is telling me to wake up and go to bed. i crash into my pillow, hardly bothering to take off my jeans, somewhere around eleven pm. at three am i'm awake with a start, somehow missing my pants (where did i take them off, anyway?) with the blood of a ( Read more... )

remind me to burn the format's first cd for you--yummy. got it from a gal at saatchi and am just now listening to it ( Read more... )

skizz and i are done. really. i had dinner with him tonight, and he's taking me to the airport tomorrow, and i think we're both actually okay with where we are--a first for sure. it wasn't an easy process, and took multiple several-hour conversations to make it all clear. but he's starting to understand that he deserves someone who feels as ( Read more... )

when i go, don't ever think you'll make me try to stay ( Read more... )

there are some things i need desperately to say. i don't know if what will come out of me now is any of them, but i've been thinking all day about doing this. something about you being able to read it presses me on.
( another cut without a proper label! )