It's hard to have any strength or willpower when nothing is going right or the way you want it to. We have this preconceived notion that our dreams or fantasies can become a reality. I always think of things that I would want to do or experience or become but once I get there, it's not the same. So really, I never actually get there.
"You don't have to always rely on yourself." That's what we need to accept and it's just so hard when you've been alone most of the time, stuck with yourself, with no outlet. It kind of comes down to a trust issue too. Can you trust that a person will listen to you? be there for you? want to be there for you. That's the number one question right there, for me at least
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I guess I've never really explained the erika and I thing. I don't really go into a lot of details like that on here since I figure they're kinda boring and people just forget them. But I guess the nutshell...
I met her at the club one night about a month ago, SHE made out with me just out of nowhere, we've been hanging out off and on since then. We really get along well, we have a lot in common but not too much and we have REALLY good conversations, which is something I think is awesome. but... she's 6 years older than me so if we were gonna date it would be kinda weird we've both decided, I think she'll be a good friend to keep though, which I'm not complaining about...
I have stuff I put my energy into and which mean a lot to me, the main 2 are: -school -my podcast (and the scene in general too I guess, but the podcast is my small way of giving back), and some day I'm going to open a club of my own, that's one of my long term goals/dreams...
Figured I make em in seperate comments.
Thanks a bunch, I really appreciate you taking your time to comment back and read my post, it's nice to have that.
You're very welcome. It's the least I can do. Plus, I know it feels nice to know that someone's actually taking the time to read what you have to say. Even if that's not the intention.
So yeah, no matter how sick you get of me I'll be commenting. (sounds kind of obsessive...)
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It's hard to have any strength or willpower when nothing is going right or the way you want it to. We have this preconceived notion that our dreams or fantasies can become a reality. I always think of things that I would want to do or experience or become but once I get there, it's not the same. So really, I never actually get there.
"You don't have to always rely on yourself." That's what we need to accept and it's just so hard when you've been alone most of the time, stuck with yourself, with no outlet. It kind of comes down to a trust issue too. Can you trust that a person will listen to you? be there for you? want to be there for you. That's the number one question right there, for me at least ( ... )
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I met her at the club one night about a month ago, SHE made out with me just out of nowhere, we've been hanging out off and on since then. We really get along well, we have a lot in common but not too much and we have REALLY good conversations, which is something I think is awesome. but... she's 6 years older than me so if we were gonna date it would be kinda weird we've both decided, I think she'll be a good friend to keep though, which I'm not complaining about...
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-school
-my podcast (and the scene in general too I guess, but the podcast is my small way of giving back), and some day I'm going to open a club of my own, that's one of my long term goals/dreams...
Figured I make em in seperate comments.
Thanks a bunch, I really appreciate you taking your time to comment back and read my post, it's nice to have that.
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You're very welcome. It's the least I can do. Plus, I know it feels nice to know that someone's actually taking the time to read what you have to say. Even if that's not the intention.
So yeah, no matter how sick you get of me I'll be commenting.
(sounds kind of obsessive...)
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