An honest answer, please

[ml3602]

I only have a few minutes before my mother gets here to watch the new Lost episode but I felt the need to post this while I was thinking about it.

What all do you dislike about me?

And if you think that question sounded too harsh, maybe just try answering a similar version:

What all would you change about me?I realize this is probably a crazy

Comments

[bubblemum]

Nooooo you can't ask me that :bawl:

Ok not gonna answer annon hmmmmm I think you should spend more time online :P

Honestly I can't think of a bad thing to say

[ml3602]

Heh, I probably could do that if I had another comp. Always afraid this one is going to crash for good on me if I use it as long as I used to. *sigh*

Aww, that was a very sweet thing to say! But I definitely know there are bad qualities to my personality. I'm way too guarded and secretive for one thing. It is probably harder to see online though. :)

[bubblemum]

Yeah you're always so open

I hate that you live closer to Daniel than me, that's the best you're gonna get :P

[ml3602]

I think that is because I find it more comfortable to write about my feelings rather than to say them out loud.

Heh, I'm sure Daniel hates it, too. It is easier for me to follow through on those pan threats if he does something wrong. :P

[greenmachine82]

i dont really know you that well. you seem to be very...passive. step up and dont be afraid to say what you think or defend what you think is right.

sorry if thats not what youre lookin for. remember sometimes youve got to be mean grrrrrrrrrrr

buh bye

[ml3602]

I think I just choose my battles too carefully. I'm rather cautious about offending anyone but I am downright lethal when I do get provoked enough to say something. I guess that is why I am so cautious about reaching that point of no return. lol.

And that was what I was looking for, thank you. :)

[pure_magic]

Um... I can't think of anything negative to say about you. You're really sweet and you always say some of the nicest things to people. You make sure to include everybody at BHC... even though that often results in million page long posts. :) I think I'm going to have to agree with M... it'd be way cooler if you were online more. I think part of the problem is that we see your personality online but not in real life. We don't know when you're being secretive because we have nothing to compare it to. That's just my $.02

[ml3602]

Aw, thank you, Mandy. I just need to learn how to find a balance between LJ and BHC again. :)

I also need to get another computer to keep up with everything. The screen on this one has been jumpy for two weeks now. I'm not sure if that is going to go away like the last time or if this is the end of the line for the comp. Hopefully I'll be online more whenever I have a stable computer again.

I'm probably not as secretive as I think on here. I definitely say more on here than I do offline, especially as of late.

Thanks for the help, hun. :)

[pure_magic]

Yes, you do need a better computer

[ml3602]

I completely understand what you mean. It reminds me of the time Dawson read Joey's journal on Dawson's Creek. People just have to remember that we write things in our journals often in a very heated state, so angry words said about a certain person in those journals doesn't necessarily reflect on how we feel about them during every day life. We all say things we don't mean when we are angry. But you are right about how your friend should have respected your privacy. You would have made the entry available to her if you had wanted her to read it. And I honestly don't think people should know how we feel toward them when we are angry. Those thoughts hurt when they are usually only fleeting in our minds.

[beefshake]

if you spent more time online (which is the third time you saw this) i don't think that you would be as secretive and guarded, because I think you are always soo honest with us about your feelings and not afraid to say things to us. Ummmm so I can't think of anything either...sorry

[ml3602]

No, you did good, Lyndsey. :)

I think I'm more open offline since I started opening up more on here. The problem is that I feel more comfortable writing about my feelings, though another problem has been that I didn't have the courage to say a few things to people offline. It is so more real when you are honest about certains things to someone you have to face every day. But, yes, I have been much more open offline because of the use of LJ this year. I still need to work on it though. It is about time for the walls to come down. lol.

[grace_and_mercy]

I can honestly honestly honestly, say with no disrespect meant to my other LJ chicas, that you are the most difficult person i know tboth online and in in RL to answer this question. I'm not just saying that, i truely would not change one thing about you, not one single thing.

But like the other girls, it would be great if you came online more, but that's only cos I love you so much. And maybe if there was one thing, i'd say give yourself a little bit more credit. You're so fantastic and amazing and you never seem to truely see just *how* wonderful you are. Like doing this exercise in the first place shows how you always want to better yourself and be a bigger person which is a pretty awesome quality, but in my eyes you have nothing to change at all, you're just perfect the way you are *hugs*

[ml3602]

Wow. What you said made me cry and left me speechless...

I guess I come across a bit differently on here because all of the barriers are not up. Most people irl would probably say I'm a difficult person to know. But thank you for everything you said. I might not consider myself perfect, but I do appreciate and value everything you have to say. Besides, I'd have a big ego if I considered myself perfect and that wouldn't be a good thing. :)

Thank you, sweetie. I love you, too. *hugs*