[songfic] Imperfect Angel
Imperfect Angel
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : akame
Rating : safe. The fact, even I dunno how I should rate this drabble~ XDXD
Summary : …because sometime, angel has no wings…not radiant… not beautiful…
Warning : un-betaed
A/N : too much listening to ‘Malaikat Pun Tahu’ (Even The Angels Know) by Dewi Lestari… the song is about someone who love someone else, but that person never noticed the one-sided feelings… I luv the reff~!! Tried to translate the lyrics to English… sorry for the crappiness~!! XDXD
Your weariness is also mine
Your happiness is my happiness too
We always shared our fate
Except every time when you fall in love
I didn’t know… since when this feelings grew inside me…
When I realized it…
This feelings had grown so big; its root so deep in my heart…
I was so confused
“ But how come…?”
You are my best friend. We are best friends.
That was us rite?
We were supposed to be friends…
I mean, it was our relationship for those past years; best friends.
We shared everything.
Everything… because we have no secrets between us.
Jin…
Your weariness is also mine.
The moment you looked so exhausted and reached your limit…
My heart wrenched in sorrow
But when you are happy…
Then it makes me feel happy too.
Your happiness is my happiness…
Because I love your smile
And I’ll do anything to saw it on your face…
But as we were no longer kids…
There’s a pang in my heart…
It hurts every time you fall in love with a girl
Your excited tone cast thousands of daggers which stabbed my heart painfully
When you talked about the girls attracted your attention… I smiled.
I forced that smiles…
But maybe you never realized that…
This time I almost reached for my limit
To prove you there was a real love
Come faithfully every day
Didn’t have a heart to left you alone
It’s hard to stay by your side
Since it hurts me that you never noticed my feelings
And I couldn’t told you about it
I love you so much, Jin…
But I couldn’t say it.
And you never noticed it.
You are insensitive about this kind of things, as usual…
And every time I wished to leave…
Your eyes will plea for my companion
And I couldn’t say ‘No’ to your eyes…
Since I love you so…
Even though sometimes you were busy in your own world
Because you didn’t see
Sometimes angel has no wings, not radiant, not beautiful
But this love you may to strive
Even the angels knew who will be the winner
…what am I to you, Jin ?
“ You are my best friend, Kazu. You are my angel, you are my sunshine… You are my everything… “ You answered with a huge grin plastered on your face.
But I’m not your lover, Jin…
And you will never see me as one…
You said… that I was your angel.
But you never noticed…
That sometimes, angel has no wings, not radiant, not beautiful…
And that broken angel is me.
Because I’m not good enough…
To make you fall for me…
Your loneliness won’t disappear in one night
By a mere dream lover
But a chance for me, who maybe imperfect
But ready to strive
I believe in myself
That my love is the pure one
But you didn’t see
Sometimes angel has no wings, not radiant, not beautiful
But this love you may to strive
Even the angels knew who will be the winner
And it was hurt.
It hurts, it hurts, it hurts…
It always hurts when I saw you tried to fill the emptiness in your heart
You will spend the night in a girl’s embrace
Even though you knew that it won’t make your loneliness disappear…
Why you never noticed my feelings…?
Why you never noticed my love ?
My love for you is pure, Jin.
Even though I’m not perfect…
Well, I love you in my imperfectness; and that means everything.
I love you so…
With all of my heart, my soul, everything…
You always ask for my companion
You always teased that you wished that my face is replaced
Let me go
Because you didn’t stand being alone
But you didn’t see
Sometimes angel has no wings, not radiant, not beautiful
But this love you may to strive
Even the angels knew who will be the winner
And you will always ended in my place.
Babbling about how your life is sucks; that no one love you…
That’s not right, Jin.
I love you.
I always love you.
I always will…
But…
You never noticed that.
Even though I say it so many time…
You didn’t notice that I was serious… that my love for you is beyond the friendship’s love… that I love you so much as a person; even I knew that my love is forbidden and sinful since both of us is male.
But my love itself is pure…
This love, you may to strive it…
You’ll see then… because even the angels knew who will be the winner…
…but why you never noticed that, Jin…?
-owari-
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-extra part-
“ If only that you are a girl, Kazu… “ You whined-not sober enough since alcohol took the control of your mind already, “ I’ll definitely fall for you “
So…
“ And that’s why you don’t ? Because I’m a guy… ? “
“ Who said that I didn’t fall for you…? “
“ Eh…? “
“ I fell for you a long time ago, Kazuuu… But we are best friends, and both of us is guy… And you’ll never…ever…fall for me… So… that’s why I always feel so lonely, and ended looking for some release with those girls…“
A tear fell from my eyes.
“ Baka… “
“ Eh ? “
“ Jin… I love you… I fell for you for a long time ago too… “
Your eyes widened in shock; and you grabbed my body in a swift move. Your lips crashed against mine; shared the feverish kiss that we both longed for years…
“ I love you, Kazu… You knew, I have told you before, rite ? You are my best friend, Kazu… You are my angel, you are my sunshine… You are my everything… “
…why it took years for us to notice that…?
But now… finally we’re holding our true happiness…
-owari-
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : akame
Rating : safe. The fact, even I dunno how I should rate this drabble~ XDXD
Summary : …because sometime, angel has no wings…not radiant… not beautiful…
Warning : un-betaed
A/N : too much listening to ‘Malaikat Pun Tahu’ (Even The Angels Know) by Dewi Lestari… the song is about someone who love someone else, but that person never noticed the one-sided feelings… I luv the reff~!! Tried to translate the lyrics to English… sorry for the crappiness~!! XDXD
Your weariness is also mine
Your happiness is my happiness too
We always shared our fate
Except every time when you fall in love
I didn’t know… since when this feelings grew inside me…
When I realized it…
This feelings had grown so big; its root so deep in my heart…
I was so confused
“ But how come…?”
You are my best friend. We are best friends.
That was us rite?
We were supposed to be friends…
I mean, it was our relationship for those past years; best friends.
We shared everything.
Everything… because we have no secrets between us.
Jin…
Your weariness is also mine.
The moment you looked so exhausted and reached your limit…
My heart wrenched in sorrow
But when you are happy…
Then it makes me feel happy too.
Your happiness is my happiness…
Because I love your smile
And I’ll do anything to saw it on your face…
But as we were no longer kids…
There’s a pang in my heart…
It hurts every time you fall in love with a girl
Your excited tone cast thousands of daggers which stabbed my heart painfully
When you talked about the girls attracted your attention… I smiled.
I forced that smiles…
But maybe you never realized that…
This time I almost reached for my limit
To prove you there was a real love
Come faithfully every day
Didn’t have a heart to left you alone
It’s hard to stay by your side
Since it hurts me that you never noticed my feelings
And I couldn’t told you about it
I love you so much, Jin…
But I couldn’t say it.
And you never noticed it.
You are insensitive about this kind of things, as usual…
And every time I wished to leave…
Your eyes will plea for my companion
And I couldn’t say ‘No’ to your eyes…
Since I love you so…
Even though sometimes you were busy in your own world
Because you didn’t see
Sometimes angel has no wings, not radiant, not beautiful
But this love you may to strive
Even the angels knew who will be the winner
…what am I to you, Jin ?
“ You are my best friend, Kazu. You are my angel, you are my sunshine… You are my everything… “ You answered with a huge grin plastered on your face.
But I’m not your lover, Jin…
And you will never see me as one…
You said… that I was your angel.
But you never noticed…
That sometimes, angel has no wings, not radiant, not beautiful…
And that broken angel is me.
Because I’m not good enough…
To make you fall for me…
Your loneliness won’t disappear in one night
By a mere dream lover
But a chance for me, who maybe imperfect
But ready to strive
I believe in myself
That my love is the pure one
But you didn’t see
Sometimes angel has no wings, not radiant, not beautiful
But this love you may to strive
Even the angels knew who will be the winner
And it was hurt.
It hurts, it hurts, it hurts…
It always hurts when I saw you tried to fill the emptiness in your heart
You will spend the night in a girl’s embrace
Even though you knew that it won’t make your loneliness disappear…
Why you never noticed my feelings…?
Why you never noticed my love ?
My love for you is pure, Jin.
Even though I’m not perfect…
Well, I love you in my imperfectness; and that means everything.
I love you so…
With all of my heart, my soul, everything…
You always ask for my companion
You always teased that you wished that my face is replaced
Let me go
Because you didn’t stand being alone
But you didn’t see
Sometimes angel has no wings, not radiant, not beautiful
But this love you may to strive
Even the angels knew who will be the winner
And you will always ended in my place.
Babbling about how your life is sucks; that no one love you…
That’s not right, Jin.
I love you.
I always love you.
I always will…
But…
You never noticed that.
Even though I say it so many time…
You didn’t notice that I was serious… that my love for you is beyond the friendship’s love… that I love you so much as a person; even I knew that my love is forbidden and sinful since both of us is male.
But my love itself is pure…
This love, you may to strive it…
You’ll see then… because even the angels knew who will be the winner…
…but why you never noticed that, Jin…?
-owari-
======================================================
-extra part-
“ If only that you are a girl, Kazu… “ You whined-not sober enough since alcohol took the control of your mind already, “ I’ll definitely fall for you “
So…
“ And that’s why you don’t ? Because I’m a guy… ? “
“ Who said that I didn’t fall for you…? “
“ Eh…? “
“ I fell for you a long time ago, Kazuuu… But we are best friends, and both of us is guy… And you’ll never…ever…fall for me… So… that’s why I always feel so lonely, and ended looking for some release with those girls…“
A tear fell from my eyes.
“ Baka… “
“ Eh ? “
“ Jin… I love you… I fell for you for a long time ago too… “
Your eyes widened in shock; and you grabbed my body in a swift move. Your lips crashed against mine; shared the feverish kiss that we both longed for years…
“ I love you, Kazu… You knew, I have told you before, rite ? You are my best friend, Kazu… You are my angel, you are my sunshine… You are my everything… “
…why it took years for us to notice that…?
But now… finally we’re holding our true happiness…
-owari-