[special fic] Fake Heart, True Love
Fake Heart, True Love
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : Akame
Rating : NC17 for angst~
Summary : I can feel my -heart- beating so fast whenever I’m with you… I knew that my -heart- was made by metal… But still, I can feel it…
Warning : un-betaed, angst in some way.
A/N : based onbaobao_chan’s drabble “AJ 407” I asked her permission, and she said yes, so here it is… [novi dear, I made some changes… hope u don’t mind XDXD] Done in 2546 words… longer than I expected before LOLZ
[prelude]
I wonder when it was happened…
Was it…
Was it on June’s rainfall…? Or was it on December’s winter…?
I wonder…
You were there, crying.
Your face was painted in sadness and sorrow; your tears running over your cheeks.
Your eyes were bloodshot… and those dark orbs reflected my own image…
I lied there on the asphalt, motionless; and you were holding my hands tightly.
“ … “ I tried to say something, but I couldn’t.
Your voice faded in the darkness which enveloped me, but I could hear a faint of it. You pleaded me not to leave you. You said that you love me and you couldn’t live without me. You sobbed, your body shivered, your voice rasp and hoarse. And yet, you still called my name over and over.
Kazuya…
“ Jin…! Noooo…!! Jin !! Jin, wake up ! WAKE UP…!! “
I…couldn’t…
“ DON’T YOU DARE TO LEAVE ME…!! I NEED YOU…!! I LOVE YOU…! “
Sorry…
“ No…! Don’t… Don’t… Jiiiinnn…!!! “
I’m sorry…
The next second, everything turned into a complete darkness. I felt your warmth; but slowly I was unable to feel it. Every sense of my body turned numb; and I heard you crying when my last breath dissolve into the thin air.
My heart might stop beating…
But my love is remain the same…
And you owned it.
FOREVER.
No matter what shape it takes…
I promise…
[the beginning]
TICK.
The pulse machine recorded the first beat. Threw his clipboard to the desk; he dashed to stare at the monitor. The machine recorded another beat. And the tick voice changed into a constant beep.
A wide smile plastered on his face. His colleagues congratulated him; the monitor boy reported that everything went okay; and the last thing he need to do is push the activate button.
“ Here is the time, Kamenashi-san. You’ve waited this moment for years, right ? “
Years.
I have waited for two years…
Kazuya stared at the current date and his smile went wider.
It’s 4 July. Happy Birthday, Jin…
You saved my life that night.
The car supposed to hit me, but you saw it and pushed me.
You saved me that night.
But it cost your life, and you left me that night…
This time…
This time, I’ll bring you back to life…
Kazuya pushed the button; and the machines hissed and beeped-the body that lied on the metal surface began to glow. Kazuya walked closer, his heart soothes when the familiar face started to show some indication of life.
The figure opened his eyes; and stared at his creator through his hazel orbs. He swift his position and stood in a fluid movement.
“ What’s your name…? “ Kazuya asked him; it was the first procedure he must do, after all. This whole project cost a lot, and he couldn’t afford it alone. He got his funds from the company, but it means that he couldn’t act that this project is his alone.
The figure responded, “ I’m AJ 407 “
I missed that voice…
God, it was amazing to be able to hear it once again…
“ Named your creator, AJ 407 “
“ Professor Kamenashi Kazuya “
“ Good “ One of his colleagues scribbled something in the clipboard, “ Then we may announced that this project is success “
AJ 407 smiled; the same way he used to smile, and Kazuya couldn’t help tears escaped from his eyes. His act wasn’t so weird; since everyone in the room is celebrated the success in bliss-but his tears were different.
He was happy, of course.
But it wasn’t only for the successful project; it was because he could see him alive again.
Even you are not a real living thing.
For Kazuya’s surprised, AJ 407 gently took him into his embrace and pats his back in an intimate movements. “ Don’t cry… Please don’t cry “
Kazuya’s heart melted.
He created the android based on Jin’s appearances, his behavior, his voice, his memory… Yes, he planted Jin’s memory inside AJ 407; but he didn’t program him to react so intense like this.
It felt like the real Jin is back; and he was comforted him.
The artificial radiated warmth from AJ 407 enveloped him; and for the first time after years… there was a true smile on Kazuya’s face.
“ I glad that you are finally back… Jin “
[the dreams and the reality]
I wonder when it was happened…
Your face was painted in sadness and sorrow; your tears running over your cheeks.
Your eyes were bloodshot…
“ AJ 407 ? “
AJ smiled to his creator, “ Yes, professor ? “
“ Are you okay…? Is there something in your system…? You looked so flustered a while ago “ Kazuya touched AJ’s cheeks, “ And how many time I told you not to call me ‘Professor’ ? It’s Kazuya. Just call me Kazu “
The smile remained in AJ’s face, “ I’m okay prof… I mean, I’m okay… Kazu “
It was…
It was just something keep bugging me.
I wonder when it was happened.
I saw your image in my head-- Your face was painted in sadness and sorrow; your tears running over your cheeks. Your eyes were bloodshot…
But it can’t be.
I mean, I never saw you in that condition… and my memory never went wrong.
But the image is so vivid and clear…
And I couldn’t knew why-the image couldn’t be erased no matter I tried.
“ Kazu…? “
“ Yeah ? “
“ May I knew why sometimes you called me ‘Jin’…? My name is AJ 407, not Jin “
Kazuya’s eyes widened in shock. His face turned pale, and AJ felt a pang in his heart when he saw it.
Wait.
Did I have really have a heart ?
Did I really own a heart ?
My heart is nothing than a mere machine made from metal and chip.
So it was impossible for me to have feelings.
But this kind of things I felt towards you isn’t worked based on the program given to me…
“ No… don’t say that… “ Kazuya sobbed, “ I didn’t want you to say that… “
AJ stunned to see his creator’s tears. Without realizing it, he grabbed the fragile body into his embrace once again, like he did in his first day of activation. “ Don’t cry… Please don’t cry… “
AJ didn’t know why he did that. It’s just his body moved by its own, and even his programs didn’t recognized his actions. What he did is totally unreadable order, but there was something inside him told him that he did nothing wrong… He was doing the right thing.
“ Jin… “
He called that name again…
Who is this ‘Jin’ ?
Why you call me using his name, Kazu…?
His creator hugged him back; and AJ’s sensing programs read Kazuya’s overwhelming emotions with a déjà vu feelings. He thought that this was happened before. But how…? He never saw this scene before… He never did this action before… He never left this area, so why he saw the images of him hugging his creator in someplace he never come…?
“ Ne… Jin… “
AJ didn’t reply his creator, since his consciousness told him that he was AJ 407 and his creator was calling another person’s name. But his creator’s eyes gazed at him with so much affections and AJ realized that Kazuya is speaking with him, “ I love you… “
I supposed to be happy…
My creator told me that he love me…
But I can’t…
He called another name when he told me that he love me…
…why ?
[the photographs and the heart-wrenching fact]
AJ told himself to get used to be called with another name. He commanded his program to receive the name ‘JIN’ as his code name or a nickname; because if he didn’t do that, his programs will unable to respond everytime he was called using that name.
AJ stared at his own name, printed on his hand.
AJ 407…
“ Yet my creator called me using another name. My creator. The one who created me. He gave me the name : AJ 407… But he always calls me using another name : Jin. Why ? “
It was soon when AJ realized that Kazuya was barely called him with AJ 407. It’s Jin now and then. His creator keep calling him ‘Jin’, and AJ couldn’t refuse the name since he knew…Kazuya will be happier if he called AJ using that name.
AJ knew his creator has a bond with him-a bond which himself couldn’t identify. He often to see images popped in his mind; it was the pictures of him and his creator, together. He never recognized when or where the images took place, and he knew it was happened earlier since his creator looked younger in those images. He didn’t know how or why the images flashed in his head, but something grows inside him with the time within.
I can feel it…
I can feel my -heart- beating so fast whenever I’m with you…
I knew that my -heart- was made by metal…
But still, I can feel it…
Like the ticking sound when bomb nearly explode…
AJ wondered why…
His programs couldn’t identify the cause…
He denied himself that he has a heart.
His heart is fake…
But…
His feelings are real…
His love is true…
Wait…
Is it possible that robot can fall in love…?
No…?
How could I fell for my own creator…?
Who am I ?
I AM a robot…
A man ? And a robot ? Huff…
“ Jin ? “
AJ lifted his head; the team just finished his maintenance process. Kazuya smiled at him, and AJ smiled back.
…is it possible that robot can fall in love…?
***
Another weeks passed, and AJ accepted his creator’s behavior already. He recognized that he owned two names : AJ 407 and Jin. The first one is his given name, and the second one is the special nickname his creator gives him.
His creator seemed to be so happy with his reaction now.
Kazuya hugs him; tells him that he love him.
“ I love you… Jin “
AJ smiled, “ I love you too, Kazu… “
***
It was the same day when one of the staff asked him to take some files in Kazuya’s office. AJ nodded and confirmed the order, then he moved to his creator’s office. He walked to the shelf and took the files-and he saw something.
Photographs.
Photographs of his creator and… himself ?
No…
The man is the pictures wasn’t me…
He was somebody else…
The photographs showed the images of two boys in they early teen, slowly grew up into two adults male. The man who looked like him, and Kazuya beside that man. In every pictures they looked happy; so lovey-dovey.
They shared a special relationship… and it hurts AJ.
His grip loosened, and the files scattered on the floor.
AJ was re-collecting the files when he noticed it. The files is the basic information of him. He read those files… and finally the puzzle is complete.
PROJECT : AJ 407
AJ 407 is the prototype from MEMORY project.
This project was created for people who lost their loved ones; since the android was made based on the appearances, behavior and memory from the real man.
In AJ 407’s case, he was built based on AKANISHI JIN-Professor Kamenashi Kazuya’s most valuable friend who died in an accident in order to save him…
AJ’s eyes widened in shock. He didn’t read all of the files, but he understood now…
I wonder when it was happened…
I wonder…
You were there, crying.
Your face was painted in sadness and sorrow; your tears running over your cheeks.
Your eyes were bloodshot… and those dark orbs reflected my own image…
I lied there on the asphalt, motionless; and you were holding my hands tightly.
“ … “ I tried to say something, but I couldn’t.
Your voice faded in the darkness which enveloped me, but I could hear a faint of it. You pleaded me not to leave you. You said that you love me and you couldn’t live without me. You sobbed, your body shivered, your voice rasp and hoarse. And yet, you still called my name over and over.
“ It was his memories… “ AJ felt the sudden urge to cry; but he couldn’t. He didn’t has the program or any system for it.
My heart might stop beating…
But my love is remain the same…
And you owned it.
FOREVER.
No matter what shape it takes…
I promise…
“ It was his memories who over-whelmed in me… “
Kazuya created me…
Because he loves him.
My creator made me…
In order to took his place as a substitute…
When he said that he loves me…
He was saying those words for him.
Those words…
Aren’t for me…
It’s for Akanishi Jin.
Not AJ 407…
“ Why…? “
“ Jin ? “
AJ snapped back to reality as Kazuya stepped in to the office, “ There you are. My staff was searching for you.. He said that he was sent you here… Come on “
AJ followed Kazuya, his mind was busy with his own thought.
Kazuya, I knew you made me, using the memory of that man…
That man… The one that you love the most…
The man who died for your sake…
He saved you from the death, and exchanged it with his own life…
Kazuya… I AM a robot…
A robot made in the reflection of that man…
A robot where you planted his memories…
But not his feelings…
But… Not his feelings…
I never heard if a robot could fall in love…
But…
I do, Kazuya…
I knew I do…
I fall for you…
I’m falling in love with you, Kazuya…
This feeling which grew from seeing his memories…
But…
This is not his feeling…
This is mine…
You always call me “Jin”…
That’s not my name, Kazuya…
I am AJ 407…
Will you ever see AJ 407 as AJ 407?
Will you stop calling me “Jin”?
Will you…?
Will you… Kazuya?
“ Jin… “ Kazuya smiled to him, and AJ forced his usual smile, “ Yes, Kazu…? “
“I love you… Jin…”
I guess you won’t…
‘Cause he is the one that you love… Akanishi Jin…
And I’m not him… I’m just his -twin-…
I’m AJ 407…
But…
“I love you too, Kazuya”
I love you…
Even my heart is fake…
This feelings are real…
My love is true…
-owari-
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : Akame
Rating : NC17 for angst~
Summary : I can feel my -heart- beating so fast whenever I’m with you… I knew that my -heart- was made by metal… But still, I can feel it…
Warning : un-betaed, angst in some way.
A/N : based onbaobao_chan’s drabble “AJ 407” I asked her permission, and she said yes, so here it is… [novi dear, I made some changes… hope u don’t mind XDXD] Done in 2546 words… longer than I expected before LOLZ
[prelude]
I wonder when it was happened…
Was it…
Was it on June’s rainfall…? Or was it on December’s winter…?
I wonder…
You were there, crying.
Your face was painted in sadness and sorrow; your tears running over your cheeks.
Your eyes were bloodshot… and those dark orbs reflected my own image…
I lied there on the asphalt, motionless; and you were holding my hands tightly.
“ … “ I tried to say something, but I couldn’t.
Your voice faded in the darkness which enveloped me, but I could hear a faint of it. You pleaded me not to leave you. You said that you love me and you couldn’t live without me. You sobbed, your body shivered, your voice rasp and hoarse. And yet, you still called my name over and over.
Kazuya…
“ Jin…! Noooo…!! Jin !! Jin, wake up ! WAKE UP…!! “
I…couldn’t…
“ DON’T YOU DARE TO LEAVE ME…!! I NEED YOU…!! I LOVE YOU…! “
Sorry…
“ No…! Don’t… Don’t… Jiiiinnn…!!! “
I’m sorry…
The next second, everything turned into a complete darkness. I felt your warmth; but slowly I was unable to feel it. Every sense of my body turned numb; and I heard you crying when my last breath dissolve into the thin air.
My heart might stop beating…
But my love is remain the same…
And you owned it.
FOREVER.
No matter what shape it takes…
I promise…
[the beginning]
TICK.
The pulse machine recorded the first beat. Threw his clipboard to the desk; he dashed to stare at the monitor. The machine recorded another beat. And the tick voice changed into a constant beep.
A wide smile plastered on his face. His colleagues congratulated him; the monitor boy reported that everything went okay; and the last thing he need to do is push the activate button.
“ Here is the time, Kamenashi-san. You’ve waited this moment for years, right ? “
Years.
I have waited for two years…
Kazuya stared at the current date and his smile went wider.
It’s 4 July. Happy Birthday, Jin…
You saved my life that night.
The car supposed to hit me, but you saw it and pushed me.
You saved me that night.
But it cost your life, and you left me that night…
This time…
This time, I’ll bring you back to life…
Kazuya pushed the button; and the machines hissed and beeped-the body that lied on the metal surface began to glow. Kazuya walked closer, his heart soothes when the familiar face started to show some indication of life.
The figure opened his eyes; and stared at his creator through his hazel orbs. He swift his position and stood in a fluid movement.
“ What’s your name…? “ Kazuya asked him; it was the first procedure he must do, after all. This whole project cost a lot, and he couldn’t afford it alone. He got his funds from the company, but it means that he couldn’t act that this project is his alone.
The figure responded, “ I’m AJ 407 “
I missed that voice…
God, it was amazing to be able to hear it once again…
“ Named your creator, AJ 407 “
“ Professor Kamenashi Kazuya “
“ Good “ One of his colleagues scribbled something in the clipboard, “ Then we may announced that this project is success “
AJ 407 smiled; the same way he used to smile, and Kazuya couldn’t help tears escaped from his eyes. His act wasn’t so weird; since everyone in the room is celebrated the success in bliss-but his tears were different.
He was happy, of course.
But it wasn’t only for the successful project; it was because he could see him alive again.
Even you are not a real living thing.
For Kazuya’s surprised, AJ 407 gently took him into his embrace and pats his back in an intimate movements. “ Don’t cry… Please don’t cry “
Kazuya’s heart melted.
He created the android based on Jin’s appearances, his behavior, his voice, his memory… Yes, he planted Jin’s memory inside AJ 407; but he didn’t program him to react so intense like this.
It felt like the real Jin is back; and he was comforted him.
The artificial radiated warmth from AJ 407 enveloped him; and for the first time after years… there was a true smile on Kazuya’s face.
“ I glad that you are finally back… Jin “
[the dreams and the reality]
I wonder when it was happened…
Your face was painted in sadness and sorrow; your tears running over your cheeks.
Your eyes were bloodshot…
“ AJ 407 ? “
AJ smiled to his creator, “ Yes, professor ? “
“ Are you okay…? Is there something in your system…? You looked so flustered a while ago “ Kazuya touched AJ’s cheeks, “ And how many time I told you not to call me ‘Professor’ ? It’s Kazuya. Just call me Kazu “
The smile remained in AJ’s face, “ I’m okay prof… I mean, I’m okay… Kazu “
It was…
It was just something keep bugging me.
I wonder when it was happened.
I saw your image in my head-- Your face was painted in sadness and sorrow; your tears running over your cheeks. Your eyes were bloodshot…
But it can’t be.
I mean, I never saw you in that condition… and my memory never went wrong.
But the image is so vivid and clear…
And I couldn’t knew why-the image couldn’t be erased no matter I tried.
“ Kazu…? “
“ Yeah ? “
“ May I knew why sometimes you called me ‘Jin’…? My name is AJ 407, not Jin “
Kazuya’s eyes widened in shock. His face turned pale, and AJ felt a pang in his heart when he saw it.
Wait.
Did I have really have a heart ?
Did I really own a heart ?
My heart is nothing than a mere machine made from metal and chip.
So it was impossible for me to have feelings.
But this kind of things I felt towards you isn’t worked based on the program given to me…
“ No… don’t say that… “ Kazuya sobbed, “ I didn’t want you to say that… “
AJ stunned to see his creator’s tears. Without realizing it, he grabbed the fragile body into his embrace once again, like he did in his first day of activation. “ Don’t cry… Please don’t cry… “
AJ didn’t know why he did that. It’s just his body moved by its own, and even his programs didn’t recognized his actions. What he did is totally unreadable order, but there was something inside him told him that he did nothing wrong… He was doing the right thing.
“ Jin… “
He called that name again…
Who is this ‘Jin’ ?
Why you call me using his name, Kazu…?
His creator hugged him back; and AJ’s sensing programs read Kazuya’s overwhelming emotions with a déjà vu feelings. He thought that this was happened before. But how…? He never saw this scene before… He never did this action before… He never left this area, so why he saw the images of him hugging his creator in someplace he never come…?
“ Ne… Jin… “
AJ didn’t reply his creator, since his consciousness told him that he was AJ 407 and his creator was calling another person’s name. But his creator’s eyes gazed at him with so much affections and AJ realized that Kazuya is speaking with him, “ I love you… “
I supposed to be happy…
My creator told me that he love me…
But I can’t…
He called another name when he told me that he love me…
…why ?
[the photographs and the heart-wrenching fact]
AJ told himself to get used to be called with another name. He commanded his program to receive the name ‘JIN’ as his code name or a nickname; because if he didn’t do that, his programs will unable to respond everytime he was called using that name.
AJ stared at his own name, printed on his hand.
AJ 407…
“ Yet my creator called me using another name. My creator. The one who created me. He gave me the name : AJ 407… But he always calls me using another name : Jin. Why ? “
It was soon when AJ realized that Kazuya was barely called him with AJ 407. It’s Jin now and then. His creator keep calling him ‘Jin’, and AJ couldn’t refuse the name since he knew…Kazuya will be happier if he called AJ using that name.
AJ knew his creator has a bond with him-a bond which himself couldn’t identify. He often to see images popped in his mind; it was the pictures of him and his creator, together. He never recognized when or where the images took place, and he knew it was happened earlier since his creator looked younger in those images. He didn’t know how or why the images flashed in his head, but something grows inside him with the time within.
I can feel it…
I can feel my -heart- beating so fast whenever I’m with you…
I knew that my -heart- was made by metal…
But still, I can feel it…
Like the ticking sound when bomb nearly explode…
AJ wondered why…
His programs couldn’t identify the cause…
He denied himself that he has a heart.
His heart is fake…
But…
His feelings are real…
His love is true…
Wait…
Is it possible that robot can fall in love…?
No…?
How could I fell for my own creator…?
Who am I ?
I AM a robot…
A man ? And a robot ? Huff…
“ Jin ? “
AJ lifted his head; the team just finished his maintenance process. Kazuya smiled at him, and AJ smiled back.
…is it possible that robot can fall in love…?
***
Another weeks passed, and AJ accepted his creator’s behavior already. He recognized that he owned two names : AJ 407 and Jin. The first one is his given name, and the second one is the special nickname his creator gives him.
His creator seemed to be so happy with his reaction now.
Kazuya hugs him; tells him that he love him.
“ I love you… Jin “
AJ smiled, “ I love you too, Kazu… “
***
It was the same day when one of the staff asked him to take some files in Kazuya’s office. AJ nodded and confirmed the order, then he moved to his creator’s office. He walked to the shelf and took the files-and he saw something.
Photographs.
Photographs of his creator and… himself ?
No…
The man is the pictures wasn’t me…
He was somebody else…
The photographs showed the images of two boys in they early teen, slowly grew up into two adults male. The man who looked like him, and Kazuya beside that man. In every pictures they looked happy; so lovey-dovey.
They shared a special relationship… and it hurts AJ.
His grip loosened, and the files scattered on the floor.
AJ was re-collecting the files when he noticed it. The files is the basic information of him. He read those files… and finally the puzzle is complete.
PROJECT : AJ 407
AJ 407 is the prototype from MEMORY project.
This project was created for people who lost their loved ones; since the android was made based on the appearances, behavior and memory from the real man.
In AJ 407’s case, he was built based on AKANISHI JIN-Professor Kamenashi Kazuya’s most valuable friend who died in an accident in order to save him…
AJ’s eyes widened in shock. He didn’t read all of the files, but he understood now…
I wonder when it was happened…
I wonder…
You were there, crying.
Your face was painted in sadness and sorrow; your tears running over your cheeks.
Your eyes were bloodshot… and those dark orbs reflected my own image…
I lied there on the asphalt, motionless; and you were holding my hands tightly.
“ … “ I tried to say something, but I couldn’t.
Your voice faded in the darkness which enveloped me, but I could hear a faint of it. You pleaded me not to leave you. You said that you love me and you couldn’t live without me. You sobbed, your body shivered, your voice rasp and hoarse. And yet, you still called my name over and over.
“ It was his memories… “ AJ felt the sudden urge to cry; but he couldn’t. He didn’t has the program or any system for it.
My heart might stop beating…
But my love is remain the same…
And you owned it.
FOREVER.
No matter what shape it takes…
I promise…
“ It was his memories who over-whelmed in me… “
Kazuya created me…
Because he loves him.
My creator made me…
In order to took his place as a substitute…
When he said that he loves me…
He was saying those words for him.
Those words…
Aren’t for me…
It’s for Akanishi Jin.
Not AJ 407…
“ Why…? “
“ Jin ? “
AJ snapped back to reality as Kazuya stepped in to the office, “ There you are. My staff was searching for you.. He said that he was sent you here… Come on “
AJ followed Kazuya, his mind was busy with his own thought.
Kazuya, I knew you made me, using the memory of that man…
That man… The one that you love the most…
The man who died for your sake…
He saved you from the death, and exchanged it with his own life…
Kazuya… I AM a robot…
A robot made in the reflection of that man…
A robot where you planted his memories…
But not his feelings…
But… Not his feelings…
I never heard if a robot could fall in love…
But…
I do, Kazuya…
I knew I do…
I fall for you…
I’m falling in love with you, Kazuya…
This feeling which grew from seeing his memories…
But…
This is not his feeling…
This is mine…
You always call me “Jin”…
That’s not my name, Kazuya…
I am AJ 407…
Will you ever see AJ 407 as AJ 407?
Will you stop calling me “Jin”?
Will you…?
Will you… Kazuya?
“ Jin… “ Kazuya smiled to him, and AJ forced his usual smile, “ Yes, Kazu…? “
“I love you… Jin…”
I guess you won’t…
‘Cause he is the one that you love… Akanishi Jin…
And I’m not him… I’m just his -twin-…
I’m AJ 407…
But…
“I love you too, Kazuya”
I love you…
Even my heart is fake…
This feelings are real…
My love is true…
-owari-