Angsty Drabble
[drabble] Captive*
* Captive is another term for PRISONER.
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : akame
Rating : PG15 for angst and some psychological stuffs
Summary : Kamenashi Kazuya’s world turned upside-down after he got captivated by someone… by something.
Warning : delusional!kazuya, un-betaed
A/N : taken from Kazuya's POV and this was totally random. The idea came when I saw Jin’s posters in my room. And I’m start to think that maybe I had been captivated too. XD
They said that I was crazy.
Maybe that’s true.
I was crazy about you.
But why did they make such a great fuss about that ?
They said bad things about me… about you… about us.
They said that it was impossible for us to be together.
They said that I must wake up and face the reality.
Screw them.
Why did they poke their nose in my damn private life anyway…?
THIS IS MY LIFE. Not theirs.
I was the one who choose how I’ll live my live.
And they have no right to order me around.
“ Wake up wake up… Wake up from your delusion and face the reality “
But I didn’t want to wake up.
I didn’t need to face the reality.
THIS IS MY OWN LITTLE PERFECT WORLD.
What did I want…
Is just staying here beside you.
Watching your intense gaze directly at me; enjoying every details of your figure.
“ Kazuya, he is NOT real…! “
BUT YOU ARE REAL.
I knew the fact.
For me, you are always real.
AND THIS IS THE REALITY FOR ME.
I speak to you, even you never replied any single word back to me.
But it’s okay.
I wished to hear your voice, but I won’t inquire you to speak out.
I LIKE YOUR SMILE BETTER THAN YOUR FROWN FACE.
And that’s why people said that silence is golden, rite ?
Jin…
I love you.
I love you so much…
And they said that I was crazy.
So it was true then-I was crazily in love with you and I won’t deny it.
I stepped closer to you; tried to feel your warmth.
I tried to touch your lips, I tried to caress your skin…
I closed my eyes and pushed my lips against yours…
But my fingers found nothing-only two dimensional canvas.
And my lips tasted nothing than paint and the colour’s bitterness.
I fell on my knees.
Tears flowing over my cheeks; and I let them fall from my chin.
I sobbed quietly; captivated myself closer to you and told myself that everything is gonna be okay.
They said I was crazy.
Maybe they were right.
I am the one who created your figure on the white canvas; painted your perfection all by myself.
I fell in love with my own painting.
And I knew that you are NOT exist in this world.
But it was okay.
I still love you no matter what.
YOU ARE ALIVE IN MY WORLD.
If it need me to live in dreams to made you alive, I’ll sleep forever.
That way, you’ll stay by my side.
And it’s really okay, really okay.
They have said that I was crazy anyway.
-end-
a dark and angsty drabble~
wrote this late at nite before I went to sleep... (>.<)
* Captive is another term for PRISONER.
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : akame
Rating : PG15 for angst and some psychological stuffs
Summary : Kamenashi Kazuya’s world turned upside-down after he got captivated by someone… by something.
Warning : delusional!kazuya, un-betaed
A/N : taken from Kazuya's POV and this was totally random. The idea came when I saw Jin’s posters in my room. And I’m start to think that maybe I had been captivated too. XD
They said that I was crazy.
Maybe that’s true.
I was crazy about you.
But why did they make such a great fuss about that ?
They said bad things about me… about you… about us.
They said that it was impossible for us to be together.
They said that I must wake up and face the reality.
Screw them.
Why did they poke their nose in my damn private life anyway…?
THIS IS MY LIFE. Not theirs.
I was the one who choose how I’ll live my live.
And they have no right to order me around.
“ Wake up wake up… Wake up from your delusion and face the reality “
But I didn’t want to wake up.
I didn’t need to face the reality.
THIS IS MY OWN LITTLE PERFECT WORLD.
What did I want…
Is just staying here beside you.
Watching your intense gaze directly at me; enjoying every details of your figure.
“ Kazuya, he is NOT real…! “
BUT YOU ARE REAL.
I knew the fact.
For me, you are always real.
AND THIS IS THE REALITY FOR ME.
I speak to you, even you never replied any single word back to me.
But it’s okay.
I wished to hear your voice, but I won’t inquire you to speak out.
I LIKE YOUR SMILE BETTER THAN YOUR FROWN FACE.
And that’s why people said that silence is golden, rite ?
Jin…
I love you.
I love you so much…
And they said that I was crazy.
So it was true then-I was crazily in love with you and I won’t deny it.
I stepped closer to you; tried to feel your warmth.
I tried to touch your lips, I tried to caress your skin…
I closed my eyes and pushed my lips against yours…
But my fingers found nothing-only two dimensional canvas.
And my lips tasted nothing than paint and the colour’s bitterness.
I fell on my knees.
Tears flowing over my cheeks; and I let them fall from my chin.
I sobbed quietly; captivated myself closer to you and told myself that everything is gonna be okay.
They said I was crazy.
Maybe they were right.
I am the one who created your figure on the white canvas; painted your perfection all by myself.
I fell in love with my own painting.
And I knew that you are NOT exist in this world.
But it was okay.
I still love you no matter what.
YOU ARE ALIVE IN MY WORLD.
If it need me to live in dreams to made you alive, I’ll sleep forever.
That way, you’ll stay by my side.
And it’s really okay, really okay.
They have said that I was crazy anyway.
-end-
a dark and angsty drabble~
wrote this late at nite before I went to sleep... (>.<)