Love, Winter, and Snow
Love, Winter, and Snow
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : Akame
Rating : NC17 for angst and smut *or is it NC21? Hmmm…*
Disclaimer : are you kidding? Jhonny-san will sue me…!
Summary : A songfic I created after I heard ‘White Christmas’. Dedicated to Akame’s 10th anniversary… HAPPY SUPER BELATED ANNIVERSARY~!! *bricked* But late is better than nothing at all rite ??
A/N : I didn’t know what season now in Japan, and I hope it was Winter… *November=winter?* This one is un-betaed…but I bet u guys won’t mind it ^^;
His breath turned into a white mist in the coldness of the winter’s night. The street glittered with silver sparkle; the snow covered everything in white and ice. He stood there under the promised Sakura tree. In the winter, the tree looked dead-lifeless like another tree.
He didn’t know how long he had stood there; covered his face using dark-coloured knitted cap and pulled his shawl high-waiting for someone who even didn’t agree to meet him. Closed his eyes, he drowned into his own deep thought.
…when did the last time we laugh together ?
…when did the last time we talked properly ?
…when did… when did the last time we exchange the words of love…?
The words ‘I LOVE YOU’ had disappeared since a long time ago. Drowned so slowly, until suddenly they realized the awkward gap between them. Their relationship now is just the ashes and shadow from the past; and they couldn’t fix it no matter how hard they’ve tried.
…how could we so blind ?
…how could we let our love slipped from our hand-and never realized it until it was already too late ?
The images of the younger man keep filling his mind. And the name is carved already in his heart; echoed like a mantra.
Kazuya… Kazuya…
The promised Sakura tree is the memorable spot for both of them. They used to met there, spent their time together. Their first kiss, their first date, their bond…is related with the Sakura tree. And even their last argue…
“ You’ve changed, Jin… “
Kazuya sighed. Tears were formed in the younger’s eyes; mixed feelings gleamed in those orbs. Sorrow, anxiety, tired, hate… and the feelings of being betrayed ?
Jin stood there in front of the latter-stared the younger with the same eyes. His mouth is shut and dry, and he noted in his mind : You’ve changed too, Kazu…
Both of them have changed. They are not their old-selves. No more of curious teens with wide smile plastered on their face. No more of innocence they once had. No more joyous and contagious giggle. They have grown into another person, and they turned into a complete stranger now.
“ …why ? Why, Jin ? Why things turned like this ? “ Kazuya sobbed, “ What happened to us ? Why we were changed like this…? “
Silence tortured both of them. The air are heavy and suffocating… while the silver snow fell slowly from the sky to the ground.
They have never said any good bye. They never broke their relationship; but the bond itself had crashed into pieces before they even realized it. The gap between them grew wider and wider; drifted them apart to different separated ways.
Sometimes, when their eyes met, a question will pop in his head : ‘who are you?’. A question for the younger man…and for himself as well.
Two years passed like that-and their 10th anniversary came. Using all of his courage, Jin wrote a letter for Kazuya, sent it directly to the latter’s mailbox.
Happy 10th Anniversary.
We need to talk.
I’ll wait for you today 8 p.m at our usual place.
-Jin-
So here he is now; stood under the promised Sakura tree. There is no guarantee that Kazuya will come. No guarantee that Kazuya even read his letter. Jin rubbed his frozen hand and watched the snow fell from the sky.
This scene is too familiar…
That place, snow, winter’s night… The one who still lacking is just…
“ Jin “
Jin opened his eyes, stared at the figure who stood near him. He couldn’t believe his eyes. He came. He came.
“ Kazu… “ Jin called the latter’s name in husky voice, but Kazuya didn’t let Jin to finish his words, “ Maru asked us to a celebration party “
“ Eh ? “
“ It’s our 10th anniversary after all “
Followed the younger’s step, Jin smiled bitterly.
So you didn’t come for me.
***
Took place in Kazuya’s apartment, the celebration party is awkward and dry; Yuichi tried his best to build the cheerful mood… but it was useless. Both of Jin and Kazuya didn’t speak to each other; made themselves busy with liquor.
“ Kanpai…!! “ Jin faked his voice with a forced happy tone; raised his glass high before sipping the alcohol. The drink burned his tongue; but he didn’t care. It made his head hazed, made he forgot about everything.
Yuichi tried to stop him from drinking, and Kazuya didn’t say anything-sipping his glass endlessly as well. The poor Yuichi sighed and surrendered, letting them did as they please, “ This is supposed to be a celebration party for us…! “
Celebration ?
A celebration for what ? Celebration of their faked friendship ?
Jin wanna puke when the thought echoed in his head.
Yeah, rite. It was called friendship when you barely talked to each other, keep your distance and made minimal contact as you could ? Don’t kidding me…
Walked slowly to the balcony, he tried to freshen his mind. And he froze. His glass fell from his hand; shattered into pieces… but he didn’t do anything.
“ Kazu…? “
In front of him, there was Kazuya. Stood near the edge of the balcony; his head tilted to the starry sky. There’s a trail of tears in his cheeks, and Kazuya paused for a second.
“ …Jin “ His voice is rasp and hoarse; his eyes bloodshot with sorrow.
…why ? Why, Jin ?
Why things turned like this ?
What happened to us ?
Why we were changed like this…?
The latter’s questions that night echoed in his head. Jin walked closer to the younger and before he even realized; he hugged the latter tight-his nose inhaled the latter’s familiar sweet scent.
“ Kazu… why things turned like this ? What happened to us…? Why we were changed like this…? Tell me… because I never know… I never figure it out…“
Tears fell from Kazuya’s eyes; warm and wet-running over his cheeks.
“ I couldn’t figure it out too … “
Using his thumb, Jin wiped the latter’s tears. “ Don’t cry “
“ I… “
“ Don’t cry… “
Tears keep falling from Kazuya’s eyes; and Jin was shocked when he found himself crying too. “ Don’t cry Kazu… “
Their face leaned closer; and their lips met clumsily. Jin nibbled the luscious soft lips several times; licked the younger’s lips-asking the permission to enter. Kazuya gasped and Jin inserted his tongue; deepened their kiss. Kazuya’s hand warped around Jin’s neck, giving him a better access to move. Jin’s hand roamed over Kazuya’s body; slowly but sure caressed the latter.
When Jin parted their lips, Kazuya whimpered some protest and kissed the older man passionately. “ Don’t stop “
Jin didn’t sure if it was the alcohol or their old feelings who leaping out-taking control of them. They continued the kiss, and Jin carried Kazuya to his master bedroom. Carefully not to step on the shattered glass, Jin walked in and put Kazuya’s body on the red satin sheet.
“ Jin… “
Kazuya’s finger trembled when he slowly unbuttoned Jin’s shirt; tossed it to the floor. His own clothes fell the seconds later; and Kazuya moaned softly as Jin pulled their jeans off and their raging hard-on created delicious friction together.
Their mind hazed in white mist; everything moved based on their natural instinct. Kazuya could feel Jin’s warm touches over his heated skin; and he was hungry for more. He didn’t know how it started; but he ended sucked the older’s member while Jin sucked him.
It felt weird; yet tasted so good. Kazuya moaned and bucked his hips as Jin’s talented tongue swirled around his length. A soft gasp escaped when Jin inserted his middle-saliva-coated finger to his velvet entry.
It wasn’t their first time; they have done it so many times before… and now those familiar feelings coming back to them. Kazuya trembled in expectation; moaned over and over for the feeling of being filled. Jin has inserted his third finger; moved them in and out-hit Kazuya’s sweet spot in every thrust. He still remembered the younger’s body so well, vice versa for the younger one.
“ Aaaahhh… Jiiinnn… aaaahhh… “
Kazuya sucked Jin’s member harder, paused for a second to continue his moans, and tried his best to pleasure the older man. Both of them came in the same time; Jin swallowed Kazuya’s seeds while the younger missed some trails near his lips.
Jin grabbed Kazuya’s body and kissed him again; the taste of their semen mixed with saliva during their tongue battle. Ravished Kazuya’s neck with reddish mark, Jin slowly nibbled down and made several circles using his tongue. His teeth grazed the hard nub while his fingers pinched the twin in teasing manner.
Kazuya keep moaned Jin’s name; his legs warped around the latter’s waist. Their member were raging once again; and Kazuya knew that he was ready. Jin’s erection poked his sacred channel several times; teased it before slowly slid in.
Kazuya’s body shivered for the feelings he missed for years. He enjoyed the feelings; felt like they were finally back to their old-selves. Everything felt so familiar, and it gives him warm feelings.
Jin moved his member in and out, slowly at first before increasing his pace up. Kazuya moved his hips; synch with Jin’s moves. Jin rammed hard, made Kazuya moaned shamelessly in every thrust.
When Jin cupped his forgotten member and tried to pumped it in the same pace of his thrust; Kazuya couldn’t help himself to held Jin’s body tight. When their peak is coming closer, Kazuya felt Jin slowed his pace down.
“ Jin…? “
“ I want this to last longer… “
Jin rolled his hips several time, enjoyed the warm inner walls who engulfed his member. Kissed Kazuya gently, Jin wiped the trail of sweats in the latter’s forehead and pushed the damped bang aside.
Then, in a quick thrust; Jin increased his pace again. Kazuya’s moans muffled as Jin kissed him-deep and wet. The kisses felt so sweet and tender; and Kazuya wished if he could stop the time. He didn’t want everything to be over.
Another moans escaped from their lips together as they came for the second time. Kazuya came first; his inner walls twitched and tighten-and it was enough to send Jin to his final peak, came inside Kazuya’s body.
The orgasm made their body shivered in bliss. Everything was nothing than a thick white mist for a second, and both of them were panting hard; trying to breathe normally. Moved his body, Jin started to pull his flaccid member out.
“ Jin… don’t “ Kazuya’s voice broke the silence, and Jin’s body tensed, “ Don’t ? “
Kazuya bucked his hips, his legs warped Jin’s waist tighter and Jin’s member entered his hole fully once again. Blushed in deep red; Kazuya whispered in almost inaudible voice : “ Can we stayed like this for a moment…? I didn’t want this moment to over yet… “
Jin smiled and kissed the tip of Kazuya’s nose, “ As you wished… “
Kazuya closed his eyes and enjoyed the butterfly kisses from the latter. Jin kissed every inch of Kazuya’s face before kissed Kazuya’s now swollen lips once again.
The kiss deepened and both of them knew what will happen in the next seconds. Kazuya held Jin’s arms tightly as he felt Jin’s member turned hard once again inside him. Jin put Kazuya’s legs on his shoulders and rolled his hips deviously.
“ Ready for the next round ? “
Kazuya answered by kissing the latter’s lips clumsily. Jin intertwined their fingers together and rammed his member hard; in and out…in and out… Kazuya keep moaned his name, face flushed in the shade of red. His eyes are partly opened, and those swollen lips keep panted and gasped in every thrust.
“ Jin… Jin… Aaaahhh… “
Jin increased his tempo; pulled and thrust in almost inhuman pace. Kazuya held his legs wide open, giving Jin a better access to rammed into him. “ Aaah… Jin… harder… “
Jin complied his plea; and Kazuya panted for the overwhelming sensation. Jin made this round last as long as he could; slowed his pace every time their peak is coming closer…rolled his hips and rammed slowly; teased the younger man beneath him.
The pattern keep repeated; and Kazuya amazed that their round is last so long. Jin did last long; ended the round after an hour later because Kazuya pleaded for their coming. Jin released his seeds once again inside Kazuya, and finally pulled his flaccid member out.
Jin lied beside Kazuya and took the younger into his embrace.
“ Kazuya… may I asked you something ? “
“ What is it ? “
“ Do you still love me ? “
Kazuya frowned, “ Why did you ask ? “
“ Because I still love you no matter what, Kazu… and I want to know your real feelings “
Kazuya snuggled closer, “ Everything in our relationship is nothing than pain and sorrow, Jin… But I still love you. I always love you…and my feelings never faded all this time… It won’t fade no matter what “
“ Kazu… “
“ Hmm ? “
“ Happy 10th anniversary “
Kazuya smiled, “ Happy 10th anniversary too, Jin… “
--owari--
this fic is crappy, I knew XD
*run away from the thrown tomatoes*
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : Akame
Rating : NC17 for angst and smut *or is it NC21? Hmmm…*
Disclaimer : are you kidding? Jhonny-san will sue me…!
Summary : A songfic I created after I heard ‘White Christmas’. Dedicated to Akame’s 10th anniversary… HAPPY SUPER BELATED ANNIVERSARY~!! *bricked* But late is better than nothing at all rite ??
A/N : I didn’t know what season now in Japan, and I hope it was Winter… *November=winter?* This one is un-betaed…but I bet u guys won’t mind it ^^;
His breath turned into a white mist in the coldness of the winter’s night. The street glittered with silver sparkle; the snow covered everything in white and ice. He stood there under the promised Sakura tree. In the winter, the tree looked dead-lifeless like another tree.
He didn’t know how long he had stood there; covered his face using dark-coloured knitted cap and pulled his shawl high-waiting for someone who even didn’t agree to meet him. Closed his eyes, he drowned into his own deep thought.
…when did the last time we laugh together ?
…when did the last time we talked properly ?
…when did… when did the last time we exchange the words of love…?
The words ‘I LOVE YOU’ had disappeared since a long time ago. Drowned so slowly, until suddenly they realized the awkward gap between them. Their relationship now is just the ashes and shadow from the past; and they couldn’t fix it no matter how hard they’ve tried.
…how could we so blind ?
…how could we let our love slipped from our hand-and never realized it until it was already too late ?
The images of the younger man keep filling his mind. And the name is carved already in his heart; echoed like a mantra.
Kazuya… Kazuya…
The promised Sakura tree is the memorable spot for both of them. They used to met there, spent their time together. Their first kiss, their first date, their bond…is related with the Sakura tree. And even their last argue…
“ You’ve changed, Jin… “
Kazuya sighed. Tears were formed in the younger’s eyes; mixed feelings gleamed in those orbs. Sorrow, anxiety, tired, hate… and the feelings of being betrayed ?
Jin stood there in front of the latter-stared the younger with the same eyes. His mouth is shut and dry, and he noted in his mind : You’ve changed too, Kazu…
Both of them have changed. They are not their old-selves. No more of curious teens with wide smile plastered on their face. No more of innocence they once had. No more joyous and contagious giggle. They have grown into another person, and they turned into a complete stranger now.
“ …why ? Why, Jin ? Why things turned like this ? “ Kazuya sobbed, “ What happened to us ? Why we were changed like this…? “
Silence tortured both of them. The air are heavy and suffocating… while the silver snow fell slowly from the sky to the ground.
They have never said any good bye. They never broke their relationship; but the bond itself had crashed into pieces before they even realized it. The gap between them grew wider and wider; drifted them apart to different separated ways.
Sometimes, when their eyes met, a question will pop in his head : ‘who are you?’. A question for the younger man…and for himself as well.
Two years passed like that-and their 10th anniversary came. Using all of his courage, Jin wrote a letter for Kazuya, sent it directly to the latter’s mailbox.
Happy 10th Anniversary.
We need to talk.
I’ll wait for you today 8 p.m at our usual place.
-Jin-
So here he is now; stood under the promised Sakura tree. There is no guarantee that Kazuya will come. No guarantee that Kazuya even read his letter. Jin rubbed his frozen hand and watched the snow fell from the sky.
This scene is too familiar…
That place, snow, winter’s night… The one who still lacking is just…
“ Jin “
Jin opened his eyes, stared at the figure who stood near him. He couldn’t believe his eyes. He came. He came.
“ Kazu… “ Jin called the latter’s name in husky voice, but Kazuya didn’t let Jin to finish his words, “ Maru asked us to a celebration party “
“ Eh ? “
“ It’s our 10th anniversary after all “
Followed the younger’s step, Jin smiled bitterly.
So you didn’t come for me.
***
Took place in Kazuya’s apartment, the celebration party is awkward and dry; Yuichi tried his best to build the cheerful mood… but it was useless. Both of Jin and Kazuya didn’t speak to each other; made themselves busy with liquor.
“ Kanpai…!! “ Jin faked his voice with a forced happy tone; raised his glass high before sipping the alcohol. The drink burned his tongue; but he didn’t care. It made his head hazed, made he forgot about everything.
Yuichi tried to stop him from drinking, and Kazuya didn’t say anything-sipping his glass endlessly as well. The poor Yuichi sighed and surrendered, letting them did as they please, “ This is supposed to be a celebration party for us…! “
Celebration ?
A celebration for what ? Celebration of their faked friendship ?
Jin wanna puke when the thought echoed in his head.
Yeah, rite. It was called friendship when you barely talked to each other, keep your distance and made minimal contact as you could ? Don’t kidding me…
Walked slowly to the balcony, he tried to freshen his mind. And he froze. His glass fell from his hand; shattered into pieces… but he didn’t do anything.
“ Kazu…? “
In front of him, there was Kazuya. Stood near the edge of the balcony; his head tilted to the starry sky. There’s a trail of tears in his cheeks, and Kazuya paused for a second.
“ …Jin “ His voice is rasp and hoarse; his eyes bloodshot with sorrow.
…why ? Why, Jin ?
Why things turned like this ?
What happened to us ?
Why we were changed like this…?
The latter’s questions that night echoed in his head. Jin walked closer to the younger and before he even realized; he hugged the latter tight-his nose inhaled the latter’s familiar sweet scent.
“ Kazu… why things turned like this ? What happened to us…? Why we were changed like this…? Tell me… because I never know… I never figure it out…“
Tears fell from Kazuya’s eyes; warm and wet-running over his cheeks.
“ I couldn’t figure it out too … “
Using his thumb, Jin wiped the latter’s tears. “ Don’t cry “
“ I… “
“ Don’t cry… “
Tears keep falling from Kazuya’s eyes; and Jin was shocked when he found himself crying too. “ Don’t cry Kazu… “
Their face leaned closer; and their lips met clumsily. Jin nibbled the luscious soft lips several times; licked the younger’s lips-asking the permission to enter. Kazuya gasped and Jin inserted his tongue; deepened their kiss. Kazuya’s hand warped around Jin’s neck, giving him a better access to move. Jin’s hand roamed over Kazuya’s body; slowly but sure caressed the latter.
When Jin parted their lips, Kazuya whimpered some protest and kissed the older man passionately. “ Don’t stop “
Jin didn’t sure if it was the alcohol or their old feelings who leaping out-taking control of them. They continued the kiss, and Jin carried Kazuya to his master bedroom. Carefully not to step on the shattered glass, Jin walked in and put Kazuya’s body on the red satin sheet.
“ Jin… “
Kazuya’s finger trembled when he slowly unbuttoned Jin’s shirt; tossed it to the floor. His own clothes fell the seconds later; and Kazuya moaned softly as Jin pulled their jeans off and their raging hard-on created delicious friction together.
Their mind hazed in white mist; everything moved based on their natural instinct. Kazuya could feel Jin’s warm touches over his heated skin; and he was hungry for more. He didn’t know how it started; but he ended sucked the older’s member while Jin sucked him.
It felt weird; yet tasted so good. Kazuya moaned and bucked his hips as Jin’s talented tongue swirled around his length. A soft gasp escaped when Jin inserted his middle-saliva-coated finger to his velvet entry.
It wasn’t their first time; they have done it so many times before… and now those familiar feelings coming back to them. Kazuya trembled in expectation; moaned over and over for the feeling of being filled. Jin has inserted his third finger; moved them in and out-hit Kazuya’s sweet spot in every thrust. He still remembered the younger’s body so well, vice versa for the younger one.
“ Aaaahhh… Jiiinnn… aaaahhh… “
Kazuya sucked Jin’s member harder, paused for a second to continue his moans, and tried his best to pleasure the older man. Both of them came in the same time; Jin swallowed Kazuya’s seeds while the younger missed some trails near his lips.
Jin grabbed Kazuya’s body and kissed him again; the taste of their semen mixed with saliva during their tongue battle. Ravished Kazuya’s neck with reddish mark, Jin slowly nibbled down and made several circles using his tongue. His teeth grazed the hard nub while his fingers pinched the twin in teasing manner.
Kazuya keep moaned Jin’s name; his legs warped around the latter’s waist. Their member were raging once again; and Kazuya knew that he was ready. Jin’s erection poked his sacred channel several times; teased it before slowly slid in.
Kazuya’s body shivered for the feelings he missed for years. He enjoyed the feelings; felt like they were finally back to their old-selves. Everything felt so familiar, and it gives him warm feelings.
Jin moved his member in and out, slowly at first before increasing his pace up. Kazuya moved his hips; synch with Jin’s moves. Jin rammed hard, made Kazuya moaned shamelessly in every thrust.
When Jin cupped his forgotten member and tried to pumped it in the same pace of his thrust; Kazuya couldn’t help himself to held Jin’s body tight. When their peak is coming closer, Kazuya felt Jin slowed his pace down.
“ Jin…? “
“ I want this to last longer… “
Jin rolled his hips several time, enjoyed the warm inner walls who engulfed his member. Kissed Kazuya gently, Jin wiped the trail of sweats in the latter’s forehead and pushed the damped bang aside.
Then, in a quick thrust; Jin increased his pace again. Kazuya’s moans muffled as Jin kissed him-deep and wet. The kisses felt so sweet and tender; and Kazuya wished if he could stop the time. He didn’t want everything to be over.
Another moans escaped from their lips together as they came for the second time. Kazuya came first; his inner walls twitched and tighten-and it was enough to send Jin to his final peak, came inside Kazuya’s body.
The orgasm made their body shivered in bliss. Everything was nothing than a thick white mist for a second, and both of them were panting hard; trying to breathe normally. Moved his body, Jin started to pull his flaccid member out.
“ Jin… don’t “ Kazuya’s voice broke the silence, and Jin’s body tensed, “ Don’t ? “
Kazuya bucked his hips, his legs warped Jin’s waist tighter and Jin’s member entered his hole fully once again. Blushed in deep red; Kazuya whispered in almost inaudible voice : “ Can we stayed like this for a moment…? I didn’t want this moment to over yet… “
Jin smiled and kissed the tip of Kazuya’s nose, “ As you wished… “
Kazuya closed his eyes and enjoyed the butterfly kisses from the latter. Jin kissed every inch of Kazuya’s face before kissed Kazuya’s now swollen lips once again.
The kiss deepened and both of them knew what will happen in the next seconds. Kazuya held Jin’s arms tightly as he felt Jin’s member turned hard once again inside him. Jin put Kazuya’s legs on his shoulders and rolled his hips deviously.
“ Ready for the next round ? “
Kazuya answered by kissing the latter’s lips clumsily. Jin intertwined their fingers together and rammed his member hard; in and out…in and out… Kazuya keep moaned his name, face flushed in the shade of red. His eyes are partly opened, and those swollen lips keep panted and gasped in every thrust.
“ Jin… Jin… Aaaahhh… “
Jin increased his tempo; pulled and thrust in almost inhuman pace. Kazuya held his legs wide open, giving Jin a better access to rammed into him. “ Aaah… Jin… harder… “
Jin complied his plea; and Kazuya panted for the overwhelming sensation. Jin made this round last as long as he could; slowed his pace every time their peak is coming closer…rolled his hips and rammed slowly; teased the younger man beneath him.
The pattern keep repeated; and Kazuya amazed that their round is last so long. Jin did last long; ended the round after an hour later because Kazuya pleaded for their coming. Jin released his seeds once again inside Kazuya, and finally pulled his flaccid member out.
Jin lied beside Kazuya and took the younger into his embrace.
“ Kazuya… may I asked you something ? “
“ What is it ? “
“ Do you still love me ? “
Kazuya frowned, “ Why did you ask ? “
“ Because I still love you no matter what, Kazu… and I want to know your real feelings “
Kazuya snuggled closer, “ Everything in our relationship is nothing than pain and sorrow, Jin… But I still love you. I always love you…and my feelings never faded all this time… It won’t fade no matter what “
“ Kazu… “
“ Hmm ? “
“ Happy 10th anniversary “
Kazuya smiled, “ Happy 10th anniversary too, Jin… “
--owari--
this fic is crappy, I knew XD
*run away from the thrown tomatoes*