Ryoda's fic for Dephi~~ ^^
Keep The Faith In Me
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : Ryoda, a little bit of Akame
Rating : NC17 for rape and smut
Disclaimer : do you really think I have the authority from Jhonny-sama ? the answer is NO with capital letter.
Summary : Love need faith to survive. Ryo forgot about that fact. The result ?
A.N : This one is un-betaed, but I’m sure u guys won’t mind rite ? And the words marked with --- and italics are flashbacks.
Birthday fic to dephi . HAPPY B’DAY dear~!!! Sorry for the angsty fic for ur special day.
It happened so fast; too fast…
He just blinked once.
Once, and everything turned into a complete chaos.
What…
What did just happened…?
Stared the crimson liquid that splashed onto his body; his blank eyes slowly recognized the red-stained pool around him.
...blood ?
It felt so suffocating, his lungs screamed for air. Yet he couldn’t breathe. His body trembled in shock, and his inaudible scream disappeared in the darkness.
I…
Then, he remembered.
His memories hit him back with agonizing pain.
The muffled voice finally released from his throat, “ TATSUYAAAA…!!! “
No…no… tell me that this is just a dream.
Tell me… this is NOT real
Tell me… this is just a nightmare…
But the body which covered in blood on the asphalt is real, and Ryo screamed in horror once again, “ Tatsuya ? TATSUYA…!!! “
The paramedic walked through the people, lifted Tatsuya’s body and rushed back to the ambulance.
“ Ryo ! Come on ! “ Uchi pulled his arm, forced him to move his legs to follow them. He complied, but acted like a stringless marionette. He kept silence along the way, and it was Uchi who proceed all of the procedure.
“ Who is the victim ? “
“ Ueda. Ueda Tatsuya “
“ What happened ? “
“ We were walking near the building when the metal block suddenly fell down “ Uchi answered in hoarse voice, “ It was supposed to hit Ryo… but Ueda saw it and pushed him; and got hit with the block as the result “
All of those conversation heard like a static buzz in Ryo’s mind. He even didn’t realize when one of the paramedic checked him and stated that he got an extreme shock for witnessing the horrible scene.
The red indicator lamp was blinking on; the operation had just began. Uchi tapped Ryo’s shoulder carefully, “ Ryo… are you okay ? “
Finally all of his defenses crumbled down; the usual poison-tongue man sobbed… His tears running over his cheeks. “ …why did he save me ? “
“ Ryo ? “
“ Why did he save me after all those things I’ve done to him…? “
---
“ You’re such a whore, aren’t you ? “
Tatsuya’s eyes widened in shock. The smile which plastered on his face when he opened the door disappeared and changed with a confused look, “ Ryo…what do you mean ? “
Ryo snorted and poke Tatsuya hard on his chest, “ Shut up ! Stop your innocent acts. I’ve fed up with it “
Tears were formed in Tatsuya’s eyes, along with the disbelief expression; dominated with the broken-hearted feelings.
“ I didn’t understand what are you talking about… “
“ Okay. Keyword : JIN. Ring-ring… did it ring any bell ? “
“ Jin ? “
“ Of course ! My own close friend, your band mate “
“ But I…”
“ Stop your lies…! I saw the scene with my own eyes… “ Those blaming eyes stared at the every inch of the older man, “ You slept with him…! “
“ What ?!! I didn’t…!! “
“ I didn’t want to hear anything anymore “ Ryo mocked him, “ You always refused about sex, saying those things… ‘Ryo, I’m sorry… I’m not ready yet’ and all of them are big fat lies !! Now…it’s over. You heard that ? It was over, Tatsuya “
“ …what…? “
“ You’ve heard me. You and me… it’s over “
Ryo left the latter; who stood frozen in shock-tears running down from his swollen eyes to his cheeks…and when Tatsuya called Ryo’s name weakly, Ryo didn’t even turn back to see him.
---
Uchi couldn’t say anything.
Ryo continued his sobs, “ I’m so stupid ! I didn’t believe in him; I hurt him… Over and over without knowing the truth… “
---
A muffled gasp escaped from Tatsuya’s lips as Ryo pushed his body hard against the cold glassy wall. The mirror panels reflected their reflection perfectly; the image of horrified Tatsuya got cornered by the younger man.
“ I thought that you hate me so much “ Tatsuya said bitterly, “ …since you called me ‘whore’ and some other similar names recently “
“ I DID hate you “ Ryo’s hand roamed over Tatsuya’s silken skin, slowly slipped his hand through the latter’s inner thigh, “ But you are a slut… and I have a need to release “
“ Stop it ! STOP ! “ Tatsuya tried to struggle, “ I’m not a … “
His sentences didn’t finished; Ryo kissed the luscious lips to shut him up, “ Yes you are… “
Tatsuya whimpered some protest; but Ryo clasped his palm on the latter’s mouth. The brown haired man tried his best to push the younger aside; but it was useless since the latter is way stronger than him.
“ We dated for years, but you acted so cool and innocent “ Ryo hissed, “ I believe in you… but then I found out who you really are. SLUT “
“ Mmmmpphhh… “ Tears flowing out from Tatsuya’s eyes; he tried to shook his head.
The latter acted like in a trance; brutally forced Tatsuya’s legs to open widely and pushed himself between. Ryo’s hand grabbed Tatsuya’s length and pumped it with ruthless tempo.
“ Nnghh… “
“ You enjoyed this, rite ? “ Ryo smirked, inhaled the sweet scent from the latter’s neck. Slowly, he grazed his teeth over the silken skin and suck hard until a crimson hickey was formed. He increased his tempo on the older’s heated flesh and tugged the pants down along the boxer.
Tatsuya’s legs kicked the empty spaces in the air; Ryo pushed him hard against the glassy panel, one arm forced Tatsuya’s legs to wide open while his other arm pinned both of Tatsuya’s hand.
Ryo opened his zipper and rolled his pants down, his cold sharp eyes met with Tatsuya’s pleading eyes, “ No… Don’t… This is my first time, Ryo… “
“ First time, huh ? I’ll take care of it “
Ryo even didn’t bothered to caress him; no preparation at all. It’s all hate and force; with curses instead of the words of love. Tatsuya winced; a scream escaped from his lips as Ryo entered him fully with one quick thrust. It hurts so much, as he was torn apart into pieces-but the latter ignored it.
Ryo rammed himself in and out, over and over in almost inhuman pace. Tatsuya tried to bear the pain, shut his eyes tight and bit his lower lips hard. Ryo increased his pace and panted hard as his peak is coming over. Tatsuya yelped; his body tensed and sore.
“ Come with me “
Forced Tatsuya to come, Ryo hissed in pleasure as the warm walls which engulfed his length twitched and tighten. He came first with a vociferous moan, and a few seconds later Tatsuya followed with messy sticky fluid between their body.
“ See ? I knew you like it “ Ryo cleaned himself, took his shirt and zipped his pants-simply left, ignored the older man who lied on the floor; limp and sobbed with red swollen eyes.
“ Ryo…? “
“ What ? “
“ Why you couldn’t believe me…? “ Tatsuya’s voice shaken, “ The only thing I wished is that you could keep your faith in me… “
“ Ne, Ueda “ Ryo snorted, emphasized the latter’s surname, “ Let the faith burned in hell. Like I care… “
---
“ I’m such an asshole “ Ryo rubbed his temples, while Uchi kept silence beside him. Ryo continued with hoarse voice, “ Why I never listen to him ? Jump on conclusion without letting him to explain… “
---
Ryo was walking along the corridor when he passed KAT-TUN restroom. He saw a glimpse of the passionate kiss through the half opened door-it was Jin and Kame kissed. Kame moaned as Jin caressed him possessively.
Ryo barged in, “ OEY !! Bakanishi !! What the hell ?! “
The starled pair stared at him with the same questioning eyes, “ Ryo, what do you mean ? “
“ You are…kissing him ! “
“ Yeah, so what ? The entire JE knew that Kazu-chan is mine “
“ And how about Tatsuya ? “
“ Tatchan ? “
“ Oh, come on ! I saw you came to his apartment late in the night and left in the next morning “
Jin was confused at first-then he burst out a laugh, “ Gosh, Ryo… At that time we were writing a new song together. Butterfly. You knew the song ! “
“ So… you two are not… “
“ No, they didn’t “ Kazuya replied, “ Jin was mine. I planned to join them, but that night Ran-chan was sick and she needs me…so I called Jin and told him that I couldn’t come “
“ How you could be so sure ? “ Ryo asked, “ He may cheated behind your back…! “
“ Hey ! I heard that ! “ Jin protested, but Kazuya answered calmly, “ I just keep my faith in him. This idiot loves me too much to cheated on me. Beside… “
“ Beside ? “
“ As far as I knew, the one that Tatchan loves the most is you… “
---
“ …but he still loves you no matter what, Ryo “ Uchi said with a calm voice, “ That’s why he saved you, rite ? “
---
Ryo was walking along the pavement when he met Uchi. His former band mate was standing in front of a clothes store-stared at an outfit in the display. They chatted for a while and decided to shop together.
“ LOOK OUT !! “
Uchi realized the thing that had just happened a couple of seconds later. Ryo sat on the ground; blood tainted his face and his clothes-but he was fine. The source of those bloods is someone else, and Ryo stared at the unconscious figure with terrified eyes, “ …TATSUYAAA…!!! “
---
The indicator lamp turned off, both of Ryo and Uchi stood as the doctor came out from the surgery room. Ryo asked immediately, “ Doctor ! How is he ? “
“ He has passed the worst condition. He got several broken bones and terrible bruises, but he was okay “
“ Can I… visit him ? “ Ryo pleaded. The doctor replied, “ He was still unconscious, but you may visit him after we transferred him to his room“
Ryo nodded. After a while, a nurse informed him, and Uchi waved him goodbye since he got another thing to do. Ryo stopped in front of Tatsuya’s room; slowly opened the door and stepped in, walked closer to Tatsuya’s bed.
The man he loves seemed so pale; lied motionless as he was die. But there was the sign of breathing… He was alive.
Alive.
You are still alive… Thanks God…
Tears flooded from Ryo’s eyes once again.
“ Sorry… I’m sorry. I’m so sorry… I should’ve listened… I should listen… But I never did. I ignored you, I hurts you… I’m such a jerk… You must hate me. You have the right to do so “
“ You know… “ Ryo continued, “ You won’t believe me… but honestly, I love you so much. I was blinded over my jealousy, and I hurt you… because with that way, I could still interact with you. How foolish I am… And when I knew the truth, I have no courage to admit it and apologize to you. I’m so foolish… “
Holding the older man’s hand, Ryo felt his heart broken into pieces, “ Tatsuya…wake up. This time… I promised that I’ll keep my faith in you… “
***
Tatsuya sat in the darkness.
He had wandered for hours, but he found nothing except the darkness. He couldn’t see anything, couldn’t hear anything…
“ Where am I ? “
Am I… die ?
He remembered his last situation. He was walking around the area when he saw a metal block fell towards the younger man. Then, his body moved by its own, pushed Ryo aside. And…
Black.
The rest of his memories is black, a complete darkness.
He sighed. Am I die ? How will Ryo react ? Sad ? Happy ?
“ Tatsuya… “
Ryo ? …is that you ?
“ Wake up. This time… I promised that I’ll keep my faith in you… “
***
Slowly, Tatsuya opened his eyes. The blurred images in his sight slowly changed into more familiar shapes; and he realized that he was in a hospital room.
“ Ryo…? “
“ Tatsuya…! “ Ryo grabbed the latter’s arm, his eyes red from crying, “ You’re awake ! “
“ I was trapped in darkness… “ Tatsuya weakly muttered, “ until I heard your voice. Your promise… “
“ I meaned all of those promises “ Ryo desperately nodded, “ Please forgive me “
“ …what for ? “
“ Because I’m a jerk; because I never give you a chance. I never listen to you… I always hurt you… “
“ Ryo, I forgave you already. Everytime you hurt me, I’ve forgave you… “ Tatsuya whispered, “ Because… I love you “
“ Tatsuya… “
“ Just promise me one thing, Ryo “
“ What is it ? “
“ This time… don’t you ever forget your promise. Keep your faith in me… “
Ryo nodded, “ I promise… “
-owari-
*run away from the thrown tomatoes*
I knew the fic is sux and crappy… gomen~!! (>0<)
Author : mizuno_hikaru
Pairing : Ryoda, a little bit of Akame
Rating : NC17 for rape and smut
Disclaimer : do you really think I have the authority from Jhonny-sama ? the answer is NO with capital letter.
Summary : Love need faith to survive. Ryo forgot about that fact. The result ?
A.N : This one is un-betaed, but I’m sure u guys won’t mind rite ? And the words marked with --- and italics are flashbacks.
Birthday fic to dephi . HAPPY B’DAY dear~!!! Sorry for the angsty fic for ur special day.
It happened so fast; too fast…
He just blinked once.
Once, and everything turned into a complete chaos.
What…
What did just happened…?
Stared the crimson liquid that splashed onto his body; his blank eyes slowly recognized the red-stained pool around him.
...blood ?
It felt so suffocating, his lungs screamed for air. Yet he couldn’t breathe. His body trembled in shock, and his inaudible scream disappeared in the darkness.
I…
Then, he remembered.
His memories hit him back with agonizing pain.
The muffled voice finally released from his throat, “ TATSUYAAAA…!!! “
No…no… tell me that this is just a dream.
Tell me… this is NOT real
Tell me… this is just a nightmare…
But the body which covered in blood on the asphalt is real, and Ryo screamed in horror once again, “ Tatsuya ? TATSUYA…!!! “
The paramedic walked through the people, lifted Tatsuya’s body and rushed back to the ambulance.
“ Ryo ! Come on ! “ Uchi pulled his arm, forced him to move his legs to follow them. He complied, but acted like a stringless marionette. He kept silence along the way, and it was Uchi who proceed all of the procedure.
“ Who is the victim ? “
“ Ueda. Ueda Tatsuya “
“ What happened ? “
“ We were walking near the building when the metal block suddenly fell down “ Uchi answered in hoarse voice, “ It was supposed to hit Ryo… but Ueda saw it and pushed him; and got hit with the block as the result “
All of those conversation heard like a static buzz in Ryo’s mind. He even didn’t realize when one of the paramedic checked him and stated that he got an extreme shock for witnessing the horrible scene.
The red indicator lamp was blinking on; the operation had just began. Uchi tapped Ryo’s shoulder carefully, “ Ryo… are you okay ? “
Finally all of his defenses crumbled down; the usual poison-tongue man sobbed… His tears running over his cheeks. “ …why did he save me ? “
“ Ryo ? “
“ Why did he save me after all those things I’ve done to him…? “
---
“ You’re such a whore, aren’t you ? “
Tatsuya’s eyes widened in shock. The smile which plastered on his face when he opened the door disappeared and changed with a confused look, “ Ryo…what do you mean ? “
Ryo snorted and poke Tatsuya hard on his chest, “ Shut up ! Stop your innocent acts. I’ve fed up with it “
Tears were formed in Tatsuya’s eyes, along with the disbelief expression; dominated with the broken-hearted feelings.
“ I didn’t understand what are you talking about… “
“ Okay. Keyword : JIN. Ring-ring… did it ring any bell ? “
“ Jin ? “
“ Of course ! My own close friend, your band mate “
“ But I…”
“ Stop your lies…! I saw the scene with my own eyes… “ Those blaming eyes stared at the every inch of the older man, “ You slept with him…! “
“ What ?!! I didn’t…!! “
“ I didn’t want to hear anything anymore “ Ryo mocked him, “ You always refused about sex, saying those things… ‘Ryo, I’m sorry… I’m not ready yet’ and all of them are big fat lies !! Now…it’s over. You heard that ? It was over, Tatsuya “
“ …what…? “
“ You’ve heard me. You and me… it’s over “
Ryo left the latter; who stood frozen in shock-tears running down from his swollen eyes to his cheeks…and when Tatsuya called Ryo’s name weakly, Ryo didn’t even turn back to see him.
---
Uchi couldn’t say anything.
Ryo continued his sobs, “ I’m so stupid ! I didn’t believe in him; I hurt him… Over and over without knowing the truth… “
---
A muffled gasp escaped from Tatsuya’s lips as Ryo pushed his body hard against the cold glassy wall. The mirror panels reflected their reflection perfectly; the image of horrified Tatsuya got cornered by the younger man.
“ I thought that you hate me so much “ Tatsuya said bitterly, “ …since you called me ‘whore’ and some other similar names recently “
“ I DID hate you “ Ryo’s hand roamed over Tatsuya’s silken skin, slowly slipped his hand through the latter’s inner thigh, “ But you are a slut… and I have a need to release “
“ Stop it ! STOP ! “ Tatsuya tried to struggle, “ I’m not a … “
His sentences didn’t finished; Ryo kissed the luscious lips to shut him up, “ Yes you are… “
Tatsuya whimpered some protest; but Ryo clasped his palm on the latter’s mouth. The brown haired man tried his best to push the younger aside; but it was useless since the latter is way stronger than him.
“ We dated for years, but you acted so cool and innocent “ Ryo hissed, “ I believe in you… but then I found out who you really are. SLUT “
“ Mmmmpphhh… “ Tears flowing out from Tatsuya’s eyes; he tried to shook his head.
The latter acted like in a trance; brutally forced Tatsuya’s legs to open widely and pushed himself between. Ryo’s hand grabbed Tatsuya’s length and pumped it with ruthless tempo.
“ Nnghh… “
“ You enjoyed this, rite ? “ Ryo smirked, inhaled the sweet scent from the latter’s neck. Slowly, he grazed his teeth over the silken skin and suck hard until a crimson hickey was formed. He increased his tempo on the older’s heated flesh and tugged the pants down along the boxer.
Tatsuya’s legs kicked the empty spaces in the air; Ryo pushed him hard against the glassy panel, one arm forced Tatsuya’s legs to wide open while his other arm pinned both of Tatsuya’s hand.
Ryo opened his zipper and rolled his pants down, his cold sharp eyes met with Tatsuya’s pleading eyes, “ No… Don’t… This is my first time, Ryo… “
“ First time, huh ? I’ll take care of it “
Ryo even didn’t bothered to caress him; no preparation at all. It’s all hate and force; with curses instead of the words of love. Tatsuya winced; a scream escaped from his lips as Ryo entered him fully with one quick thrust. It hurts so much, as he was torn apart into pieces-but the latter ignored it.
Ryo rammed himself in and out, over and over in almost inhuman pace. Tatsuya tried to bear the pain, shut his eyes tight and bit his lower lips hard. Ryo increased his pace and panted hard as his peak is coming over. Tatsuya yelped; his body tensed and sore.
“ Come with me “
Forced Tatsuya to come, Ryo hissed in pleasure as the warm walls which engulfed his length twitched and tighten. He came first with a vociferous moan, and a few seconds later Tatsuya followed with messy sticky fluid between their body.
“ See ? I knew you like it “ Ryo cleaned himself, took his shirt and zipped his pants-simply left, ignored the older man who lied on the floor; limp and sobbed with red swollen eyes.
“ Ryo…? “
“ What ? “
“ Why you couldn’t believe me…? “ Tatsuya’s voice shaken, “ The only thing I wished is that you could keep your faith in me… “
“ Ne, Ueda “ Ryo snorted, emphasized the latter’s surname, “ Let the faith burned in hell. Like I care… “
---
“ I’m such an asshole “ Ryo rubbed his temples, while Uchi kept silence beside him. Ryo continued with hoarse voice, “ Why I never listen to him ? Jump on conclusion without letting him to explain… “
---
Ryo was walking along the corridor when he passed KAT-TUN restroom. He saw a glimpse of the passionate kiss through the half opened door-it was Jin and Kame kissed. Kame moaned as Jin caressed him possessively.
Ryo barged in, “ OEY !! Bakanishi !! What the hell ?! “
The starled pair stared at him with the same questioning eyes, “ Ryo, what do you mean ? “
“ You are…kissing him ! “
“ Yeah, so what ? The entire JE knew that Kazu-chan is mine “
“ And how about Tatsuya ? “
“ Tatchan ? “
“ Oh, come on ! I saw you came to his apartment late in the night and left in the next morning “
Jin was confused at first-then he burst out a laugh, “ Gosh, Ryo… At that time we were writing a new song together. Butterfly. You knew the song ! “
“ So… you two are not… “
“ No, they didn’t “ Kazuya replied, “ Jin was mine. I planned to join them, but that night Ran-chan was sick and she needs me…so I called Jin and told him that I couldn’t come “
“ How you could be so sure ? “ Ryo asked, “ He may cheated behind your back…! “
“ Hey ! I heard that ! “ Jin protested, but Kazuya answered calmly, “ I just keep my faith in him. This idiot loves me too much to cheated on me. Beside… “
“ Beside ? “
“ As far as I knew, the one that Tatchan loves the most is you… “
---
“ …but he still loves you no matter what, Ryo “ Uchi said with a calm voice, “ That’s why he saved you, rite ? “
---
Ryo was walking along the pavement when he met Uchi. His former band mate was standing in front of a clothes store-stared at an outfit in the display. They chatted for a while and decided to shop together.
“ LOOK OUT !! “
Uchi realized the thing that had just happened a couple of seconds later. Ryo sat on the ground; blood tainted his face and his clothes-but he was fine. The source of those bloods is someone else, and Ryo stared at the unconscious figure with terrified eyes, “ …TATSUYAAA…!!! “
---
The indicator lamp turned off, both of Ryo and Uchi stood as the doctor came out from the surgery room. Ryo asked immediately, “ Doctor ! How is he ? “
“ He has passed the worst condition. He got several broken bones and terrible bruises, but he was okay “
“ Can I… visit him ? “ Ryo pleaded. The doctor replied, “ He was still unconscious, but you may visit him after we transferred him to his room“
Ryo nodded. After a while, a nurse informed him, and Uchi waved him goodbye since he got another thing to do. Ryo stopped in front of Tatsuya’s room; slowly opened the door and stepped in, walked closer to Tatsuya’s bed.
The man he loves seemed so pale; lied motionless as he was die. But there was the sign of breathing… He was alive.
Alive.
You are still alive… Thanks God…
Tears flooded from Ryo’s eyes once again.
“ Sorry… I’m sorry. I’m so sorry… I should’ve listened… I should listen… But I never did. I ignored you, I hurts you… I’m such a jerk… You must hate me. You have the right to do so “
“ You know… “ Ryo continued, “ You won’t believe me… but honestly, I love you so much. I was blinded over my jealousy, and I hurt you… because with that way, I could still interact with you. How foolish I am… And when I knew the truth, I have no courage to admit it and apologize to you. I’m so foolish… “
Holding the older man’s hand, Ryo felt his heart broken into pieces, “ Tatsuya…wake up. This time… I promised that I’ll keep my faith in you… “
***
Tatsuya sat in the darkness.
He had wandered for hours, but he found nothing except the darkness. He couldn’t see anything, couldn’t hear anything…
“ Where am I ? “
Am I… die ?
He remembered his last situation. He was walking around the area when he saw a metal block fell towards the younger man. Then, his body moved by its own, pushed Ryo aside. And…
Black.
The rest of his memories is black, a complete darkness.
He sighed. Am I die ? How will Ryo react ? Sad ? Happy ?
“ Tatsuya… “
Ryo ? …is that you ?
“ Wake up. This time… I promised that I’ll keep my faith in you… “
***
Slowly, Tatsuya opened his eyes. The blurred images in his sight slowly changed into more familiar shapes; and he realized that he was in a hospital room.
“ Ryo…? “
“ Tatsuya…! “ Ryo grabbed the latter’s arm, his eyes red from crying, “ You’re awake ! “
“ I was trapped in darkness… “ Tatsuya weakly muttered, “ until I heard your voice. Your promise… “
“ I meaned all of those promises “ Ryo desperately nodded, “ Please forgive me “
“ …what for ? “
“ Because I’m a jerk; because I never give you a chance. I never listen to you… I always hurt you… “
“ Ryo, I forgave you already. Everytime you hurt me, I’ve forgave you… “ Tatsuya whispered, “ Because… I love you “
“ Tatsuya… “
“ Just promise me one thing, Ryo “
“ What is it ? “
“ This time… don’t you ever forget your promise. Keep your faith in me… “
Ryo nodded, “ I promise… “
-owari-
*run away from the thrown tomatoes*
I knew the fic is sux and crappy… gomen~!! (>0<)