I've sleept, sleept long and deep and dreamt... or have I remembered? I'm awake now.. I think.. but then why do I have this strange sensation of dreaming ( Read more... )

Im oiut, fianlly, nooo mre needlse, nomore shrpness n me cuttn me openng me free, aaaair no ligh nooo light no more no more light, no brightwallsnocoldfloor, my head hurt, hrd to see hard to thiik I hrt hurtdeep iside headsplitzz sheleterfind shelter sheler and foood whom are I???

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They've stopped, the voices have stopped. it's a quiet now, in my head, here in the house. There hasn't been a quiet moment for months. Now, nothing. The silence is so massive it's seems defening ( Read more... )

They're there, they've been with me for weeks now. I hear them all the time, even in my sleep, when I feed, when I awake, constantly, whispering. a constant murmur in the back of my mind I can't make out. I see them at the edge of my vision, but when I turn they disappear like shadows when brought to light. yet they are always there ( Read more... )

For the first time, since chrismas, I feel somewhat at peace with myself. I've more or less isolated myself to my appartment, laying low. Only going out for groceries and feeding, always trying to draw as little attention to myself as I can ( Read more... )

I dreamt of the Laberatory last night, I've been so occupied these past months that I'd almost forgotten it. Strange... I'd always thought the place would be edged into my mind. The place that was once my whole world, seared into my mind, the bright, harsh light. lusterless sterile white walls, stainless steel and gangerous green glow from ( Read more... )

The last few weeks have been so hectic, so intense that I now try to set them into perspective by writting them down ( Read more... )

Damn it, everything was comming along so nicely. I blame my own carelessness, but still. I'm worried about the potential reprecussions ( Read more... )

And so, the day as arrived ( Read more... )

It was Kirsten at my door, she'd been very worried about me, to my suprise I must admit. I thought she had enough to think about with her mothers death and David, but She'd been worried never the less, cause I'd been absent so much lately ( Read more... )