Weariness

[missconstrue]

Things are still not great for me. I am in a low point, as we've taken to calling it, where I just constantly feel ill at ease and like I want to get away from myself. It's not even an "I'm feeling bad about myself" sort of thing... it's a literal feeling of dread and wanting to escape

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[ilion]

When I was young (and my depression really starting to take hold of me) I did a lot of bargaining with God. The fact that the bargains were never answered was one of the things that led me down me early teen anti-religious phase.

When I grew out of that and took a new consideration of things it occurred to me that prayer is not about getting things or having travails lifted, but for drawing strength to face those travails.

But for the last many years I've been very unsure of my own spiritual path, so perhaps I'm not the best commenter on such things.

I would really like to see you soon.