Devils and Demons Chapter 2
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Title: Devils and Demons
Chapter: 2/?
Rating: PG-13
Discaimer:I don't own the boys, even if I wish I did :D I don't own the song either.
Summary: Reid has just found Luke, what thoughts go through his head?
Reid let out another strangled scream before running towards the lifeless body of the man he loved. He felt for a pulse and let out a sigh of relief when he found one. Although it was only faint, it was definitelly there. Luke was still with him, at least for now. He quickly grabbed his cell and dialled 911.
“I need the paramedics please…It’s my boyfriend, he’s swallowed a load of pills…No I don’t know when, I just found him, for God’s sake. You think I was here when it happened?...You don't know? What are you stupid? You don't think I would have stopped him if I'd have been here?…Yes, he has a pulse but it’s really faint. I need you to be quick please, if your small brain can manage that”
He gave the address then all he could do was wait and pray. He tried to force himself into doctor mode but he just couldn’t do it, it was too hard. He was sure the thoughts running round his head would be the thing to kill him. What if I’d of got off work early to come and find him sooner? What if I hadn’t pressured him to tell Noah so soon? What if I’d never come to Oakdale?
Reid often thought about this. If he hadn’t have come to Oakdale he would never have been so affected by the man with golden hair and hazel eyes. He wouldn’t have got himself involved in such a complicated mess. He wouldn’t have fallen in love. But somehow Reid knew that if he hadn’t have come to Oakdale, him and Luke would have been pulled together somehow. He grasped tightly on to the hand of his lover and brushed his thumb over his wrist, feeling the pulse gradually slow down, knowing that if the paramedics didn’t arrive soon then it would be too late for both of them. Against the best of his abilities a tear gently escaped his eye as he clung with desperation to Luke’s hand.
“How could you do this Luke? Why? I need you.” Reid sobbed freely now, the tears stinging his cheeks as shakilly used his spare hand to brush the hair from Luke's face. He looked like he was sleeping. He looked beautiful. “Please, just hold on a little longer baby, don’t let go just yet. I love you. I’m sorry I never told you. I love you so much”
Reid kept his tight grip on Luke’s hand, letting his tears roll down his cheeks. He hadn’t cried in what felt like centuries, and now he knew why. The pain in his stomach was unbearable and he wanted nothing more than to rip his heart out and make the pain go away. He wished he was a psychologist. He wished he could understand why Luke had done what he did but he couldn’t. He just needed Luke to keep fighting but he didn’t know if he could. He tried to go to the same safe place he had when him and Luke were trapped in the elevator but the brain was turning into his worse enemy. The brain had done this to Luke. The brain had caused Luke so much pain. Reid hated the brain more than anything else in that moment because he knew that now, his only safe place was with Luke, and the brain may have taken that safe place away from him. Reid squeezed even tighter on Luke’s hand, hoping to find some comfort.
At that point the paramedics burst in and took Luke away to the ambulance. Reid tried to understand what they were saying-they spoke his language after all- but he couldn’t. His mind was empty of all other thoughts except Luke, and how the hell he was going to carry on if he didn’t make it through this.
He stepped into the ambulance with Luke and grasped his hand again. He now knew what Luke was talking about all the time when they were building the new wing at the hospital. Every time Luke told him how truly awful it felt to have a loved with their life in danger he’d shrugged it off, but now he knew what it was like to feel truly helpless for once, and he couldn’t stand it. All he wanted was to wake up from this awful nightmare, to feel Luke’s arms wrapped round him in a sweet embrace. But that couldn’t happen, so instead, he just clung onto Luke’s hand, lasing their fingers together, hoping somehow he would feel it and know how much Reid loved him.
So, what do you guys think? Should I carry on?