Forty Seventh Summons: Another Question

[miss_enma_ai]

 [She's been doing a lot of thinking lately. Never a good sign. After that talk with Japan though, she needed to. She goes to the phones.]

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How do you forgive people?

[Action: You can find Ai sitting on the steps of her house. She's just watching the street. And anyone who walks by. No this isn't creepy at all.....]

Comments

[Phone]

[godisachild]

Good question. I have no friggin' clue either.

...Guess first you got to decide if they're even worth it.

[godisachild]

Oh.

[It's not obvious but he pretty much shrugs over the phone.]

Guess that's how it is.

Who is it you want to forgive, anyway?

[miss_enma_ai]

I'm not sure if I want to, or if I should.

A person who betrayed me and helped kill me.

And Japan who claims responsibility for his peoples actions.

[godisachild]

Then don't. It's as simple as that. Why would you forgive someone for killing you, and the other guy didn't even do anything in the first place. It's his own fault if he's putting guilt on himself.

[miss_enma_ai]

Because he spent the rest of his life trying to make up for it.

And I really just want to know 'how' people are able to forgive people. I'll make up my mind if I should forgive him later.

[godisachild]

I dunno. Maybe it would be worth it then.

...I've only really forgiven one person. Maybe two, but in one case it wasn't so much forgiveness as....things changed. I can't really describe either of them. It's stupid.

[miss_enma_ai]

But you forgave them?

[godisachild]

In a way, yeah. I guess I did.

[miss_enma_ai]

....what is that like?

[godisachild]

.....It's hard to say.

I'm still scared of one of them but with the other it's-

I don't even know. But it's a good feeling.

[miss_enma_ai]

...a good feeling.

[She doesn't think she's had a positive thought for Sen- her cousin in a very long time. Hatred or grief only.]

What had they done to you?

[godisachild]

...They'd killed me here. Both under separate occasions, but both'd killed me.

[miss_enma_ai]

And you forgive them for that?

[godisachild]

....Kind of.

One I didn't even mean to forgive. It just kind of happened, and it didn't seem so important anymore since who doesn't die in this stupid hole.

And the other-

[He blamed himself for that death, instead. Because Kyrie couldn't have meant malice. It wasn't like his actual parents, who were just abusive. Kyrie'd always helped him, and it was his fault he'd gotten killed by her because he just didn't listen.]

I don't know.

[miss_enma_ai]

We do die a lot here.

[godisachild]

It's just about all anyone does here. I'm getting tired of it.