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[miss_eagle_eye]

I was in London when 9/11 happened, so it felt very familiar when I happened to be in London for the whole Kavanaugh debacle. It was Friday night when I returned to my hotel room and tuned the TV to Susan Collins' senate speech. I was listening to what she was saying, trying to decipher a hint of which way she was leaning. I finally decided it didn

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[krull]

C'mon, man -- all life is veneer. Everyone is faking it. :P

I just survived a nearly-lethal professional assassination attempt by the person I trusted the most (the denouement is still unfolding), in my diversity lab that's all about fighting patriarchy and trust and love. Happily I survived in a robust way and not a diminished way, but still. People working in social justice, as it turns-out, are as shitty as everyone else.

It's all a pile of crap and nobody is real. THAT SAID, it's nice to get paid, good to have nice things, nature is rad, AND THERE ARE DOGS.

[miss_eagle_eye]

Professional assassination at your super-liberal university? WTF. Is there nowhere sacred or safe anymore? Everything is garbage. And I have no dogs.

(I've been holding off on having you over until my place looks better, but I think I'm just going to jump the gun and have you over to the the sub-par unfinished place after I get back from my next business trip, so be forewarned!)

[krull]

Well, to be fair, this is the same super-liberal university where a faculty colleague copied my Linkedin profile and claimed to be the founder of my lab. :)

The professional assassination attempt was undertaken by my own employee and one of my (now former) closest friends.

All life is a horror show, and the only goal is a well-funded retirement. :)

[miss_eagle_eye]

On the bright side, maybe a “well-funded retirement” will be a lot easier to achieve if the world ends sooner than we expected! I mean, if we run out of water in 12 years and I’m just saving for 20 more years at *most*, I can retire a lot sooner! 😂

[kellianne]

I think it’s normal to feel disconnected and like it all deserves to be burnt down in this age. I comfort myself with jaunts off the grid, where I Yell ENJOY THIS BECAUSE IT WONT BE AROUND ANYMORE WHEN YOU ARE OLD to my confused but happy children. I also got rid of Facebook because what is the point of conversation when two people can hear the same fucking testimony and come to such polarized conclusions? I feel better now, actually. Am I in a bubble? Great! This world is shit. Everyone is an imposter. There is no home, the west coast is weird and passive aggressive - the east coast is stressed and authoritarian, and any thing good in between is too close to crazy! but I do have a toddler who is obsessed with singing Don’t Worry, Be Happy thanks to that dancing fish at the lodge we recently escaped to in Oregon. Also! Microdosing recently helped me a whole bunch. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[miss_eagle_eye]

Micro-dosing what exactly? (I have a whole bandaid regimen!)

I’ve thought about the idea of having children and how that would provide meaning, but I’m at a place where I feel like it might be selfish to bring someone to this world at this point (and-selfishly too!-I don’t want to have to worry about the future of someone I might love that much!)

Waiting to see what November brings...!

[kellianne]

Microdosing acid! The teeeniest bit just helped me so much to see the magic in myself and vibe with my husband. It added just the right sparkle.

Look, duh, I love my kids. I strongly believe that every person needs to have regular exposure to children, the elderly, and animals in order to be good and kind. But one does not need to actually have kids to be around kids. Kids are a slog, and you never know what sort of kid you’re going to get. And YEP, the world is a shitshow. I do pretty great at balancing being wild and being a mom, but I am 100% certain I would feel tied the fuck down if I didn’t have a partner who is less wild and also all in with parenting. I have a few suuuuper close ladyfriends who are childfree and I am beyond thankful for them for hanging out with our chaos and bringing energy to the room. Aunties are everything. Also! My kids have not soothed my occasional boughts of nihilism. I try to fake it for them, but it’s still there.