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[mirrorballmoon]

Even when the way you live is wrong, you get used to it; it becomes who you are. You build up a picture of who you are based on familiarity as much as anything else.

And it happens to us all - sometimes the way you've been living stops working, becomes outdated, the picture changes.

The problem I have is I've been this depressed, self-hating person

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[nothingtosay]

So how do you redefine yourself? How do you find out who you are all over again? Do you just have to... live it?

In short... well, yes. For me, it wasn't a scary process. It was like meeting an old friend and remembering her little quirks. "God, I forgot that was how you used to deal with something like that!" That sort of thing. In short, this has the potential to be quite a fun experience. That is, of course, when you aren't shitting yourself and waiting for the old friend to fuck off again.

[dragonblk17]

I think hockey helped me redefine my life when I started getting into it once again. I felt a lot happier than I had when I was originally depressed thanks to hockey and meeting most of the friends that I have now. I found out who I was all voer again, and I became so much nicer and, I feel, a much better person.

[speednik]

See, this is a great entry to the point where I don't know what else to add.

When you're being self-hating, it's much easier to advise because I can deconstruct your argument and offer opinions as to why I don't think it's accurate, but here you're saying the right stuff. So much so that the only real response is "this is correct, carry on".

You have already had comments from people with a greater understanding of depression than I, too, so really I'm just here to lend moral support.

You mentioned on The Other Place the idea of starting a depression recovery blog. This is a good thing as long as the bad days are not so bad that you don't want to. But if this is any indication, it's a good start and in the spirit of good starts, this headspace would be a good place TO start.

Write the blog that you wish you had found when you were ten years younger.

Love you.
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