secrets, secrets they're no fun - unless they're shared with everyone...

[mirror_phobic]

haven't been doing well lately - binging/purging again. and using lax.
i'm sure i'm back at my high weight but i'm too terrified to weigh.
and when i say binge - i mean BINGE. like, thousands of calories... ugh.

anyway, i have a bigger problem.
first the good news - my sister T is finally engaged! i wrote weeks ago about going out with her now fiancee

Comments

[tarja_preta]

Hey pretty girl.
Binge is a terrible thing. I totally know what you mean with thousands of calories, I do the same thing. You go to college, right? Try to focus more on your studies, watching movies... I don't know, but something that holds your attention and don't make you think about food 24/7. Are you planning some diet to help you to get rid of the extra weight?
I'm happy for your sister!!! She'll be insanely happy!!!!
You need to be careful about what you said, but the good thing is that your sister cares about you and just wanna see you happy. My mother and friends, they all know about my eating disorder, but different than your sister, they don't care. So, I'm happy that you have such a wonderful family :)
I expect some good news on your next post, deal?
have a great sunday.

[mirror_phobic]

yes, i go to college. and i could definitely focus on my studies more! i could use it, haha. thanks. and i didn't have a specific plan before, but i've just decided to do ABC.
yes my sister is so excited! i am too for her :)
and yeah, hopefully now with her engagement she'll be too busy thinking about wedding stuff to be concerned with me. aw, i'm sure your mother and friends care, they just don't know how to show it maybe. one of my best friends had an ED but i had trouble showing her my concern, because i was afraid she would get mad at me and pull away.
and yes i will work on getting better so my posts are less depressing!
thanks for everything - have a great weekend :)