Identity, for littlesunfl0wer
Title: Identity
Recipient: littlesunfl0wer
Rating: R
Summary: Mino and Seungyoon switch bodies for ten days.
DAY ONE
Seungyoon stirs in his sleep, opens his eyes for a split second before closing them back immediately. He still has time to sleep. They don't have any schedules today so he can stay in bed for as long as he wants. It feels good; it is something that happens so rarely that he should enjoy it. He vaguely hears someone rummaging in the kitchen but doesn't pay much attention. It must be Taehyun who always has trouble sleeping and always need to drink some tea or coffee to work on his songs.
Seungyoon turns around in the bed, trying to find the best position to fall back asleep. He wants to slump into Morpheus' arms before Jinwoo starts snoring again next to him.
That's when it hits him. Jinwoo should be snoring. But he isn't and it can only means one thing; he isn't sleeping.
Seungyoon turns around under the cover once again and cracks an eye open. He doesn't see Jinwoo's bed like he should but instead he is facing a white wall. Frowning and suddenly worrying on where he is, he gets up alarmed and looks around. What the hell is he doing in Mino's room? He doesn't remember falling asleep in Mino's room yesterday nor he can understand why Mino isn't sleeping in his bed.
He starts to get uneasy, wondering if they drank too much yesterday and he doesn't remember anything, or worse if he's suffering from a sudden memory loss. If they drank and he got so wasted he doesn't have any memories of the night, it isn't good. He starts to fear that their manager might know and if so, he will severely scold them. His throat is dry as he stands up to go check on the others. Something isn't right, he can feel it.
As he throws the covers away to get out of the bed, he almost yelps. His eyes fall on his body and he isn't met with his usual pale skin and defined torso nor with his lanky legs. Instead his stomach is darker, his thighs wider than normal and even his hands are stronger and tougher. They aren't his.
His body looks weird. It isn't his own body. He must be dreaming or going crazy or even be on drugs.
He pinches his forearm really hard to try to get back to his senses but it only hurts and when he emits a sound a pain, the voice resounding in his ears isn't his. It's a lower, deeper voice that sounds strangely familiar but not like his own.
Seungyoon feels dizzy as he finally stands up and has to help himself with the desk. When he reaches the door and opens it, he is relieved to see that their living room is still the same and appears to be quite peaceful.
"Why are you already up, hyung?" Seungyoon jumps at Taehyun's voice and stares at him curiously. Can't he see that something is wrong? Why does his voice sound so real when all of this can't be anything but a dream? "And why aren't you wearing any clothes? Are you sick?" Taehyun cocks his head, scrutinizing him, suddenly concerned.
"Taehyun," Seungyoon squeaks, surprised once again at the tone of his own voice, "What's going on?"
"What do you mean what's going on?" Taehyun shakes his head, probably thinking he is just being weird like he is sometimes when he didn't sleep enough and passes his front of him to go to the living-room.
"Mino-hyung's going crazy," he hears him say to Seunghoon and Seungyoon runs his hands all over of his face, panicked. It can't be what he thinks it is.
His legs are wobbly as he hurries to his own room, barging in with a bang of the door. As he nears his bed, he tries to calm himself down but as he lifts the blanket and sees his own sleeping body, he can't help but screams.
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"This can't be happening," Seunghoon repeats for the tenth time, bewildered and eyes going back and forth to the both of them. "If you guys are joking with us it isn't funny." He looks like he is expecting Mino to jump on his feet and announces "hidden camera, hyung!" but none of them are bulging and the atmosphere keeps getting heavier and heavier as they realize the seriousness of the position they're in.
"How can this be real seriously?" Mino in Seungyoon's body adds, head between his hands, "Doesn't this just happen in dramas?" His voice cracks and the real Seungyoon shrieks as he is confronted to his own self about to cry so pathetically.
Seungyoon needs to think fast and find a way of resolving this situation. He doesn't believe in magic nor in miracles and he can't be breaking down too. There must be a realistic explanation to all this. Maybe some fans fed them drugs yesterday, maybe they are all having a hallucination.
"Perhaps, we should go to a doctor," he offers, scanning his members' faces to try to distinguish any sign of hope or support but all of them just seem as lost as he is. Jinwoo hasn't spoke since they woke up him up and explained to him what was going on. Seunghoon is conflicted between laughing or believing them. Taehyun is dead worried, biting his nails and glancing towards him like he is some kind of stranger. And as for Mino - or Mino occupying his body - he is failing at keeping a straight face, eyebrows furrowed and tears gathering in the corner of his eyes.
"What kind a doctor will take you guys seriously?" Seunghoon argues and he's right. There's none.
"Besides, we don't want getting caught by fans going to a doctor. It will spread rumors." Taehyun wisely advices and is obviously trying really hard not to panic.
"We can't tell the company either then. It'll mean stopping our activities and having to get it reveal. I don't want us to be called creepy or crazy." Seungyoon continues and the others nod vigorously.
"There's no solution then? We just stay that way?" Mino retorts angrily, standing up and staring at Seungyoon with some kind of fury. He looks like he wants to punch him for a second but then remembers it is his own body he will be punching and retracts himself.
"Let's keep our calm okay?" Seungyoon reaches to pat his shoulder awkwardly, "I'm in the same situation and I have no idea what we will do but panicking won't help us. I want my body back too."
As a leader, Seungyoon should be keeping a cold head but it is hard when he can't walk without bumping into things and when he gets a shock every time he sees his reflection on a mirror.
They promise each other to keep it a secret for now. They have a few days without schedule and it should be easy to hide it for now. Nobody will believe them if they were to reveal it anyway. The members are the only ones who trust and love them enough to detect the desperation in their voices and the awkwardness coming from get accustomed to a new body. They are the only ones who don't hesitate to accept to hide everything and to help them find a way out.
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Mino's body feels strange for Seungyoon. His movements are clumsy, his attitude is totally different from Mino's one. He tried to look at himself in the mirror but couldn't stand the sight. He wants to go back to sleep and forget this is happening. He wants someone to wake him up and tell him all of this was just a dream.
As for Mino he can't really realize what is happening yet and locks himself in his room. He palpates Seungyoon's body meticulously, trying to understand how can such thing happen and when he understands that everything about this is real, he feels anger riling up inside him and refuses to see Seungyoon in his own body again, falling into denial of the situation.
Seungyoon lies on his bed and tries to convince himself that things will go back to normal on their own. There is no way they won't. Sure it's surprising, almost unbelievable and probably the first time such thing happen in the whole world but it doesn't mean it's entirely a bad thing. After all, it is quite unique, something that could make history. Seungyoon is both amazed and terrified at the thought. But why Mino of all people? He wouldn't have minded so much if it was a beautiful woman. But it's Mino, his band mate, his friend. In a way, it feels safer to have Mino taking care of his body while they are stuck in this situation because he can keep an eye on him and he trusts him more than anyone but it's also immensely unsettling seeing his own friend walking around and looking exactly like him.
DAY TWO
Being in Mino's body does change the way Seungyoon perceives himself. Experiencing life in another body than his own, with different eyes, with people looking at him differently is, at first, quite hard for him, making him feel like he isn't himself anymore, like he lost himself in the process, but he eventually understands that the body he is in doesn't change who he really is and there is no way he will keep Mino's body forever.
He tries to confront Mino about it but Mino avoids him, probably both scared and hoping that ignoring everything will be enough to turn things back to normal. He still can't believe they switched bodies. He can't believe he is going around in a body that isn't his.
"Stop looking at me!" Mino barks that night during dinner and Seungyoon lowers his head to his own plate and he sees his own hand - hand which takes him a few seconds to acknowledge as his own - shakes. He hates every bits of this. He wants to get out of this and go back to his own head. He doesn't like the awkwardness surrounding all of them nor the way Mino can't seem to bring himself to look at him anymore.
DAY FOUR
Things gets better as days go by. If the other members stopped freaking out, they have chosen to ignore both of them after they became at a loss at what to call them - by their names or their real names - and Seungyoon and Mino just started to feel like some weird monsters.
The manager came by but didn't notice anything after Taehyun told him they were tired.
But things got better as Mino seems to have gotten accustomed to all this a bit. They exchange a few words now even if they still have trouble facing each other confidently.
Seungyoon goes to sleep early on the third day, hoping that he will wake up as himself but sighs out of frustration when he opens his eyes on a dark muscled arm.
He stirs in his bed, feeling how tense Mino's muscles are and it takes him a few minutes to register something uncomfortable between his legs. It is a sensation he is familiar with but feeling it in a body that isn't his is quite embarrassing. He knows it's natural, it happens in his own body too, knowing that they are young and frustrated but still, he feels like he is being a pervert suddenly seeing something he shouldn't. He tries to calm himself, to think about something else but nothing seems to work and then it hits him that maybe Mino is experiencing the same thing with his body and his heart flips. He runs his hand down Mino's stomach, trying his best not to touch too much skin and sinks his hand down his pants. It feels amazing. It feels as if he is doing it to someone else and yet he is still the one experiencing all the sensations. He has to bite his fist to cover his gasps but Jinwoo's snores beside him are still regular. He comes a few seconds later with his hips bucking in his hand and regrets it almost immediately; Mino wouldn't like what he is doing to his body, it is almost as if he is taking advantage of him. Seungyoon feels shame rush through his face and wants to forget he just went through one of the most powerful orgasm of his life.
After that Seungyoon decides that he should talk to Mino even if it means talking to himself, even if it means bearing the accusative looks Mino will throw him. They should figure out a solution. They can't stay that way forever. It has only been a few days and he is already feeling exhausted, wanting to go back to normal, wanting to forget all of this is happening.
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He quickly knocks twice on Mino's door, waits a few seconds and enters. Mino is sitting at his desk, probably trying to compose some music but looking overall down.
"Hey," Seungyoon says, diverting his eyes from Mino glancing at him with his own eyes. "I think we need to talk."
Mino frowns slightly, "About what?" He sounds reluctant and Seungyoon understands. He doesn't like talking to his own body with someone else inside either.
"About what's happening," he goes to sit on the bed, "Maybe we should agree on some rules," he explains carefully and Mino's frown deepens.
"Rules? What rules?"
"Rules about what we can do or not do with each other bodies," Seungyoon clarifies, watching expectantly Mino's reaction but he just shrugs like he usually does in his own body when he nags him.
"We don't need rules because we won't stay like this long enough," he sounds sure of it but Seungyoon knows his own voice enough to detect the hint of worry.
"I hope so too but we can't be certain so-," he argues but Mino interrupts.
"I'm certain. I don't want us to get comfortable with this situation, okay? It will resolve by itself and until then I don't want to hear about it." Mino turns back to his computer, face cold and Seungyoon wants to scold him for being childish but he's not in a position to.
"Listen Mino, I don't like what's happening either. Actually it fucking sucks, okay? I'm spending half of my time wondering if I'm not going completely crazy and having a split personality," he raises his voice and he almost shivers as it is the first time he hears Mino's voice that way, "but the thing is, we are in this situation, both of us, together and we have no idea how to go back to normal. I'm trying to be mature here, Mino, to find a way for us to endure this the easiest way possible. I mean, what if we don't go back to our own bodies again? What if we have to keep being like this? Then do you want to give up on everything, on Winner too? I can't let you do this, not with my body." Seungyoon is now standing up, fist clenched and face red, about to break down. Mino swallows hard, face pale and avoiding his eyes.
"I'm sorry. Don't get mad, please. I really hate seeing myself get mad," he adds but what could be a joke isn't, "It's just that I don't know how to deal with all that. I can't even look at you - at me - properly," his voice is uneven and his head down and Seungyoon knows exactly how it feels.
"Yeah, I know. I think it's unfair too."
"Why us of all people?," Mino asks quietly, uttering what both of them have been wondering since the beginning. What did they do wrong that they have to go through all this?
"Maybe it's our chance to get closer," Seungyoon ponders but Mino just scoffs. They are indeed already close but not the way Mino and Taehyun are close or Seunghoon and Jinwoo. They are close, they aren't awkward with each other but there is always an hint of discomfort when they are together. It has always been there and Seungyoon always thought it was because their personalities don't match. Now he isn't sure anymore. He can still feel the shame at the back of his head thinking about what he did earlier this morning. He tries to reason himself, to convince himself that it is because Mino has a nice body and it isn't creepy to do such things but he isn't so sure anymore. Maybe it was there since the very beginning.
"We don't need to get closer," Mino retorts, "Maybe it's because we're too close that such thing happened to us." His tone is accusative and Seungyoon sighs, Mino being angry won't help them.
"If you say so. I don't know why this happened but I think we should try by any means to get our bodies back or at least agree on some rules for the time being," he explains again, suddenly tired of all this and wishing he could have his body back and pretends he doesn't look when Mino is changing his shirt.
Mino stays quiet for a bit, thinking, evaluating what would be the best for him. Avoiding Seungyoon seems like a good option but he also wants to try whatever it takes to get his body back.
"Okay, let's do it. Let's try everything so we can go back in our own bodies," he finally agrees and Seungyoon lets out a sigh of relief. He extends his hand for Mino to shake it but regrets it as soon as he squeezes his own palm against his own.
DAY FIVE
They try everything they can. Mino suggests that they do the exact same thing they did the day before it happened so Seungyoon does. He plays guitar in the morning even if it's hard with Mino's fingers, he eats rice and eggs for lunch, he nags Taehyun because he didn't clean the living room. In the afternoon, they go to dance practice and when the time comes, Seungyoon goes to bed thinking that it will fix everything. When he wakes up and realizes that it is still Mino's body he's in, he wants to cry.
DAY SIX
Seungyoon feels like he has been transported into a science fiction book where a crazy scientist fucked up his last test. There isn't any way out.
They try to look it up on the internet but after going around tones of weird sites with people claiming that they feel possessed by someone else, they give up.
They try to hold hands and concentrate to switch their minds back again but it has no effect.
The other members watch them curiously and anxiously trying out the strangest to the stupidest things until they come to the conclusion that there is nothing they can do. They just have to wait and pray that they will be turned back up again.
A sense of desperation and fear takes over them after this. What if they are stuck this way? Seungyoon lived all his life as someone, with a body and he isn't sure he will be able to live the rest of his life as someone else. He can play guitar and sings with his own body, now he can only try to impersonate Mino's rapping but doesn't succeed. He doesn't want to resign himself to give up on his body but their multiple failures make him feel incredibly lonely and hopeless.
"What if we never get our bodies back?" Mino asks, voice trembling, at night as they are in his room working on a song and trying to forget that they might never get to be Winner again. Seungyoon tries really hard to act as a leader, to reassure everyone, to promise that the situation won't last but he is sure of nothing and they can probably sense it.
He answers as confidently as he can that they will get their bodies back for sure.
Sometimes Mino even throws jokes about it to loosen up the atmosphere and Seungyoon almost dies of embarrassment at seeing his own face crumpling into cute ones or his voice getting two ranges higher to give the best impersonations, but it all makes things better because they don't ignore each other anymore. They are in this together.
DAY SEVEN
The only good part of this body swapping is that they got closer. Now Mino and Seungyoon spend most of their time together since they think that it might help them switch back and since the members are uncomfortable around them. Sometimes they don't speak at all, doing their own things and silently hating each other, some others times they laugh together and make fun of each other, "stop making this face I look ugly" or "I never noticed your toes were this disgusting".
They aren't used to the other bodies nor completely comfortable with looking at each other while talking but they find some kind of comfort in spending time together, in thinking that they can share this with someone.
Seungyoon tries his best to pretend he is not feeling strangely attracted when Mino asks what it feels like to be in his body and Mino tries his best to pretend he doesn't notice the tensed atmosphere surrounding them when they evoke their condition.
Seungyoon still nags Mino a lot, especially when he says he doesn't want to apply cream before sleeping or when he insists on wearing his own clothes when they don't fit Seungyoon's body, but he doesn't nag him the same way he used to do. He nags him because he can't understand what's going on inside him. He even wonders if this whole body switching didn't mess up with his brain and made him find a liking in Mino.
It is becoming harder and harder to stay in an alien body he is interested in. He always found Mino attractive but having to bear the sight and to touch the body of someone he admired for years is completely different.
DAY EIGHT
Seungyoon finds out Mino doesn't help him dealing with his mixed feelings. They have indeed never been that close before nor had such chemistry and Seungyoon is slowly falling deeper and deeper for Mino, which is quite creepy considering he is still in his body. They are still friends and have always been, however, this body swapping changed Seungyoon's perception on Mino and on Mino's body. It is a part of why he wants to end this problem as soon as possible.
"It would have been kind of hot if I had found myself in a girl's body. I could have had fun," Mino notes while lying on his bed and once again while they are rambling about how miserable they are.
"Ugh, pervert," Seungyoon emphasized next to him, "You should be glad, my body is hot."
Mino scoffs at that and hits him playfully. "Not as hot as mine," he says and Seungyoon almost wants to agree.
DAY NINE
It is becoming more and more urgent as the days go by to find a way out. They have schedules to attend and they can't keep delaying everything by pretending they are sick. Even the other members start to get tired and angry at the whole situation. Seungyoon can only do his best to calm them down but it doesn't work that much, especially since he has to talk to them in Mino's body.
As for his relationship with Mino, Seungyoon is slowly loosing his mind as he has to deal with the continuously stronger frustrations coming from being in Mino's body. He decides that he should tell Mino, that he should be honest with him and they should find out if all this is a part of the swapping or if it is genuine feelings Seungyoon is having.
He whispers it in the dark that evening when they can't see each other and when it's easier to be honest. Mino tenses beside him, holding his breath and for long seconds Seungyoon thinks he made a mistake, thinks Mino will reject him and finds him disgusting for having such thoughts when they aren't even themselves but instead Mino answers in the same hushed voice.
"Do you think it is a part of the swap? Do you think it is something we can't control?," he ponders and Seungyoon hears "I feel the same thing" instead.
"I don't think so," he starts, shifting uncomfortably, "I-I mean I always found you attractive but it just amplified everything it seems." Seungyoon's face flushes and he never thought he would have been able to say such things one day.
"Isn't it weird to say that when we are in each other bodies? It sounds as if you're liking yourself," Mino chuckles as he speaks but Seungyoon doesn't laugh back, he knows how unhealthy all this is, considering they have swapped bodies but also that they are in the same band and they can't risk to loose what they worked years for.
"I know," Seungyoon admits quietly, turning around on the bed to look at Mino's side, "but I can't control it and being in your body made everything more difficult," he confesses and he sees Mino nods in the dark. It is both unsettling and strange to look at the lips that were his own for years on someone else and wanting to kiss them. He wonders how his skin would feel under Mino's hands, how his voice would sound and thinking that it would Mino behind all this make everything more thrilling.
"It's difficult for me too," Mino mutters, repositioning himself so they're facing each other, "so difficult I couldn't even look at you at first." Seungyoon's heart races at the proximity and at how in his own voice wavers in a way it never did before. "It's amazing how you both look like me but not like me at the same time. The way you move and you speak and you interact with me is the way Seungyoon does but how you look is how I look. It's both scary and... captivating." Mino's voice dies at the end and Seungyoon's mouth feels dry and his head dizzy.
There's a silence and then they have their foreheads pressed against each other and Seungyoon swallows hard as he never saw his face from this close since Mino took his body. His eyes look different he realizes, darker and lighten with an intensity he never saw in himself before. He shakes lightly and hopes Mino doesn't notice before the space between their mouths is closed and they're kissing.
Seungyoon thought it would have been weird to kiss himself but it doesn't feel like it because he is kissing Mino and something seems to explode in his chest.
They kiss until they can't breath anymore and when they part, Seungyoon gasps so hard it hurts. Mino's eyes are half-lidded and he almost feels shy seeing such an obscene and needy look on his own face. "Maybe we shouldn't-," Mino starts, realization hitting him on what they've just done, "It isn't right," he mutters but then he is kissing Seungyoon again, much more harder this time.
It is kind of fascinating and disturbingly arousing to roam his hands all over his own body. What is even more interesting - outside of the fact that Seungyoon is kissing himself and is discovering how his own skin and lips feels - it is that he knows exactly what he likes. He knows all the sensitive places to touch and to tickle and so does Mino.
It makes everything easier; it brings some kind of familiarity to the situation and soon the first hesitations and tentatives gestures disappear to be replaced by a heated desire and the wish to let out of all their lustful wills.
Seungyoon knows what they are doing isn't right. He knows he is a leader and he shouldn't surrender to his own needs so carelessly, especially with his bandmate but having his body flushed against Mino's feels so right he wants to feel it for the rest of his life.
Mino whispers a coy "i love you" to his ear to which Seungyoon answers "i always did" as they are sweating and pressed against each other and can't think clearly anymore. Seungyoon never felt so alive before, he never felt so scared and unsure too but also alive and willing to give his all to Mino.
They come with hushed moans and fist clenching the sheets and Seungyoon lets himself slump against Mino, enjoying his own warmth and trying to ignore the awkwardness of what he just did to his own body. Mino doesn't say anything either but holds him tight and they feel asleep like this.
DAY TEN
Seungyoon stirs in his sleep, tentatively squirming a little closer to Mino, well decided to rest for another few hours. It takes him a few moments to remember what happened last night and he blushes at the memories. Another few seconds and he is reminded of their switch of bodies and he jerks upward in the bed. He looks around; at his arms, at his chest, at the sleepy form beside him and lets out a scream of relief. Finally!
They are back in their bodies.
He shakes Mino violently beside him who mumbles a few incoherent words before registering what Seungyoon is trying to tell him. "We've got our bodies back! Wake up! I tell you we went back to normal!" His eyes widen in shock, staring at Seungyoon and then a smile breaks on his face.
They are back to normal, they are back to being Seungyoon and Mino.
Mino lets out an high pitched cry of victory and jumps on him. They kiss for long minutes, still in the daze of having their bodies back, enjoying the feeling of touching and kissing each other while being themselves. Seungyoon is euphoric, both feeling happy and excited that they swapped back but also that they haven't lost what they are feeling for each other in the process.
They want to go tell the others. Seungyoon wants them to go back to their schedules, to write music and everything but it can wait, because for now they want to savor the moment. They still have a long way to go, this is just beginning of their story and even though it started quite strangely, Seungyoon wants to treasure it. Swapping bodies allowed them to become closer, to discover the other in a new light and Seungyoon can't wait to rediscover Mino as his real self. It made them realize what they are to each other and Seungyoon will keep a good memory of this magical thing as it opened their eyes on what their relationship can be.
Recipient: littlesunfl0wer
Rating: R
Summary: Mino and Seungyoon switch bodies for ten days.
DAY ONE
Seungyoon stirs in his sleep, opens his eyes for a split second before closing them back immediately. He still has time to sleep. They don't have any schedules today so he can stay in bed for as long as he wants. It feels good; it is something that happens so rarely that he should enjoy it. He vaguely hears someone rummaging in the kitchen but doesn't pay much attention. It must be Taehyun who always has trouble sleeping and always need to drink some tea or coffee to work on his songs.
Seungyoon turns around in the bed, trying to find the best position to fall back asleep. He wants to slump into Morpheus' arms before Jinwoo starts snoring again next to him.
That's when it hits him. Jinwoo should be snoring. But he isn't and it can only means one thing; he isn't sleeping.
Seungyoon turns around under the cover once again and cracks an eye open. He doesn't see Jinwoo's bed like he should but instead he is facing a white wall. Frowning and suddenly worrying on where he is, he gets up alarmed and looks around. What the hell is he doing in Mino's room? He doesn't remember falling asleep in Mino's room yesterday nor he can understand why Mino isn't sleeping in his bed.
He starts to get uneasy, wondering if they drank too much yesterday and he doesn't remember anything, or worse if he's suffering from a sudden memory loss. If they drank and he got so wasted he doesn't have any memories of the night, it isn't good. He starts to fear that their manager might know and if so, he will severely scold them. His throat is dry as he stands up to go check on the others. Something isn't right, he can feel it.
As he throws the covers away to get out of the bed, he almost yelps. His eyes fall on his body and he isn't met with his usual pale skin and defined torso nor with his lanky legs. Instead his stomach is darker, his thighs wider than normal and even his hands are stronger and tougher. They aren't his.
His body looks weird. It isn't his own body. He must be dreaming or going crazy or even be on drugs.
He pinches his forearm really hard to try to get back to his senses but it only hurts and when he emits a sound a pain, the voice resounding in his ears isn't his. It's a lower, deeper voice that sounds strangely familiar but not like his own.
Seungyoon feels dizzy as he finally stands up and has to help himself with the desk. When he reaches the door and opens it, he is relieved to see that their living room is still the same and appears to be quite peaceful.
"Why are you already up, hyung?" Seungyoon jumps at Taehyun's voice and stares at him curiously. Can't he see that something is wrong? Why does his voice sound so real when all of this can't be anything but a dream? "And why aren't you wearing any clothes? Are you sick?" Taehyun cocks his head, scrutinizing him, suddenly concerned.
"Taehyun," Seungyoon squeaks, surprised once again at the tone of his own voice, "What's going on?"
"What do you mean what's going on?" Taehyun shakes his head, probably thinking he is just being weird like he is sometimes when he didn't sleep enough and passes his front of him to go to the living-room.
"Mino-hyung's going crazy," he hears him say to Seunghoon and Seungyoon runs his hands all over of his face, panicked. It can't be what he thinks it is.
His legs are wobbly as he hurries to his own room, barging in with a bang of the door. As he nears his bed, he tries to calm himself down but as he lifts the blanket and sees his own sleeping body, he can't help but screams.
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"This can't be happening," Seunghoon repeats for the tenth time, bewildered and eyes going back and forth to the both of them. "If you guys are joking with us it isn't funny." He looks like he is expecting Mino to jump on his feet and announces "hidden camera, hyung!" but none of them are bulging and the atmosphere keeps getting heavier and heavier as they realize the seriousness of the position they're in.
"How can this be real seriously?" Mino in Seungyoon's body adds, head between his hands, "Doesn't this just happen in dramas?" His voice cracks and the real Seungyoon shrieks as he is confronted to his own self about to cry so pathetically.
Seungyoon needs to think fast and find a way of resolving this situation. He doesn't believe in magic nor in miracles and he can't be breaking down too. There must be a realistic explanation to all this. Maybe some fans fed them drugs yesterday, maybe they are all having a hallucination.
"Perhaps, we should go to a doctor," he offers, scanning his members' faces to try to distinguish any sign of hope or support but all of them just seem as lost as he is. Jinwoo hasn't spoke since they woke up him up and explained to him what was going on. Seunghoon is conflicted between laughing or believing them. Taehyun is dead worried, biting his nails and glancing towards him like he is some kind of stranger. And as for Mino - or Mino occupying his body - he is failing at keeping a straight face, eyebrows furrowed and tears gathering in the corner of his eyes.
"What kind a doctor will take you guys seriously?" Seunghoon argues and he's right. There's none.
"Besides, we don't want getting caught by fans going to a doctor. It will spread rumors." Taehyun wisely advices and is obviously trying really hard not to panic.
"We can't tell the company either then. It'll mean stopping our activities and having to get it reveal. I don't want us to be called creepy or crazy." Seungyoon continues and the others nod vigorously.
"There's no solution then? We just stay that way?" Mino retorts angrily, standing up and staring at Seungyoon with some kind of fury. He looks like he wants to punch him for a second but then remembers it is his own body he will be punching and retracts himself.
"Let's keep our calm okay?" Seungyoon reaches to pat his shoulder awkwardly, "I'm in the same situation and I have no idea what we will do but panicking won't help us. I want my body back too."
As a leader, Seungyoon should be keeping a cold head but it is hard when he can't walk without bumping into things and when he gets a shock every time he sees his reflection on a mirror.
They promise each other to keep it a secret for now. They have a few days without schedule and it should be easy to hide it for now. Nobody will believe them if they were to reveal it anyway. The members are the only ones who trust and love them enough to detect the desperation in their voices and the awkwardness coming from get accustomed to a new body. They are the only ones who don't hesitate to accept to hide everything and to help them find a way out.
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Mino's body feels strange for Seungyoon. His movements are clumsy, his attitude is totally different from Mino's one. He tried to look at himself in the mirror but couldn't stand the sight. He wants to go back to sleep and forget this is happening. He wants someone to wake him up and tell him all of this was just a dream.
As for Mino he can't really realize what is happening yet and locks himself in his room. He palpates Seungyoon's body meticulously, trying to understand how can such thing happen and when he understands that everything about this is real, he feels anger riling up inside him and refuses to see Seungyoon in his own body again, falling into denial of the situation.
Seungyoon lies on his bed and tries to convince himself that things will go back to normal on their own. There is no way they won't. Sure it's surprising, almost unbelievable and probably the first time such thing happen in the whole world but it doesn't mean it's entirely a bad thing. After all, it is quite unique, something that could make history. Seungyoon is both amazed and terrified at the thought. But why Mino of all people? He wouldn't have minded so much if it was a beautiful woman. But it's Mino, his band mate, his friend. In a way, it feels safer to have Mino taking care of his body while they are stuck in this situation because he can keep an eye on him and he trusts him more than anyone but it's also immensely unsettling seeing his own friend walking around and looking exactly like him.
DAY TWO
Being in Mino's body does change the way Seungyoon perceives himself. Experiencing life in another body than his own, with different eyes, with people looking at him differently is, at first, quite hard for him, making him feel like he isn't himself anymore, like he lost himself in the process, but he eventually understands that the body he is in doesn't change who he really is and there is no way he will keep Mino's body forever.
He tries to confront Mino about it but Mino avoids him, probably both scared and hoping that ignoring everything will be enough to turn things back to normal. He still can't believe they switched bodies. He can't believe he is going around in a body that isn't his.
"Stop looking at me!" Mino barks that night during dinner and Seungyoon lowers his head to his own plate and he sees his own hand - hand which takes him a few seconds to acknowledge as his own - shakes. He hates every bits of this. He wants to get out of this and go back to his own head. He doesn't like the awkwardness surrounding all of them nor the way Mino can't seem to bring himself to look at him anymore.
DAY FOUR
Things gets better as days go by. If the other members stopped freaking out, they have chosen to ignore both of them after they became at a loss at what to call them - by their names or their real names - and Seungyoon and Mino just started to feel like some weird monsters.
The manager came by but didn't notice anything after Taehyun told him they were tired.
But things got better as Mino seems to have gotten accustomed to all this a bit. They exchange a few words now even if they still have trouble facing each other confidently.
Seungyoon goes to sleep early on the third day, hoping that he will wake up as himself but sighs out of frustration when he opens his eyes on a dark muscled arm.
He stirs in his bed, feeling how tense Mino's muscles are and it takes him a few minutes to register something uncomfortable between his legs. It is a sensation he is familiar with but feeling it in a body that isn't his is quite embarrassing. He knows it's natural, it happens in his own body too, knowing that they are young and frustrated but still, he feels like he is being a pervert suddenly seeing something he shouldn't. He tries to calm himself, to think about something else but nothing seems to work and then it hits him that maybe Mino is experiencing the same thing with his body and his heart flips. He runs his hand down Mino's stomach, trying his best not to touch too much skin and sinks his hand down his pants. It feels amazing. It feels as if he is doing it to someone else and yet he is still the one experiencing all the sensations. He has to bite his fist to cover his gasps but Jinwoo's snores beside him are still regular. He comes a few seconds later with his hips bucking in his hand and regrets it almost immediately; Mino wouldn't like what he is doing to his body, it is almost as if he is taking advantage of him. Seungyoon feels shame rush through his face and wants to forget he just went through one of the most powerful orgasm of his life.
After that Seungyoon decides that he should talk to Mino even if it means talking to himself, even if it means bearing the accusative looks Mino will throw him. They should figure out a solution. They can't stay that way forever. It has only been a few days and he is already feeling exhausted, wanting to go back to normal, wanting to forget all of this is happening.
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He quickly knocks twice on Mino's door, waits a few seconds and enters. Mino is sitting at his desk, probably trying to compose some music but looking overall down.
"Hey," Seungyoon says, diverting his eyes from Mino glancing at him with his own eyes. "I think we need to talk."
Mino frowns slightly, "About what?" He sounds reluctant and Seungyoon understands. He doesn't like talking to his own body with someone else inside either.
"About what's happening," he goes to sit on the bed, "Maybe we should agree on some rules," he explains carefully and Mino's frown deepens.
"Rules? What rules?"
"Rules about what we can do or not do with each other bodies," Seungyoon clarifies, watching expectantly Mino's reaction but he just shrugs like he usually does in his own body when he nags him.
"We don't need rules because we won't stay like this long enough," he sounds sure of it but Seungyoon knows his own voice enough to detect the hint of worry.
"I hope so too but we can't be certain so-," he argues but Mino interrupts.
"I'm certain. I don't want us to get comfortable with this situation, okay? It will resolve by itself and until then I don't want to hear about it." Mino turns back to his computer, face cold and Seungyoon wants to scold him for being childish but he's not in a position to.
"Listen Mino, I don't like what's happening either. Actually it fucking sucks, okay? I'm spending half of my time wondering if I'm not going completely crazy and having a split personality," he raises his voice and he almost shivers as it is the first time he hears Mino's voice that way, "but the thing is, we are in this situation, both of us, together and we have no idea how to go back to normal. I'm trying to be mature here, Mino, to find a way for us to endure this the easiest way possible. I mean, what if we don't go back to our own bodies again? What if we have to keep being like this? Then do you want to give up on everything, on Winner too? I can't let you do this, not with my body." Seungyoon is now standing up, fist clenched and face red, about to break down. Mino swallows hard, face pale and avoiding his eyes.
"I'm sorry. Don't get mad, please. I really hate seeing myself get mad," he adds but what could be a joke isn't, "It's just that I don't know how to deal with all that. I can't even look at you - at me - properly," his voice is uneven and his head down and Seungyoon knows exactly how it feels.
"Yeah, I know. I think it's unfair too."
"Why us of all people?," Mino asks quietly, uttering what both of them have been wondering since the beginning. What did they do wrong that they have to go through all this?
"Maybe it's our chance to get closer," Seungyoon ponders but Mino just scoffs. They are indeed already close but not the way Mino and Taehyun are close or Seunghoon and Jinwoo. They are close, they aren't awkward with each other but there is always an hint of discomfort when they are together. It has always been there and Seungyoon always thought it was because their personalities don't match. Now he isn't sure anymore. He can still feel the shame at the back of his head thinking about what he did earlier this morning. He tries to reason himself, to convince himself that it is because Mino has a nice body and it isn't creepy to do such things but he isn't so sure anymore. Maybe it was there since the very beginning.
"We don't need to get closer," Mino retorts, "Maybe it's because we're too close that such thing happened to us." His tone is accusative and Seungyoon sighs, Mino being angry won't help them.
"If you say so. I don't know why this happened but I think we should try by any means to get our bodies back or at least agree on some rules for the time being," he explains again, suddenly tired of all this and wishing he could have his body back and pretends he doesn't look when Mino is changing his shirt.
Mino stays quiet for a bit, thinking, evaluating what would be the best for him. Avoiding Seungyoon seems like a good option but he also wants to try whatever it takes to get his body back.
"Okay, let's do it. Let's try everything so we can go back in our own bodies," he finally agrees and Seungyoon lets out a sigh of relief. He extends his hand for Mino to shake it but regrets it as soon as he squeezes his own palm against his own.
DAY FIVE
They try everything they can. Mino suggests that they do the exact same thing they did the day before it happened so Seungyoon does. He plays guitar in the morning even if it's hard with Mino's fingers, he eats rice and eggs for lunch, he nags Taehyun because he didn't clean the living room. In the afternoon, they go to dance practice and when the time comes, Seungyoon goes to bed thinking that it will fix everything. When he wakes up and realizes that it is still Mino's body he's in, he wants to cry.
DAY SIX
Seungyoon feels like he has been transported into a science fiction book where a crazy scientist fucked up his last test. There isn't any way out.
They try to look it up on the internet but after going around tones of weird sites with people claiming that they feel possessed by someone else, they give up.
They try to hold hands and concentrate to switch their minds back again but it has no effect.
The other members watch them curiously and anxiously trying out the strangest to the stupidest things until they come to the conclusion that there is nothing they can do. They just have to wait and pray that they will be turned back up again.
A sense of desperation and fear takes over them after this. What if they are stuck this way? Seungyoon lived all his life as someone, with a body and he isn't sure he will be able to live the rest of his life as someone else. He can play guitar and sings with his own body, now he can only try to impersonate Mino's rapping but doesn't succeed. He doesn't want to resign himself to give up on his body but their multiple failures make him feel incredibly lonely and hopeless.
"What if we never get our bodies back?" Mino asks, voice trembling, at night as they are in his room working on a song and trying to forget that they might never get to be Winner again. Seungyoon tries really hard to act as a leader, to reassure everyone, to promise that the situation won't last but he is sure of nothing and they can probably sense it.
He answers as confidently as he can that they will get their bodies back for sure.
Sometimes Mino even throws jokes about it to loosen up the atmosphere and Seungyoon almost dies of embarrassment at seeing his own face crumpling into cute ones or his voice getting two ranges higher to give the best impersonations, but it all makes things better because they don't ignore each other anymore. They are in this together.
DAY SEVEN
The only good part of this body swapping is that they got closer. Now Mino and Seungyoon spend most of their time together since they think that it might help them switch back and since the members are uncomfortable around them. Sometimes they don't speak at all, doing their own things and silently hating each other, some others times they laugh together and make fun of each other, "stop making this face I look ugly" or "I never noticed your toes were this disgusting".
They aren't used to the other bodies nor completely comfortable with looking at each other while talking but they find some kind of comfort in spending time together, in thinking that they can share this with someone.
Seungyoon tries his best to pretend he is not feeling strangely attracted when Mino asks what it feels like to be in his body and Mino tries his best to pretend he doesn't notice the tensed atmosphere surrounding them when they evoke their condition.
Seungyoon still nags Mino a lot, especially when he says he doesn't want to apply cream before sleeping or when he insists on wearing his own clothes when they don't fit Seungyoon's body, but he doesn't nag him the same way he used to do. He nags him because he can't understand what's going on inside him. He even wonders if this whole body switching didn't mess up with his brain and made him find a liking in Mino.
It is becoming harder and harder to stay in an alien body he is interested in. He always found Mino attractive but having to bear the sight and to touch the body of someone he admired for years is completely different.
DAY EIGHT
Seungyoon finds out Mino doesn't help him dealing with his mixed feelings. They have indeed never been that close before nor had such chemistry and Seungyoon is slowly falling deeper and deeper for Mino, which is quite creepy considering he is still in his body. They are still friends and have always been, however, this body swapping changed Seungyoon's perception on Mino and on Mino's body. It is a part of why he wants to end this problem as soon as possible.
"It would have been kind of hot if I had found myself in a girl's body. I could have had fun," Mino notes while lying on his bed and once again while they are rambling about how miserable they are.
"Ugh, pervert," Seungyoon emphasized next to him, "You should be glad, my body is hot."
Mino scoffs at that and hits him playfully. "Not as hot as mine," he says and Seungyoon almost wants to agree.
DAY NINE
It is becoming more and more urgent as the days go by to find a way out. They have schedules to attend and they can't keep delaying everything by pretending they are sick. Even the other members start to get tired and angry at the whole situation. Seungyoon can only do his best to calm them down but it doesn't work that much, especially since he has to talk to them in Mino's body.
As for his relationship with Mino, Seungyoon is slowly loosing his mind as he has to deal with the continuously stronger frustrations coming from being in Mino's body. He decides that he should tell Mino, that he should be honest with him and they should find out if all this is a part of the swapping or if it is genuine feelings Seungyoon is having.
He whispers it in the dark that evening when they can't see each other and when it's easier to be honest. Mino tenses beside him, holding his breath and for long seconds Seungyoon thinks he made a mistake, thinks Mino will reject him and finds him disgusting for having such thoughts when they aren't even themselves but instead Mino answers in the same hushed voice.
"Do you think it is a part of the swap? Do you think it is something we can't control?," he ponders and Seungyoon hears "I feel the same thing" instead.
"I don't think so," he starts, shifting uncomfortably, "I-I mean I always found you attractive but it just amplified everything it seems." Seungyoon's face flushes and he never thought he would have been able to say such things one day.
"Isn't it weird to say that when we are in each other bodies? It sounds as if you're liking yourself," Mino chuckles as he speaks but Seungyoon doesn't laugh back, he knows how unhealthy all this is, considering they have swapped bodies but also that they are in the same band and they can't risk to loose what they worked years for.
"I know," Seungyoon admits quietly, turning around on the bed to look at Mino's side, "but I can't control it and being in your body made everything more difficult," he confesses and he sees Mino nods in the dark. It is both unsettling and strange to look at the lips that were his own for years on someone else and wanting to kiss them. He wonders how his skin would feel under Mino's hands, how his voice would sound and thinking that it would Mino behind all this make everything more thrilling.
"It's difficult for me too," Mino mutters, repositioning himself so they're facing each other, "so difficult I couldn't even look at you at first." Seungyoon's heart races at the proximity and at how in his own voice wavers in a way it never did before. "It's amazing how you both look like me but not like me at the same time. The way you move and you speak and you interact with me is the way Seungyoon does but how you look is how I look. It's both scary and... captivating." Mino's voice dies at the end and Seungyoon's mouth feels dry and his head dizzy.
There's a silence and then they have their foreheads pressed against each other and Seungyoon swallows hard as he never saw his face from this close since Mino took his body. His eyes look different he realizes, darker and lighten with an intensity he never saw in himself before. He shakes lightly and hopes Mino doesn't notice before the space between their mouths is closed and they're kissing.
Seungyoon thought it would have been weird to kiss himself but it doesn't feel like it because he is kissing Mino and something seems to explode in his chest.
They kiss until they can't breath anymore and when they part, Seungyoon gasps so hard it hurts. Mino's eyes are half-lidded and he almost feels shy seeing such an obscene and needy look on his own face. "Maybe we shouldn't-," Mino starts, realization hitting him on what they've just done, "It isn't right," he mutters but then he is kissing Seungyoon again, much more harder this time.
It is kind of fascinating and disturbingly arousing to roam his hands all over his own body. What is even more interesting - outside of the fact that Seungyoon is kissing himself and is discovering how his own skin and lips feels - it is that he knows exactly what he likes. He knows all the sensitive places to touch and to tickle and so does Mino.
It makes everything easier; it brings some kind of familiarity to the situation and soon the first hesitations and tentatives gestures disappear to be replaced by a heated desire and the wish to let out of all their lustful wills.
Seungyoon knows what they are doing isn't right. He knows he is a leader and he shouldn't surrender to his own needs so carelessly, especially with his bandmate but having his body flushed against Mino's feels so right he wants to feel it for the rest of his life.
Mino whispers a coy "i love you" to his ear to which Seungyoon answers "i always did" as they are sweating and pressed against each other and can't think clearly anymore. Seungyoon never felt so alive before, he never felt so scared and unsure too but also alive and willing to give his all to Mino.
They come with hushed moans and fist clenching the sheets and Seungyoon lets himself slump against Mino, enjoying his own warmth and trying to ignore the awkwardness of what he just did to his own body. Mino doesn't say anything either but holds him tight and they feel asleep like this.
DAY TEN
Seungyoon stirs in his sleep, tentatively squirming a little closer to Mino, well decided to rest for another few hours. It takes him a few moments to remember what happened last night and he blushes at the memories. Another few seconds and he is reminded of their switch of bodies and he jerks upward in the bed. He looks around; at his arms, at his chest, at the sleepy form beside him and lets out a scream of relief. Finally!
They are back in their bodies.
He shakes Mino violently beside him who mumbles a few incoherent words before registering what Seungyoon is trying to tell him. "We've got our bodies back! Wake up! I tell you we went back to normal!" His eyes widen in shock, staring at Seungyoon and then a smile breaks on his face.
They are back to normal, they are back to being Seungyoon and Mino.
Mino lets out an high pitched cry of victory and jumps on him. They kiss for long minutes, still in the daze of having their bodies back, enjoying the feeling of touching and kissing each other while being themselves. Seungyoon is euphoric, both feeling happy and excited that they swapped back but also that they haven't lost what they are feeling for each other in the process.
They want to go tell the others. Seungyoon wants them to go back to their schedules, to write music and everything but it can wait, because for now they want to savor the moment. They still have a long way to go, this is just beginning of their story and even though it started quite strangely, Seungyoon wants to treasure it. Swapping bodies allowed them to become closer, to discover the other in a new light and Seungyoon can't wait to rediscover Mino as his real self. It made them realize what they are to each other and Seungyoon will keep a good memory of this magical thing as it opened their eyes on what their relationship can be.