FST: I Never Meant For This to Happen (Feanorians/Celegorm)
Browsing through various community memories, I finished off this one I've had in the works for a while. While it could work for Feanorians in general, it's primarily for Celegorm (I have a soft spot for the boy from playing him, kay?). Don't judge me. Too much.
Link to zip here.
The History of Ealdormere: Part I - Heather Dale [intro]
Up let the spark that that ignited the rain
of sententious flint and steel
Deep were the secrets the dwarf smith could name
and the cauldron of gold could reveal
Paint It Black - Rolling Stones [the darkness within]
I look inside myself and see my heart is black.
I see my red door and must have it painted black.
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts,
It's not easy facin' up when your whole world is black.
Rumbrave - Murder By Death [ultimate in pessimism]
If you stared at them too long
You'd catch a glimpse of what I'd done
The faces of the damned
And all the butchered lambs
If I had to do it over
I just would've done it slower
When we meet you will see
I will destroy everything of beauty
Carry On My Wayward Son - Kansas [the oath]
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
Mordred's Lullaby - Heather Dale [unconditional obedience]
Hush, child
The darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Child, the darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Ash - Murder By Death [burning of the ships]
We set out at dusk
We left them, well, not much
The boys were shoutin' and kickin' up dust
Oh and as we ran
With the fire behind us
And the torch in my hand
I knew I couldn't do it again
The ghosts were howlin' in the late afternoon
We were singin' along to the same old tune
I turned to my brothers to look 'em in the eyes
And there was ash....ash falling from the sky
Not Ready to Make Nice - Dixie Chicks [stubborn pride]
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
The Last Night - Skillet
You come to me with scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
Didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But I know it's a lie
Our Solemn Hour - Within Temptation [oh fuck, now what?]
In my darkest hours I could not foresee
That the tide could turn so fast to this degree
Can't believe my eyes
How can you be so blind?
Is the heart of stone, no empathy inside?
Time keeps on slipping away and we haven't learned
So in the end now what have we gained?
Angels - Within Temptation [the lay of leithan]
I see the angels, I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now, no mercy no more.
No remorse 'cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart.
War Between Brothers - Heather Dale [kinslaying]
This one's a father, and this one's a son
One man was right and the other was wrong
But both of them died in the maddening throng
Carry them home, boys, to where they belong
War between brothers
Sire fighting son
Only division where once there was one
War between brothers
Son fighting sire
Kin laid with kin in the funeral pyre
Forsaken - Within Temptation [doom of mandos]
Now the day has come,
We are forsaken,
There's no time anymore.
Life will pass us by,
We are forsaken,
We're the last of our kind.
The sacrifice was much too high,
Our greed just made us all go blind.
We tried to hide what we feared inside.
Today is the end of tomorrow.
One of Us - The Lion King II [casting out of Curufin and Celegorm]
Deception (An outrage)
(He can't change his stripes)
Disgrace (For shame)
(You know these outsider types)
Evil as plain as the scar on his face
(See you later agitator)
Soul Society - Kamelot [what do you believe in?]
If my soul could revive from my carnal remains
What does it matter to me
If it all fades to black, if I'm born once again
Then no one really is free
How could I be condemned for the things that I've done
If my intentions were good
I guess I'll never know some things under the sun
Can never be understood
Shadowland - The Lion King [sack of Doriath]
Shadowland
The leaves have fallen
This shadowed land
This was our home
Karma - Kamelot [karmic death]
Who will trade his karma for my kingdom
A sacrificial rite to render truth
The fire in my soul rejects my wisdom
Cause all you do in life comes back to you
I am a king in crisis
Counting minutes
There is an ending to my reign
My sins have come to face me
I can feel it
That I have lived my life in vain
I Need Some Sleep - Eels [worn out and worn down]
I need some sleep
Time to put the old horse down
I'm in too deep
And the wheels keep spinnin' round
Everyone says
I'm getting down too low
Everyone says
You just gotta let it go
Say Uncle - Vienna Teng [sudden death]
It came like a sudden gust of wind
Leaving them, bewildered, to ask how
I recall last time we met you said we'd meet again
The irony is only bitter now
Shiola - Murder By Death [what have we done?]
Shiola, will all be forgiven?
Shiola, am I strong enough to start again alone?
The taste of home is filling up my mouth
is it wrong to love a family of ghosts?
Her door is open, the windows are all up
she says "come inside"
I live alone, more or less
I summon wife, child, and happiness
build them up from the dirt and clay
I have to believe that all will be forgiven
Mission Street - Vienna Teng [bitter truths]
And my hands are cold tonight
I'm sleepless in this dark
Forgetting what it was I came to find
And it seems that I've been wrong
More than I've been right
More than I've been right
Last Comfort - ThouShaltNot [coming to the end]
In disdain of tomorrow
The holiness of now
Which we will soon betray
And with a sickening hope
I dangle from the modicum
Of chance that has run
Two steps ahead always
It mocks as I
Lose track of everyone
I could have turned my back
To make myself more nothing yet
So give me comfort now
It is the last that we will ever get
Where Do the Children Play? - Cat Stevens [Elured/Elurin]
Will you make us laugh, will you make us cry?
Will you tell us when to live, will you tell us when to die?
I know we've come a long way,
Were changing day to day,
But tell me, where do the children play?
What I Wouldn't Give - Holly Brook [at the Mansion (DFverse) and living forever]
it's like I don't know how to live, I’m afraid to
I used to think take them as they come, without hesitations, no
now it's like my head is filled with lies, and persuasions
as the sun begins to fall I hear her calling out to me she's sayin' hurry it's one more day gone
what I wouldn't give just to forget
so I can remember how to live again
I wanna live again
Crashing Down - Heather Dale [maybe father was wrong]
Where are all the things you fought for?
All the dreams you shed your blood for?
Are they shabby now and fraying at the seems?
Was this your boyhood vision
To endure the world's derision
Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional [we do know the truth]
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
Regret - Anathema [endless]
Memories punish me once again.
Sometimes I remember all the pain
that I have seen.
Sometimes I wonder what might
have been...
Visions of love and hate
A collage behind my eyes
Remnants of dying laughter
Echoes of silent cries
And sometimes I despair
At who I've become
I have to come to terms
With what I've done
Sound the Bugle - Bryan Adams [let it be over now]
Sound the bugle now
play it just for me.
As the seasons change
remember how I used to be.
Now I can't go on
I can't even start.
I've got nothing left
just an empty heart.
Shame - Ophelia of the Spirits [anthem to fate]
Shame, you brought this on yourself
You're the one to blame, nobody else
You should have never sunk
Down down down
So low
But that's the way it goes
We Could Have Flown Like Pollen - ThouShaltNot [we could have been]
We could have flown like pollen
Higher than the moon can see
But now we're sitting all alone in the world
Trying to write ourselves into history
We are half-destroyed and paranoid
And fearing what might be
Lost unto a forlorn hope
And made up in mystery
See the way we fell astray
Dead until our dying day
This Is Your Life - Switchfoot [you only have one life]
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Kill All Your Friends - My Chemical Romance [it's a vicious game]
Sometimes you scrape and sink so low
I'm shocked at what you're capable of
And if this a coronation
I ain't feeling the love
Cause we are all a bunch of animals
That never payed attention in school
So tell me all about your problems
I was killing before killing was cool
Throw Me A Rope - KT Tunstall [help me hold on]
So throw me a rope
To hold me in place
Show me a clock
For counting my days down
The Big Sleep - Murder By Death [justice will be done]
At the end of the road he calls everyone home
and the fire will consume us striking through to the bone
at the end of the road you will soon hear him call
as the congregations crumble and the chapels will fall
and the taste on your tongue well it comes yeah it comes
with the bittersweet pang of remorse and pain
till the judgment is made the prosecution's won
the gavel has fallen and justice is done
Fallen Flowers - Steve McDonald [when it comes to the end]
Ma, if I could live my life again
If I could call the world my friend
If I could write the story's end (I would)
I would give all these things in vain
To feel you hold me once again
Remains of the Day - Corpse Bride OST [because we die]
Die, die we all pass away
But don't wear a frown 'cause it's really okay
And you might try and hide
And you might try and pray
But we all end up the remains of the day
Dust In the Wind - Kansas [all that's left]
I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes a curiosity
Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind
Link to zip here.
The History of Ealdormere: Part I - Heather Dale [intro]
Up let the spark that that ignited the rain
of sententious flint and steel
Deep were the secrets the dwarf smith could name
and the cauldron of gold could reveal
Paint It Black - Rolling Stones [the darkness within]
I look inside myself and see my heart is black.
I see my red door and must have it painted black.
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts,
It's not easy facin' up when your whole world is black.
Rumbrave - Murder By Death [ultimate in pessimism]
If you stared at them too long
You'd catch a glimpse of what I'd done
The faces of the damned
And all the butchered lambs
If I had to do it over
I just would've done it slower
When we meet you will see
I will destroy everything of beauty
Carry On My Wayward Son - Kansas [the oath]
Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
Mordred's Lullaby - Heather Dale [unconditional obedience]
Hush, child
The darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Child, the darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Ash - Murder By Death [burning of the ships]
We set out at dusk
We left them, well, not much
The boys were shoutin' and kickin' up dust
Oh and as we ran
With the fire behind us
And the torch in my hand
I knew I couldn't do it again
The ghosts were howlin' in the late afternoon
We were singin' along to the same old tune
I turned to my brothers to look 'em in the eyes
And there was ash....ash falling from the sky
Not Ready to Make Nice - Dixie Chicks [stubborn pride]
I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
The Last Night - Skillet
You come to me with scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
Didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But I know it's a lie
Our Solemn Hour - Within Temptation [oh fuck, now what?]
In my darkest hours I could not foresee
That the tide could turn so fast to this degree
Can't believe my eyes
How can you be so blind?
Is the heart of stone, no empathy inside?
Time keeps on slipping away and we haven't learned
So in the end now what have we gained?
Angels - Within Temptation [the lay of leithan]
I see the angels, I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now, no mercy no more.
No remorse 'cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart.
War Between Brothers - Heather Dale [kinslaying]
This one's a father, and this one's a son
One man was right and the other was wrong
But both of them died in the maddening throng
Carry them home, boys, to where they belong
War between brothers
Sire fighting son
Only division where once there was one
War between brothers
Son fighting sire
Kin laid with kin in the funeral pyre
Forsaken - Within Temptation [doom of mandos]
Now the day has come,
We are forsaken,
There's no time anymore.
Life will pass us by,
We are forsaken,
We're the last of our kind.
The sacrifice was much too high,
Our greed just made us all go blind.
We tried to hide what we feared inside.
Today is the end of tomorrow.
One of Us - The Lion King II [casting out of Curufin and Celegorm]
Deception (An outrage)
(He can't change his stripes)
Disgrace (For shame)
(You know these outsider types)
Evil as plain as the scar on his face
(See you later agitator)
Soul Society - Kamelot [what do you believe in?]
If my soul could revive from my carnal remains
What does it matter to me
If it all fades to black, if I'm born once again
Then no one really is free
How could I be condemned for the things that I've done
If my intentions were good
I guess I'll never know some things under the sun
Can never be understood
Shadowland - The Lion King [sack of Doriath]
Shadowland
The leaves have fallen
This shadowed land
This was our home
Karma - Kamelot [karmic death]
Who will trade his karma for my kingdom
A sacrificial rite to render truth
The fire in my soul rejects my wisdom
Cause all you do in life comes back to you
I am a king in crisis
Counting minutes
There is an ending to my reign
My sins have come to face me
I can feel it
That I have lived my life in vain
I Need Some Sleep - Eels [worn out and worn down]
I need some sleep
Time to put the old horse down
I'm in too deep
And the wheels keep spinnin' round
Everyone says
I'm getting down too low
Everyone says
You just gotta let it go
Say Uncle - Vienna Teng [sudden death]
It came like a sudden gust of wind
Leaving them, bewildered, to ask how
I recall last time we met you said we'd meet again
The irony is only bitter now
Shiola - Murder By Death [what have we done?]
Shiola, will all be forgiven?
Shiola, am I strong enough to start again alone?
The taste of home is filling up my mouth
is it wrong to love a family of ghosts?
Her door is open, the windows are all up
she says "come inside"
I live alone, more or less
I summon wife, child, and happiness
build them up from the dirt and clay
I have to believe that all will be forgiven
Mission Street - Vienna Teng [bitter truths]
And my hands are cold tonight
I'm sleepless in this dark
Forgetting what it was I came to find
And it seems that I've been wrong
More than I've been right
More than I've been right
Last Comfort - ThouShaltNot [coming to the end]
In disdain of tomorrow
The holiness of now
Which we will soon betray
And with a sickening hope
I dangle from the modicum
Of chance that has run
Two steps ahead always
It mocks as I
Lose track of everyone
I could have turned my back
To make myself more nothing yet
So give me comfort now
It is the last that we will ever get
Where Do the Children Play? - Cat Stevens [Elured/Elurin]
Will you make us laugh, will you make us cry?
Will you tell us when to live, will you tell us when to die?
I know we've come a long way,
Were changing day to day,
But tell me, where do the children play?
What I Wouldn't Give - Holly Brook [at the Mansion (DFverse) and living forever]
it's like I don't know how to live, I’m afraid to
I used to think take them as they come, without hesitations, no
now it's like my head is filled with lies, and persuasions
as the sun begins to fall I hear her calling out to me she's sayin' hurry it's one more day gone
what I wouldn't give just to forget
so I can remember how to live again
I wanna live again
Crashing Down - Heather Dale [maybe father was wrong]
Where are all the things you fought for?
All the dreams you shed your blood for?
Are they shabby now and fraying at the seems?
Was this your boyhood vision
To endure the world's derision
Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional [we do know the truth]
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
Regret - Anathema [endless]
Memories punish me once again.
Sometimes I remember all the pain
that I have seen.
Sometimes I wonder what might
have been...
Visions of love and hate
A collage behind my eyes
Remnants of dying laughter
Echoes of silent cries
And sometimes I despair
At who I've become
I have to come to terms
With what I've done
Sound the Bugle - Bryan Adams [let it be over now]
Sound the bugle now
play it just for me.
As the seasons change
remember how I used to be.
Now I can't go on
I can't even start.
I've got nothing left
just an empty heart.
Shame - Ophelia of the Spirits [anthem to fate]
Shame, you brought this on yourself
You're the one to blame, nobody else
You should have never sunk
Down down down
So low
But that's the way it goes
We Could Have Flown Like Pollen - ThouShaltNot [we could have been]
We could have flown like pollen
Higher than the moon can see
But now we're sitting all alone in the world
Trying to write ourselves into history
We are half-destroyed and paranoid
And fearing what might be
Lost unto a forlorn hope
And made up in mystery
See the way we fell astray
Dead until our dying day
This Is Your Life - Switchfoot [you only have one life]
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Kill All Your Friends - My Chemical Romance [it's a vicious game]
Sometimes you scrape and sink so low
I'm shocked at what you're capable of
And if this a coronation
I ain't feeling the love
Cause we are all a bunch of animals
That never payed attention in school
So tell me all about your problems
I was killing before killing was cool
Throw Me A Rope - KT Tunstall [help me hold on]
So throw me a rope
To hold me in place
Show me a clock
For counting my days down
The Big Sleep - Murder By Death [justice will be done]
At the end of the road he calls everyone home
and the fire will consume us striking through to the bone
at the end of the road you will soon hear him call
as the congregations crumble and the chapels will fall
and the taste on your tongue well it comes yeah it comes
with the bittersweet pang of remorse and pain
till the judgment is made the prosecution's won
the gavel has fallen and justice is done
Fallen Flowers - Steve McDonald [when it comes to the end]
Ma, if I could live my life again
If I could call the world my friend
If I could write the story's end (I would)
I would give all these things in vain
To feel you hold me once again
Remains of the Day - Corpse Bride OST [because we die]
Die, die we all pass away
But don't wear a frown 'cause it's really okay
And you might try and hide
And you might try and pray
But we all end up the remains of the day
Dust In the Wind - Kansas [all that's left]
I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes a curiosity
Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind