don't you want to believe?

[minus_four]

I do.

I want to believe in people, and life, and change, and myself. All of those things are kind of connected tbh lol. I want to believe I'm worth saving, that I'm not unforgivable, that when I tell myself 'It's okay' I'm not lying.

Here's the thing. At the moment, in my life, I am so fucking terrified. I'm scared shitless by this interview and

Comments

[prettyodd_me]

bb, the day you "get over" how you've changed and how things have changed and progress you've made, is the day you won't be grateful for it anymore, and that's when slip-ups are more likely-but I'm sure you know that lol, coz you're fucking smart at that stuff. So you shouldn't worry about saying the same things over and over when the outcome is positive <3

[minus_four]

That's so true actually, bb, thank you for reminding me of it.

<333

[maggiesynders]

you're always allowed to use the happy tag bb, always :)
Have a good day love <3

[minus_four]

good to know :)

<3

[emmyatthedisco]

I don't think it's possible to truly "get over" things, bb.
I think you need to accept things as part of who you are, and move forward with it...

your getting better, and i think that's all anyone can do.

=D
I believe in you.

ily

[minus_four]

yeah, you're right, bb.

this is true.

:DDD
ty bb *hugs*

ilymoar

[sexifulness]

yeah, when i saw the tags im like "you can use emo tag and happy in the same post? if anyone can its soph" :D

okay, when i first saw the title i started sing 'believe' by cher and i dont even know why. i am ridiculous.

i am right here with you on that fucked up road yet i was only in 5th and 6th grade when things really started getting bad. and i know you are probably saying "how is she so emo at such a young age?" because i ask myself the same question.
i dont know. i think the hardest part (for me at least) was getting past the selfishness/guilt i felt and to realize that i was loved even if it wasnt from my dad.

did that even help at all?
yeah, idk, just know that we really are all here for you :)

ily bb

[minus_four]

ahahaha i win :D

just a little ;)

that is pretty young age to start, but shit happens. or sometimes it doesn't, and that's harder b/c then you need to figure out the reason that isn't obvious. dude, yeah, I have the same thing, so I can empathise. If you ever wanna talk, message me, okay?

yeah :) and thank you

ilytoo <3

[sexifulness]

same here bb, im always up to talk.

[minus_four]

You are too, bb. More than me, I think.
And I am, yeah, that was part of the point of this post :)
Me too, with a little help.
*hugs back* <3