Something that is greater than love. [KyuMin]
Title: The greatest thing.
Pairing: broken!KyuMin, later KyuMin~!!
Disclaimer: Don´t own the boys~ But I´m sure Kyu owns Minnie and they´re living happy together~ So in other words, I only own the story, it´s the only thing that is fiction! REMEMBER! KYUMIN IS NON-FICTION. Better said, KyuMin = real LOVE!
Summary: Sungmin got a message of Kyuhyun, that made him realize things and let him know something greater than love.
They said that love is the greatest thing of all. But it was all just a lie. Your love? It was also just a lie. A stupid lie that made me realize... That there is one thing much greater than love. I didn´t know it before, if i knew, i would never love from the start.
But i know now, i know now that love is something so wonderful and great, but that there is something much greater than that yet something worse, the last goodbye. I knew that goodbye
would always come, I knew love wasn´t for eternity, just like everyone said.
But the thing that I didn´t know was that it hurt that much. Those feelings they can´t stop ones you feel them. I thought it would only hurt as much as i loved you, but no... It hurts a thousand times more.
It feels like you can´t breath anymore, like you´re being shot by a bullet but still have to live on, like you have no spirit. Even though you try to retain them, those pains, and block your heart, they´re falling through the space between your fingers. Even if your heart stopped, you don´t think it would hurt like this. Through all those feelings, only laugh come out. So you just laugh. While you just laugh blankly, you can only think of one thing. Why did you break up? How? When? I dont know... I don´t know. I just... I just don´t know. I just know that love... love is nothing compared to that pain.
I felt thears flow as I looked at our picture together, which I was planning to throw away... But I can´t do it. I don´t want to say goodbye yet. I know love is not for eternity, but let it at least last for a bit longer. Let me feel that great feelings a little bit more, before the greater one will take it´s place. Just... Just a bit longer... Please... Please... Those times... Please, please just a bit more. Please do something, please heal me, ´cuz like this my heart will be completly destroyed.
Before I´m gonna leave you, I´ll think about our memories for the time. Just for ones. Just ones more I want to feel like that. I´ll only think about the good memories, so that I can leave you with a smile. So that at least only those painful feelings will be left. Since having both of them is just to much for me. I know that those feelings can never fade away, so I decided to leave our memories. Forever...
Just for now, this moment, I´ll let our memories flow in my pierced, broken heart, before letting them go away. I´ll let tears go out, even though I hate it. I hate this. I really hate this.
We broke up but I still followed you until now, for a couple of days. Watching you as you got up and blindly ran after you. But you walked so fast. And behind you, far behind, I screamed, I called out for you. But you never responded. It´s like you already forgot me. Kyuhyun... Kyu... Did you aleady forgot me?
I fell on the ground, as i no longer felt any energy in my body. It got all numb. I just layed there on the ground, not moving an inch, I looked at something, yet nothing. Ah, tears covered it all, that´s why-...
I guess you have already forgot me. Then- how do I forget you? I really don´t know how. I really don´t. You´re really diffrent from me. Unlike you, My heart is broken open and it can´t be filled anymore. It really hurts to death. My heart hurts so much. It hurts like this.
It´s strange... That I can still live...
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I realized that much time has passed, but i didn´t really care. I think I have been lying there for hours now. Or maybe just a few minutes, I don´t know. I hope it ends here. Right now. Ah... I don´t feel any tears anymore. I feel totally empty from the inside.
*knock, knock*
… I don´t wanna open it …
*knock, knock*
...
*stomb, stomb*
¨SUNGMIN!!¨
*sound of keys*
Eunhyuk? Ryeowook? Donghae? They´re the only one that have a key...
I didn´t want to stand up, so I still didn´t move an inch. I just stayed there.
¨SUNGMIN!! SUNGMIN!! WHAT HAPPENED!¨ Kyu-Kyuhyun´s voice? ¨PLEASE TELL ME! WHAT´S WRONG?!¨
It must me an illusion... Or am I still dreaming.
I suddenly felt some hands grabbing my arms and pulling me up in his arms. I felt a warm, similar warmth. I felt... I felt Kyuhyun... I finally began to move my head to see the person who hold me. It was him. It was Kyuhyun... It really was...
I began to cry in his arms and realized that i wasn´t empty yet. But I felt pain again. Pain.
¨WHY! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE! I HATE YOU! GET AWAY FROM ME!! DON´T EVER DARE TO TOUCH ME AGAIN! LEAVE!¨ I began to stomb him more and more while crying and screaming out loud. But fast enough, all my energy was gone again and I placed my head on his chest, still stombing lightly. ¨Why--- Why are you doing this to me--¨ I whispered while sobbing.
He didn´t responded. He just hugged me tightly, I wouldn´t know that he was crying, if i didn´t feel his tears falling on my forehead. So I looked at his face. I looked up and saw a sad and hurt face.
¨I-I-I´m sorry... I really am... Please don´t say that anymore... Please... I beg you... I don´t know what caused you being like this, but I´m extremely sorry... I really am... I love you... So- So- don´t say that already. ¨ he said while crying and holding me thigher and tighter.
¨Kyu...¨ What... Didn´t he said he didn´t love me? Didn´t he told me it was over? Then... Why? ¨Kyu--- You... You love me?¨
¨What are you talking about Minnie... Of course I love you!¨
¨But you told me you didn´t?!¨ I sobbed and pouted at him.
¨How could I say that... I love you, Min... I love you... I-I love you...¨ he let a couple of tears out and blushed after saying 'I love you' that many times. ¨If it is because I didn´t say it to often... I´ll say it a thousand times a day from now on! So don´t hate me... Please...¨
¨Idiot~!¨ I began to giggle trough my tears. ¨I don´t hate you! I love you~! I really love you the most~¨ I laughed at him and placed a long, soft, innocent kiss on his lips. After a couple of minutes they seperated their lips for a moment and laughed at each other innocently.
Now I know... I take it back... Love is greater than pain, in any way. It´s the most beautiful feeling~ You just need some time too realize it.
Now... It isn´t strange at all... That i can still live. It´s because I still have enough to live for. Thank you~ Thank you for hearing me.
A/N: Sorry, for recently only writing angst, but I feel really sad and lonely, so I wanted to let my feelings out in this fic. When I feel better, I´ll try writing fluff again, though I´m horrible in it xD
Pairing: broken!KyuMin, later KyuMin~!!
Disclaimer: Don´t own the boys~ But I´m sure Kyu owns Minnie and they´re living happy together~ So in other words, I only own the story, it´s the only thing that is fiction! REMEMBER! KYUMIN IS NON-FICTION. Better said, KyuMin = real LOVE!
Summary: Sungmin got a message of Kyuhyun, that made him realize things and let him know something greater than love.
They said that love is the greatest thing of all. But it was all just a lie. Your love? It was also just a lie. A stupid lie that made me realize... That there is one thing much greater than love. I didn´t know it before, if i knew, i would never love from the start.
But i know now, i know now that love is something so wonderful and great, but that there is something much greater than that yet something worse, the last goodbye. I knew that goodbye
would always come, I knew love wasn´t for eternity, just like everyone said.
But the thing that I didn´t know was that it hurt that much. Those feelings they can´t stop ones you feel them. I thought it would only hurt as much as i loved you, but no... It hurts a thousand times more.
It feels like you can´t breath anymore, like you´re being shot by a bullet but still have to live on, like you have no spirit. Even though you try to retain them, those pains, and block your heart, they´re falling through the space between your fingers. Even if your heart stopped, you don´t think it would hurt like this. Through all those feelings, only laugh come out. So you just laugh. While you just laugh blankly, you can only think of one thing. Why did you break up? How? When? I dont know... I don´t know. I just... I just don´t know. I just know that love... love is nothing compared to that pain.
I felt thears flow as I looked at our picture together, which I was planning to throw away... But I can´t do it. I don´t want to say goodbye yet. I know love is not for eternity, but let it at least last for a bit longer. Let me feel that great feelings a little bit more, before the greater one will take it´s place. Just... Just a bit longer... Please... Please... Those times... Please, please just a bit more. Please do something, please heal me, ´cuz like this my heart will be completly destroyed.
Before I´m gonna leave you, I´ll think about our memories for the time. Just for ones. Just ones more I want to feel like that. I´ll only think about the good memories, so that I can leave you with a smile. So that at least only those painful feelings will be left. Since having both of them is just to much for me. I know that those feelings can never fade away, so I decided to leave our memories. Forever...
Just for now, this moment, I´ll let our memories flow in my pierced, broken heart, before letting them go away. I´ll let tears go out, even though I hate it. I hate this. I really hate this.
We broke up but I still followed you until now, for a couple of days. Watching you as you got up and blindly ran after you. But you walked so fast. And behind you, far behind, I screamed, I called out for you. But you never responded. It´s like you already forgot me. Kyuhyun... Kyu... Did you aleady forgot me?
I fell on the ground, as i no longer felt any energy in my body. It got all numb. I just layed there on the ground, not moving an inch, I looked at something, yet nothing. Ah, tears covered it all, that´s why-...
I guess you have already forgot me. Then- how do I forget you? I really don´t know how. I really don´t. You´re really diffrent from me. Unlike you, My heart is broken open and it can´t be filled anymore. It really hurts to death. My heart hurts so much. It hurts like this.
It´s strange... That I can still live...
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I realized that much time has passed, but i didn´t really care. I think I have been lying there for hours now. Or maybe just a few minutes, I don´t know. I hope it ends here. Right now. Ah... I don´t feel any tears anymore. I feel totally empty from the inside.
*knock, knock*
… I don´t wanna open it …
*knock, knock*
...
*stomb, stomb*
¨SUNGMIN!!¨
*sound of keys*
Eunhyuk? Ryeowook? Donghae? They´re the only one that have a key...
I didn´t want to stand up, so I still didn´t move an inch. I just stayed there.
¨SUNGMIN!! SUNGMIN!! WHAT HAPPENED!¨ Kyu-Kyuhyun´s voice? ¨PLEASE TELL ME! WHAT´S WRONG?!¨
It must me an illusion... Or am I still dreaming.
I suddenly felt some hands grabbing my arms and pulling me up in his arms. I felt a warm, similar warmth. I felt... I felt Kyuhyun... I finally began to move my head to see the person who hold me. It was him. It was Kyuhyun... It really was...
I began to cry in his arms and realized that i wasn´t empty yet. But I felt pain again. Pain.
¨WHY! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE! I HATE YOU! GET AWAY FROM ME!! DON´T EVER DARE TO TOUCH ME AGAIN! LEAVE!¨ I began to stomb him more and more while crying and screaming out loud. But fast enough, all my energy was gone again and I placed my head on his chest, still stombing lightly. ¨Why--- Why are you doing this to me--¨ I whispered while sobbing.
He didn´t responded. He just hugged me tightly, I wouldn´t know that he was crying, if i didn´t feel his tears falling on my forehead. So I looked at his face. I looked up and saw a sad and hurt face.
¨I-I-I´m sorry... I really am... Please don´t say that anymore... Please... I beg you... I don´t know what caused you being like this, but I´m extremely sorry... I really am... I love you... So- So- don´t say that already. ¨ he said while crying and holding me thigher and tighter.
¨Kyu...¨ What... Didn´t he said he didn´t love me? Didn´t he told me it was over? Then... Why? ¨Kyu--- You... You love me?¨
¨What are you talking about Minnie... Of course I love you!¨
¨But you told me you didn´t?!¨ I sobbed and pouted at him.
¨How could I say that... I love you, Min... I love you... I-I love you...¨ he let a couple of tears out and blushed after saying 'I love you' that many times. ¨If it is because I didn´t say it to often... I´ll say it a thousand times a day from now on! So don´t hate me... Please...¨
¨Idiot~!¨ I began to giggle trough my tears. ¨I don´t hate you! I love you~! I really love you the most~¨ I laughed at him and placed a long, soft, innocent kiss on his lips. After a couple of minutes they seperated their lips for a moment and laughed at each other innocently.
Now I know... I take it back... Love is greater than pain, in any way. It´s the most beautiful feeling~ You just need some time too realize it.
Now... It isn´t strange at all... That i can still live. It´s because I still have enough to live for. Thank you~ Thank you for hearing me.
A/N: Sorry, for recently only writing angst, but I feel really sad and lonely, so I wanted to let my feelings out in this fic. When I feel better, I´ll try writing fluff again, though I´m horrible in it xD