Don't say that. [KyuMin!SequelofDrabble]
Title: Don't say that.
Sequel of: One reason.
Pairing: broken!KyuMin » KyuMin
Genre: pure angst, a bit romance at end.
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They own me, Vivi, Ang and each other~
Summary: And sometimes, you will never be able to break up, just because you love each other to much.
"That didn't mean anything. I love you and only you." Sungmin knew that he lied. It was just one if his other lies. The other kissed him in his neck and kept repeating the words "I'm sorry." It was the same as always. Expect of one thing. Even if this happened a million of times, this was the first time Sungmin felt something wet in his neck. Kyuhyun was crying for the first time ever. He never cried for sungmin. Never. And that's why, once again, Sungmin forgave him.
Sungmin smiled weakly. "I know, Kyu. I know." He started sobbing again. He once again forgave the latter. He once again accepted his apoligy. He shoved Kyuhyun's arms off his waist and walked to his bed. "I'm tired. I'm going to sleep." He looked at his still tidied bed and then to the Kyuhyun's messed up one. It's obvious that they had a rough sex just now, seen from the bed and even that little detail, made a huge pain in Sungmin's heart. He just layed down in his bed, his back facing Kyuhyun, while Kyuhyun could only bite his lip and watch the older one. He knew he screwed it up really bad this time. He should have been more careful, was what he thought at first, but now, the only thing that wandered his mind was, I should have never done it. I should have never started this. One night drunk in China, changed everthing.
Even if Sungmin said he knew he was sorry, he obvious didn't believe in it. Kyuhyun knew that very well. He knew he was bad for always cheating on his love, Sungmin. But he just couldn't help it. He couldn't help it but do it over and over again after that one night in China. He always asked Sungmin for forgiveness, because he actually cared so much for Sungmin. He loved the man and even he himself didn't know why he kept doing this to Sungmin. It wasn't the first time he got caught by the latter. It hapened a lot of times, when he was hugging others, kissing with them and go on dates with them, but Sungmin never caught him on having sex with others. Now that he did, Kyuhyun was really worried about their relationship. Sungmin didn't react like the other times. And that could just mean one thing.
Kyuhyun shook his head. He didn't want to think that. He wiped his tears away and walked to the little man's bed. He lifted the blanket up and layed down next to Sungmin. He put his arms around his waist. He felt a bit hurt when the man was shaking after he put his arms there. Sungmin shocked from the sudden arms around his waist. He knew it were Kyuhyun's. He somehow didn't want him to touch him now. Those hands just... just touched another man. And not just a touch. He was scared for it, because those arms and hands had touched someone that the latter truly loved. Not like they were touching now, a man who didn't mean that much at all.
"Sungmin... I mean it. I'm so sorry. I love you." Kyuhyun whispered in the older one's ear. Sungmin listened to the whispers and sighed. He looked lifeless forward. This time, he just couldn't believe those words. He realized now, that all that love was just an illusion. He felt stupid for really believing that the latter loved him. That he always saw love in his eyes. It was stupid. He wondered for who the 'I love you's ' were actually meant for. Was it Ryeowook? The one that he always kissed with, had romantic dates with and whispered sweet words together? Was it Heechul, with who he always played dirty games and ended up kissing each other like crazy animals? Was it Hangeng, the one who looked like he would never do something like that, but always flirted with Kyuhyun and maybe did more with? Or was it him. Zhoumi. The one he was always close with, who he did everything with what he did with the other persons? He did everything and more. They made love together. They loved together. They.
Sungmin started crying out loud again and Kyuhyun didn't know what to do. He was frustrated since he just didn't know what to do, to make the latter feel better. "Who?" Sungmin said between his crying. "Who was it Kyuhyun?" he asked without turning to Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun looked confused and didn't know what to answer. He tried to comfort the man, but nothing helped, he only cried more. "Who stole you heart away from me, Kyu?" Kyuhyun was shocked by his words. He wanted to say no one, but nothing came from his mouth. He could only let the tears come out of his eyes. He knew it. Sungmin thought he didn't love him anymore. He didn't want this.
"I-I love you, Sungmin. I swear, only you." He managed to say. Silence filled the room, since Sungmin stopped crying after those words. Kyuhyun was happy that he stopped crying and thought that maybe Sungmin believed it. He wanted that so badly. But he was wrong. After all this cheating, all those lies, all those moments were Kyuhyun did as if it was nothing, became to much for Sungmin and he couldn't believe his words anymore. He wanted to feel the others love, but he couldn't. Because to him, It was wasn't there at all. It was in someone else heart now and that fact was unbearable to him.
"Liar..." That word broke both their hearts. Sungmin fell asleep right after he muttered those words. Kyuhyun cried the whole night, silently beside him. Praying to God, to please turn back time. He prayed to God, to let him have his love and give him another chance just once. He wanted to press the reset and turn back all the pain he caused his lovem Sungmin.
*Next day*
"I'm done with it, Kyuhyun. Let's break up." Kyuhyun looked with terror to the man who was standing before him. He knew that those words would come after his boyfriend asked him to talk, but hearing them now hurt him anyway. Tears formed in his eyes, but he didn't want them to fall, so he held them back. And so did Sungmin. He held himself back, even if he's the one breaking up. He regrets it, but he had to. He doesn't want to live like this anymore. No matter how much he wanted the maknae, it wasn't worth it if he didn't want him back.
"Don't. Please, I beg you. I don't want to." Kyuhyun said truelly. He wanted to let him believe this time, that he was not lying. Sungmin never expected this answer to come. He thought the maknae would be okay with it and would go to his other lovers. He didn''t expect him, to beg him to not break up. But Sungmin learned from the past months, he couldn't believe the latters words now. He didn't want to anymore. His lies hurt him enough already, and this lie, the lie he was telling right now, was the worst lie of all. It was a lie that would make him believe in him again and in the end he would be hurt all over again.
"STOP IT!" Sungmin yelled. "You don't want me! Don't do this anymore! You don't love me Kyuhyun. YOU DON'T! YOU LOVE HIM, NOT ME! STOP TELLING THIS LIE! P-please..." Sungmin couldn't hold it this time. He wasn't the silent, sweet boy now. He wanted Kyuhyun to know his feelings already. Because he loved him so much. He loved this cheating bastard so DAMN much, yet he regretted saying this all now. He couldn't turn back now. He wanted him so badly. He didn't want to lose him. Even if he yelled all that to him, he still hoped he would not let go of him. Would he? Would Kyuhyun really not let go of him?
"Sungmin. Please believe me. I love you! I love you so much! I don't know why. I just don't. I only know that I don't want to lose you, Min-ah. I-I love you." A tear escaped Kyuhyun's eyes once again. Who could have known someone who almost never cried, could cry this much withing 24 hours. Sungmin didn't dare to look at Kyuhyun's face. He was afraid Kyuhyun would see the regret and want in his eyes. Sungmin was about to talk when Kyuhyun's phone rang.
Kyuhyun took the phone from his pocket. He got a message. He opened his phone to look from who it was. Sungmin frowned. He couldn't believe Kyuhyun was paying attention to his phone at this moment. Was he that eager to have him back? He knew it. Not at all. Another lie. Kyuhyun looked back at Sungmin. Sungmin clenched his teeth, only realizing something now. At a moment like this, Kyuhyun would only pick his phone if it was one of them. Sungmin became pissed at that thought and looked in Kyuhyun's eyes intentionally.
"Who was it from?" Kyuhyun looked a bit shocked at Sungmin. He didn't want to answer it. Sungmin couldn't know about the message. Like that he could never get Sungmin's heart back. "WHO WAS IT KYUHYUN?!" Sungmin looked with teary eyes to Kyuhyun and sighed then. He smiled a bitter smile. "It's one of them, right?" He said and took Kyuhyun's phone out of his hand. Kyuhyun tried to get it back, like this everything would be over.
"Please, hyu-" Sungmin ignored him and read the message. It was from his so called 'friend', Ryeowook. 'Kyunnie~ Let's go on a date today, okay? I miss you <3 Saranghaeyo, Your Wookie.' Sungmin looked hurt at Kyuhyun before giving back his phone and walk away. "Hyung! No, I beg you, don't go! It's nothing! I won't go, hyung. I promise, I won't do anything anymore. I swear, Minnie. Please" Sungmin didn't want to see it, but he still turned around. There he saw Kyuhyun, on his knees, crying and mutter words. Sungmin couldn't take it anymore. Why would Kyuhyun go so far?! He didn't love him! He only cheated on him the whole time. He only wanted to be with others instead of him, even now. Why?! Why is he doing this?!
"WHY?! Stop it, please, Kyuhyun. I don't want you anymore. It's over. I-" Sungmin didn't want to say the next words, but after breathing in deeply, he said it. "I-I don't l-love you anymore... I-I don't. So go to those oh-so-precious lovers of yours. Goodbye, Kyuhyun." The two broke even more down from inside because of those words. People would wonder if there was still something left of their hearts. So much pain, so much hurt. Kyuhyun heard his hyung's words, but he saw in the latter's eyes that he didn't want this. So he didn't give up. He promised himself to take Sungmin back and give him what he always deserved. No, even more. He wanted him back so badly, that he didn't care what he had to give for it.
"Please. Sungmin. Don't say that! I know you don't mean it. I can see it, Sungmin. You don't want to leave me. You don't want me to let you leave. I can see it through your eyes. You can't lie to me." Kyuhyun stood up and grabbed Sungmin's arms before he could leave. Sungmin tried to get free, but he soon stopped that. He knew the latter was speaking the truth and he knew that he wanted to hear this. He could see that Kyuhyun really cared for him and loved him this time and it was not an illusion. He was sure of it. "It's t-true Kyuhyun. I want to bre-" Sungmin tried to avoid his eyes.
"No, you don't... I won't believe it. It's a lie, you don't want to seperate from me/ Look into my eyes and tell me with your whole heart, tell me you want to leave me." Kyuhyun put his hand under Sungmin's chin and lifted it up, so that he would meet his eyes. Sungmin still tried to avoid it, but Kyuhyun wouldn't let him. "T-Tel me Sungmin. If you tell me now..." Kyuhyun sighed. He may regret this, if Sungmin really does it. "I'll leave you alone." Sungmin was speechless. Did he want this? Did he really want this? He could still stop it, if he won't say anything, he wouldn't ahve to leave Kyuhyun now. "I-" was all that came out of his mouth. He pouted to Kyuhyun. It was unfair to him.
"Please my love, don't leave me now. You are the only one for me. I never lied about that, because it was the truth. I-... I didn't mean to cheat on you, but that one time when I was drunk. I couldn't stop myself anymore. I regretted it everytime, because i love you so much. But I couldn't stop. I didn't want to lose you, but I couldn't handle myself." Kyuhyun whipered, while he leaned his forehead to Sungmin's. Sungmin looked with his eyes wide open to the man in front of him. He looked so beautiful at this moment. The man was leaning to his forehead, telling him finally why this all happened with his eyes beautifully closed, tears still strolling down his face. Sungmin cupped his cheeks with his hands and let Kyuhyun look into his eyes before giving him and passionate kiss. He circled his arms around his neck and Kyuhyun automatically closed his eyes and held Sungmin's waist. He pushed him closer to his body, till there was no space between it anymore. None of the two would ever thought this moment would ever come again, but they didn't mind it either. They loved being so close with each other even if they were just now, on the edge of breaking up.
"Kyuhyun... I will only forgive you on one condition." Sungmin said before returning to kiss him again. Kyuhyun parted from him after they kissed a bit and whispered, "What my love? Everything for you." with his eyes still closed because he immediately returned to kiss his cute, small love again. "Make me yours and only yours tonight." Sungmin answered and hugged Kyuhyun tightly this time.
"I will, Minnie~ After tonight, I promise, I will be only yours as well. I won't ever look to anyone else. I love you."
"I love you more~" Sungmin said cutely, before they continued their kissing scene again.
-end-
mommy is getting pissed. no spots, maybe tomorrow morning xD
Sequel of: One reason.
Pairing: broken!KyuMin » KyuMin
Genre: pure angst, a bit romance at end.
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They own me, Vivi, Ang and each other~
Summary: And sometimes, you will never be able to break up, just because you love each other to much.
"That didn't mean anything. I love you and only you." Sungmin knew that he lied. It was just one if his other lies. The other kissed him in his neck and kept repeating the words "I'm sorry." It was the same as always. Expect of one thing. Even if this happened a million of times, this was the first time Sungmin felt something wet in his neck. Kyuhyun was crying for the first time ever. He never cried for sungmin. Never. And that's why, once again, Sungmin forgave him.
Sungmin smiled weakly. "I know, Kyu. I know." He started sobbing again. He once again forgave the latter. He once again accepted his apoligy. He shoved Kyuhyun's arms off his waist and walked to his bed. "I'm tired. I'm going to sleep." He looked at his still tidied bed and then to the Kyuhyun's messed up one. It's obvious that they had a rough sex just now, seen from the bed and even that little detail, made a huge pain in Sungmin's heart. He just layed down in his bed, his back facing Kyuhyun, while Kyuhyun could only bite his lip and watch the older one. He knew he screwed it up really bad this time. He should have been more careful, was what he thought at first, but now, the only thing that wandered his mind was, I should have never done it. I should have never started this. One night drunk in China, changed everthing.
Even if Sungmin said he knew he was sorry, he obvious didn't believe in it. Kyuhyun knew that very well. He knew he was bad for always cheating on his love, Sungmin. But he just couldn't help it. He couldn't help it but do it over and over again after that one night in China. He always asked Sungmin for forgiveness, because he actually cared so much for Sungmin. He loved the man and even he himself didn't know why he kept doing this to Sungmin. It wasn't the first time he got caught by the latter. It hapened a lot of times, when he was hugging others, kissing with them and go on dates with them, but Sungmin never caught him on having sex with others. Now that he did, Kyuhyun was really worried about their relationship. Sungmin didn't react like the other times. And that could just mean one thing.
Kyuhyun shook his head. He didn't want to think that. He wiped his tears away and walked to the little man's bed. He lifted the blanket up and layed down next to Sungmin. He put his arms around his waist. He felt a bit hurt when the man was shaking after he put his arms there. Sungmin shocked from the sudden arms around his waist. He knew it were Kyuhyun's. He somehow didn't want him to touch him now. Those hands just... just touched another man. And not just a touch. He was scared for it, because those arms and hands had touched someone that the latter truly loved. Not like they were touching now, a man who didn't mean that much at all.
"Sungmin... I mean it. I'm so sorry. I love you." Kyuhyun whispered in the older one's ear. Sungmin listened to the whispers and sighed. He looked lifeless forward. This time, he just couldn't believe those words. He realized now, that all that love was just an illusion. He felt stupid for really believing that the latter loved him. That he always saw love in his eyes. It was stupid. He wondered for who the 'I love you's ' were actually meant for. Was it Ryeowook? The one that he always kissed with, had romantic dates with and whispered sweet words together? Was it Heechul, with who he always played dirty games and ended up kissing each other like crazy animals? Was it Hangeng, the one who looked like he would never do something like that, but always flirted with Kyuhyun and maybe did more with? Or was it him. Zhoumi. The one he was always close with, who he did everything with what he did with the other persons? He did everything and more. They made love together. They loved together. They.
Sungmin started crying out loud again and Kyuhyun didn't know what to do. He was frustrated since he just didn't know what to do, to make the latter feel better. "Who?" Sungmin said between his crying. "Who was it Kyuhyun?" he asked without turning to Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun looked confused and didn't know what to answer. He tried to comfort the man, but nothing helped, he only cried more. "Who stole you heart away from me, Kyu?" Kyuhyun was shocked by his words. He wanted to say no one, but nothing came from his mouth. He could only let the tears come out of his eyes. He knew it. Sungmin thought he didn't love him anymore. He didn't want this.
"I-I love you, Sungmin. I swear, only you." He managed to say. Silence filled the room, since Sungmin stopped crying after those words. Kyuhyun was happy that he stopped crying and thought that maybe Sungmin believed it. He wanted that so badly. But he was wrong. After all this cheating, all those lies, all those moments were Kyuhyun did as if it was nothing, became to much for Sungmin and he couldn't believe his words anymore. He wanted to feel the others love, but he couldn't. Because to him, It was wasn't there at all. It was in someone else heart now and that fact was unbearable to him.
"Liar..." That word broke both their hearts. Sungmin fell asleep right after he muttered those words. Kyuhyun cried the whole night, silently beside him. Praying to God, to please turn back time. He prayed to God, to let him have his love and give him another chance just once. He wanted to press the reset and turn back all the pain he caused his lovem Sungmin.
*Next day*
"I'm done with it, Kyuhyun. Let's break up." Kyuhyun looked with terror to the man who was standing before him. He knew that those words would come after his boyfriend asked him to talk, but hearing them now hurt him anyway. Tears formed in his eyes, but he didn't want them to fall, so he held them back. And so did Sungmin. He held himself back, even if he's the one breaking up. He regrets it, but he had to. He doesn't want to live like this anymore. No matter how much he wanted the maknae, it wasn't worth it if he didn't want him back.
"Don't. Please, I beg you. I don't want to." Kyuhyun said truelly. He wanted to let him believe this time, that he was not lying. Sungmin never expected this answer to come. He thought the maknae would be okay with it and would go to his other lovers. He didn''t expect him, to beg him to not break up. But Sungmin learned from the past months, he couldn't believe the latters words now. He didn't want to anymore. His lies hurt him enough already, and this lie, the lie he was telling right now, was the worst lie of all. It was a lie that would make him believe in him again and in the end he would be hurt all over again.
"STOP IT!" Sungmin yelled. "You don't want me! Don't do this anymore! You don't love me Kyuhyun. YOU DON'T! YOU LOVE HIM, NOT ME! STOP TELLING THIS LIE! P-please..." Sungmin couldn't hold it this time. He wasn't the silent, sweet boy now. He wanted Kyuhyun to know his feelings already. Because he loved him so much. He loved this cheating bastard so DAMN much, yet he regretted saying this all now. He couldn't turn back now. He wanted him so badly. He didn't want to lose him. Even if he yelled all that to him, he still hoped he would not let go of him. Would he? Would Kyuhyun really not let go of him?
"Sungmin. Please believe me. I love you! I love you so much! I don't know why. I just don't. I only know that I don't want to lose you, Min-ah. I-I love you." A tear escaped Kyuhyun's eyes once again. Who could have known someone who almost never cried, could cry this much withing 24 hours. Sungmin didn't dare to look at Kyuhyun's face. He was afraid Kyuhyun would see the regret and want in his eyes. Sungmin was about to talk when Kyuhyun's phone rang.
Kyuhyun took the phone from his pocket. He got a message. He opened his phone to look from who it was. Sungmin frowned. He couldn't believe Kyuhyun was paying attention to his phone at this moment. Was he that eager to have him back? He knew it. Not at all. Another lie. Kyuhyun looked back at Sungmin. Sungmin clenched his teeth, only realizing something now. At a moment like this, Kyuhyun would only pick his phone if it was one of them. Sungmin became pissed at that thought and looked in Kyuhyun's eyes intentionally.
"Who was it from?" Kyuhyun looked a bit shocked at Sungmin. He didn't want to answer it. Sungmin couldn't know about the message. Like that he could never get Sungmin's heart back. "WHO WAS IT KYUHYUN?!" Sungmin looked with teary eyes to Kyuhyun and sighed then. He smiled a bitter smile. "It's one of them, right?" He said and took Kyuhyun's phone out of his hand. Kyuhyun tried to get it back, like this everything would be over.
"Please, hyu-" Sungmin ignored him and read the message. It was from his so called 'friend', Ryeowook. 'Kyunnie~ Let's go on a date today, okay? I miss you <3 Saranghaeyo, Your Wookie.' Sungmin looked hurt at Kyuhyun before giving back his phone and walk away. "Hyung! No, I beg you, don't go! It's nothing! I won't go, hyung. I promise, I won't do anything anymore. I swear, Minnie. Please" Sungmin didn't want to see it, but he still turned around. There he saw Kyuhyun, on his knees, crying and mutter words. Sungmin couldn't take it anymore. Why would Kyuhyun go so far?! He didn't love him! He only cheated on him the whole time. He only wanted to be with others instead of him, even now. Why?! Why is he doing this?!
"WHY?! Stop it, please, Kyuhyun. I don't want you anymore. It's over. I-" Sungmin didn't want to say the next words, but after breathing in deeply, he said it. "I-I don't l-love you anymore... I-I don't. So go to those oh-so-precious lovers of yours. Goodbye, Kyuhyun." The two broke even more down from inside because of those words. People would wonder if there was still something left of their hearts. So much pain, so much hurt. Kyuhyun heard his hyung's words, but he saw in the latter's eyes that he didn't want this. So he didn't give up. He promised himself to take Sungmin back and give him what he always deserved. No, even more. He wanted him back so badly, that he didn't care what he had to give for it.
"Please. Sungmin. Don't say that! I know you don't mean it. I can see it, Sungmin. You don't want to leave me. You don't want me to let you leave. I can see it through your eyes. You can't lie to me." Kyuhyun stood up and grabbed Sungmin's arms before he could leave. Sungmin tried to get free, but he soon stopped that. He knew the latter was speaking the truth and he knew that he wanted to hear this. He could see that Kyuhyun really cared for him and loved him this time and it was not an illusion. He was sure of it. "It's t-true Kyuhyun. I want to bre-" Sungmin tried to avoid his eyes.
"No, you don't... I won't believe it. It's a lie, you don't want to seperate from me/ Look into my eyes and tell me with your whole heart, tell me you want to leave me." Kyuhyun put his hand under Sungmin's chin and lifted it up, so that he would meet his eyes. Sungmin still tried to avoid it, but Kyuhyun wouldn't let him. "T-Tel me Sungmin. If you tell me now..." Kyuhyun sighed. He may regret this, if Sungmin really does it. "I'll leave you alone." Sungmin was speechless. Did he want this? Did he really want this? He could still stop it, if he won't say anything, he wouldn't ahve to leave Kyuhyun now. "I-" was all that came out of his mouth. He pouted to Kyuhyun. It was unfair to him.
"Please my love, don't leave me now. You are the only one for me. I never lied about that, because it was the truth. I-... I didn't mean to cheat on you, but that one time when I was drunk. I couldn't stop myself anymore. I regretted it everytime, because i love you so much. But I couldn't stop. I didn't want to lose you, but I couldn't handle myself." Kyuhyun whipered, while he leaned his forehead to Sungmin's. Sungmin looked with his eyes wide open to the man in front of him. He looked so beautiful at this moment. The man was leaning to his forehead, telling him finally why this all happened with his eyes beautifully closed, tears still strolling down his face. Sungmin cupped his cheeks with his hands and let Kyuhyun look into his eyes before giving him and passionate kiss. He circled his arms around his neck and Kyuhyun automatically closed his eyes and held Sungmin's waist. He pushed him closer to his body, till there was no space between it anymore. None of the two would ever thought this moment would ever come again, but they didn't mind it either. They loved being so close with each other even if they were just now, on the edge of breaking up.
"Kyuhyun... I will only forgive you on one condition." Sungmin said before returning to kiss him again. Kyuhyun parted from him after they kissed a bit and whispered, "What my love? Everything for you." with his eyes still closed because he immediately returned to kiss his cute, small love again. "Make me yours and only yours tonight." Sungmin answered and hugged Kyuhyun tightly this time.
"I will, Minnie~ After tonight, I promise, I will be only yours as well. I won't ever look to anyone else. I love you."
"I love you more~" Sungmin said cutely, before they continued their kissing scene again.
-end-
mommy is getting pissed. no spots, maybe tomorrow morning xD