KyuMin!Drabble...
Title: You're not mine.
Pairing: broken!KyuMin, SiMin.
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst.
Summary: How come you captivate my heart so easily, yet I can't find a way to grab your attention...
Warning!: Most failed fic ever *sigh*
How come you captivate my heart so easily? Yet I can't find a way to grab you attention. I've been noticing you and liking you since the first time I joined Super Junior. After a half year I realized that I was in love with you. I really fell hard for you, but you didn't notice me at all. You never looked at me the way you looked at other members. You never saw me the way I see you. Then how do you see me? You never treat me like the others, you treat me differently. And not in a good way. I wish that it was like that. You treat me sometimes like I don't exist. You don't see me at all.
When I had the accident and everyone cared for me, felt sorry for me, stayed by my side, you were the only one who ignored it and said I would be okay, so that no one needed to worry like that. You did as if it was nothing. I was hurt by it. I cried alot. Not because of the pain of the accident. Not because of all the injuries. It was because of you. Because my heart was hurt so damn much. You didn't care about me at all. I thought. You did as if you only came to the hospital for the other members. But hyung... Did you know that Leeteuk told me he heard you crying on my bed, calling out my name between your sobs, praying that I would be okay and not hurt again. Why did you do as if you didn't care, while you obvisiously did?
After I was released from the hospital it started again. You acted cold again whenever I was near you. You were doing as if we were close on tv, but once the camera was off, you would ignore my presence. Why? What did I do wrong? Was it because you thought like the fans? Did you also thought I didn't belong in Super Junior?
I wonder why I fell for you. The only one I couldn't get. The members noticed it, you cold attitude toward me. They decided to put the two of us together in one room, to make us closer. And unexpectingly, it did. After the day you found me in bed crying, you opened more up to me. Little by little we became closer and closer. We spent more time together and became the second closest in the group. [under Eunhae of course]
My love for you became bigger day by day. I thought you liked me too. It really seemed like that. Every time you would held my hand, every time you would blush when i would say something sweet, every time you wanted to be with me when you felt down and sad, every time you would lay down next to me, just because. but I was wrong. You once again broke my heart. You broke it in thousands pieces.
"Sungmin, hyung... I... I love you." After more than 4 years of undying love, I finally managed to confess to you. I knew there was a change you would reject me. I knew it wasn't sure that you had the same feelings, but I never, never expected to hear what I heard from you. How come that happened? Why? I tried everything, EVERYTHING to grab your attention. I did my best to become one of the lead singers of the group, I was even asked for S.M. THE BALLAD. After many failures of dancing, I finally managed to improve that too, I wanted to make you me, make you notice someone like me. In the end I was even a lead dance in Bonamana and participated in the Star dance battle. I became a radio DJ and even got asked to act in a musical. I did everything, everything to make you notice me. No matter how tired and sick I became from the hard work, it was all for you. It was all for you, but once again... It didn't reach you at all. I never did. Instead it was him. Not me... Him...
"I-I'm sorry Kyu... I'm already dating Siwon..."
Siwon... I can't compare to him... I want to, but i can't... You love him. I guess, not every prince gets his princess... What to do? Holding hands or letting go. Happiness, more pain or blessings. Should I try hold onto you? No... It's over now. It's really over...
"Ky-"
"It's okay Min... I'm sorry. I hope he will make you happy... I guess it's over... "
It's time to face the truth.... I will never be with you...
'Goodbye, Min...'
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A/N: So... this was not what i was thinking about... I really couldn't write it. I was watching a music contest on tv, and when I saw a participant sing 'You're beautiful' together with James blunt, I just couldn't help myself to not write a fic about the final sentence... So here it is... To be true... I never thought a fic of mine was such a fail as this one... It just didn't go well... I will try writng Good person now~