Everytime I look at you. [Song drabble or one-shot...]
Title: Everytime I look at you. [songdrabble]
Pairing: KyuMin.
Rating: PG15?
Genre: romance, fluff, fail!smut [not extreme smut, just a gentle, short smut part xD]
Song: Everytime I look at you - il Divo.
Disclaimer: Same story as ever... don't own them... Don't own the boys, neither the song. Just the fantasy behind this.
Summary: Kyuhyun gets a special feeling, everytime he looks at him.
a/N: My first smut attempt... Don't be to hard on me for it pwease *puppy eyes* And... I think I have a passion for writing song drabbles xD I already have an idea for 2 new ones xD [taxi and still have to find a song for the sequel of 'Me too' I have to ideas for it... But can't decide which one yet. Maybe I won't base it on a song this time... Enjoy reading!! btw, here is the song on youtube if you wanna hear it before~ Song Here! don't shock... it's not a kpop song or a song you guys would probably listen to...
I used to think that I was strong. I always used to think like that. Why shouldn't I? I was the strongest of the school, I never lost a fight in and out school. I was the head of the kinka group at school. I was the top basketball player, the best boxer and the person with the most beautiful voice. Everyone, other than my friends, were scared for me. I never cried ever since I was 5 years old. No one could hurt my feelings, I was to strong for that. Too strong phisically and mentally.
I realize now I was wrong. Yeah, I was. Very wrong. No matter how strong I was in fighting, no matter how strong I was in keeping my sadness in me and hide it. There was one thing that could me make the total opposite. It made me a weak person, who indeed could get hurt mentally.
'Cuz everytime I see your face, my mind becomes an empty space. Your eyes, your lips, your cute face. It was the thing that weakened me so much. It made my heart skip a beat, my legs weaken and make them tremble, my head fogetting everything around me like a fool, feeling like I could fly in the sky and always have this warm, light feeling. Yes, it started when I met you. Lee Sungmin. I thought I could take you easy. But no. I'm not that strong. I gave in with my feelings and started being with you. But even now, being with you for so much time, I still feel weak when you're near.
And with you lying next to me, feels like I can hardly breath. You're lying on my chest, smiling. You keep on stealing glances, but turn your head away when you notice I'm looking back at you. You giggle as you lean on my chest and hug me with your warm arms. We cuddle a bit. I can't take it anymore. Every time I think about this moment, I can hardly breath. Can't stop blushing and feeling happy. This is what you, Lee Sungmin do with me. It is our first night being together and hopefully not the last one.
I close my eyes, the moment I surrender to you. You are really amazing Lee Sungmin. I never felt so good with a person before, not even my family. Even simply lying here next to you feels like the best day of my life. I want to give all the moments of my life to you from now on, so that I can forever live with you, happily. I want to go to sleep with you very night. Dreaming about you the whole night, without waking up with you not being next to me. No, I want to actually wake up from a wonderful dream with you, and actually seeing you even when I open my eyes. I want to see you every hour, every minute, every second of the day.
Let love be blind, innocent and tenderly true. I want our love to be for ever. Not a simple love for just a moment. I want our love be blind. I want it to not see any pain and hurt. Let's not be jealous or angry with each other. Let's always love each other truely. Innocent and tenderly. I smile to myself by my thoughts and you notice it. You look at me and stare a bit until you suddenly move saying you love me. You're sitting on top of me and started kissing me gently and lovingly, but it soon started to get deeper. You unbotton my shirt and take of your own. You stroke your hands on my chest and started to unbuckle as I stroke your hair and lean forward to come nearer to you. I stopped and it made you frown. One thing kept on going on in my head. Tonight will be the first time making love to you. To anyone. And I'm worried about dissapointing you, but you got my message even without words. You smile cutely to me and you tell me it was okay and that you would help me through ut.
Lead me through tonight, but please turn out the light. I tell you and you look at me weirdly. You giggle and give a peck on my lips. I look into your eyes, and again. My mind became empty. It was only filled with that smile that made my heart beat faster and made me blush. That smile, that face, it was the most precious thing on earth. You look deeply into my eyes and came closer to me and kiss me again. You put both your hands beside both sides of my head and stare at me for a moment. You sat down again, on me, and started taking of our pants. I stopped your hands when you came to pull of my boxer. You once again frowned and look confused at me. You sigh and wanted to get off of me, but I also stop that. I ask you once more, to turn of the lights. You look at me and ask me why. You laugh and ask me in a worried and scared voice, yet a bit jokingly, if I didn't want to see you. I answered you honestly.
'Cuz I'm lost, everytime I look at you. Your face seem surprised. After realizing what I said, you smile brightly and kiss me again. You told me 'okay' and leaned forward to the nightlamp to turn it off. You said I was sweet and that you loved me. I told you I loved you back and started to kiss you passionatly now and of course, you kiss me back. You lean forward so that I would fall on my back on the bed again and you intertwined our hands as the kiss becomes deeper and deeper. We run out of breath and pant when we separate. Even in the darkness, it seems that I can see your dazling smile and eyes. You say to me to be alright and tell you when it really hurts. I didn't understand what you meant, until I feel my boxer being pulled off and feel a finger inside me. I gasped as you tell me it will be alright. You put another finger inside me and I growl. I feel some pain, but I hold it in, so that I wouldn't dissapoint you. I only see now, that our members were already hard. You whisper sweet words to me as you pull out your fingers and placed your member slowly inside me. I growl and scream as hard as I could because of the pain and pleasure. You shh- me and place many kisses on my face and lips. You ask me if you it was okay with you moving now. I nodded, still feeling a bit insecure about the feelings that would come. But I know that as long it's you who does it, I will be alright. You move slowly, but start to trust faster when I moaned out your name and told you to go faster. After awhile, we are both exhausted and you fall on my chest, as we both are panting. You look at me and kiss me. Telling me for the last time that night that love me and fell asleep on top of me. I closed my eyes and thought about the night. Hoping that it won't be a dream tomorrow and that you still be here if I wake up, I fall asleep, embracing you gently and giving my last kiss that night on your forehead before fully falling into sleep.
In the morning when you go, wake me gently so I´ll know, I told you that yesterday after we made love. You said I was being an idiot, for all those weird request. You smiled at me and we stayed quiet. But even though you said I was a idiot for those weird request, you still did them all. I hear you whisper in my ear, saying you had to go to work. You give me a peck and caressed my hair, while my eyes are still closed. You ask to me in whisper to repeat the sentence I told you last night after my request, so that you too, will believe it´s not so. A smile spread on my lips as I giggle, still keeping my eyes closed. I pull you near me so that your ear will be near my mouth and I will tell you it once again.
That loving you was not a dream and whisper softly what it means, to be with me. You giggle. I finally decided to open my eyes, and I didn´t regret it. What could be more beautiful than seeing a cute Sungmin, wrapped in blankets till his waist, smiling a beautiful smile while the sun rays are shining on him. It´s a beautiful picture. I want to see it every morning. I´m sure I will wake up immediately every morning if it would always be like that. You move so, that you could sit on my stomach. You smile and caress my body. You leaned forward and whispered the things I just want to hear so much. You whisper that I was your everything and that you love me more than anyone. You whisper that you want to be with me forever and that you will die if we were even separated for more than a week. I smile at you and tell you it was the same for me. I sit up and embrace you. I whisper a couple of times that I love you and slide my hand trough your hair while looking gently at you. It was the best morning of my life.
Then every moment we´re apart, will be a lifetime to my heart. I know that it's like that. After those words, I'm sure I can't live without you even for a second. It would feel like forever if you were gone for just an hour. You wrap your legs around my waist while we´re sitting and smile at me. You ask me if I´m sure you are the one for me and you tell me to never leave you again if it is so, since you are sure I am the one for you. You tell me to say it now, so if it isn´t you, you will not think too much of our relationship from now on. You look scared as you tell me those words, but I smiled and caressed you cheek while looking deeply into your eyes. I tell you I was sure and that I couldn't life a day without you anymore. I love you to much for that. I tell you that we will be together forever and ever, even if our life only just started. I tell you that you should come live with me from now on, since it will be to hard for me to be separated from you after tonight. I tell you that I want to marry you as soon as we get graduated in a year and that I will make you happy from now on and take good care of you. Only now, I realize you were crying. you were crying from happiness you say. I could only smile of that and kiss your tears away, one by one. I intertwined our hands and placed my hand on your chin, so that I could pull the face of the sobbing you, up and tell you once again I love you. When you tell me you love me too, we kissed once again. You stand up, to my dissapointment, and walk to my closet to grab a boxer from it. You tell me you had to work and that you would lend it from me. You put it on and grab a shirt from my closet too. I laughed at your cuteness. I giggle like a crazy person to myself and think about how great my life with you is. You put on your own pants and walk to me, to place a kiss on my forehead. I smile to you like a crazy fool in love. You tell me you are going to work now, but I don't want you to go. I pulled you on top of me again and whisper to you not to leave me now. I whisper that this crazy fool, can't be apart from you anymore. You laugh and give me a pat on my head. You tell me not to worry, that from now on you will stay by my side forever. You give me another dazzling smile, that makes me weak again. You stand up and wave cutely at me and say to me that you will be back as soon as you're done. Much of the things didn't really enter my head, since yeah... I was once again lost by your smile.
This boy, you Lee Sungmin, you perfect creature that is actually mine now.
I'm lost, Everytime I look at you...
-End!!-
A/N': keke, sorry.... I already wrote down most of the parts of chapter 7 of Let's stay together forever, but even I think it's a boring chapter, so I still haven't finished copying everything. So~~ For everyone, I made a new song drabble/fanfic and a small drabble~ I hope you guys enjoyed this fic!! I suddenly felt like writing it at school. I'm quite pleased with the fic, only the smut is fail!! SORRY ALL!! This is my first, something that looks a bit like, smut. I really am to young to write this, but it just came out when I was writing this fic!! So... smut is FAIL!! But still hope you guys liked the other parts!! You're suppose to get a warm, gently feeling with this fic, just like what I got with the songm but I think I also failed at that.... So... I'm happy about the half of this fic, but think it's a fail for some parts!! I's not fullly FAIL!! I just realized that I make all kind of different song drabbles... Hope you won't be annoyed by that =P
I'm a bit busy, because school sent me to homeworkclass, so I'm at school from 8:30AM till 5:00 PM... how horrible is that... I need an hour to get home, and when I arrive at home I have to eat... So I only have 2 or 3 hours for the pc... So I'm sorry for not uploading much those days... But luckily!! The period for Homework class is almost over!! I will be back with writing from the 9th of december on!! Sorry another time for not sayign anything about that before, but the shcool just decided it a few weeks ago. I'm very busy because of that. I PROMISE TO REPLY ALL THE PAST COMMENTS SOON!!! I PROMISE!!! I will now upload another short drabble about.... SNOW!!! I was in class today and looked outside, everything was white because of the snow and I wanted to play in it so much,... So then I wrote a short drabble in my notebook!! keke, hope this and that one will make up for me not updating much lately and not replying comments!! DID ANYONE SEE THE MV OF MISS YOU BTW!!! IT WAS SO AWESOME AND BEAUTIFUL!! OUR KYU LOOKED SO HANDSOME IN IT!!
*sigh* what a long author note.... ¬.¬
Pairing: KyuMin.
Rating: PG15?
Genre: romance, fluff, fail!smut [not extreme smut, just a gentle, short smut part xD]
Song: Everytime I look at you - il Divo.
Disclaimer: Same story as ever... don't own them... Don't own the boys, neither the song. Just the fantasy behind this.
Summary: Kyuhyun gets a special feeling, everytime he looks at him.
a/N: My first smut attempt... Don't be to hard on me for it pwease *puppy eyes* And... I think I have a passion for writing song drabbles xD I already have an idea for 2 new ones xD [taxi and still have to find a song for the sequel of 'Me too' I have to ideas for it... But can't decide which one yet. Maybe I won't base it on a song this time... Enjoy reading!! btw, here is the song on youtube if you wanna hear it before~ Song Here! don't shock... it's not a kpop song or a song you guys would probably listen to...
I used to think that I was strong. I always used to think like that. Why shouldn't I? I was the strongest of the school, I never lost a fight in and out school. I was the head of the kinka group at school. I was the top basketball player, the best boxer and the person with the most beautiful voice. Everyone, other than my friends, were scared for me. I never cried ever since I was 5 years old. No one could hurt my feelings, I was to strong for that. Too strong phisically and mentally.
I realize now I was wrong. Yeah, I was. Very wrong. No matter how strong I was in fighting, no matter how strong I was in keeping my sadness in me and hide it. There was one thing that could me make the total opposite. It made me a weak person, who indeed could get hurt mentally.
'Cuz everytime I see your face, my mind becomes an empty space. Your eyes, your lips, your cute face. It was the thing that weakened me so much. It made my heart skip a beat, my legs weaken and make them tremble, my head fogetting everything around me like a fool, feeling like I could fly in the sky and always have this warm, light feeling. Yes, it started when I met you. Lee Sungmin. I thought I could take you easy. But no. I'm not that strong. I gave in with my feelings and started being with you. But even now, being with you for so much time, I still feel weak when you're near.
And with you lying next to me, feels like I can hardly breath. You're lying on my chest, smiling. You keep on stealing glances, but turn your head away when you notice I'm looking back at you. You giggle as you lean on my chest and hug me with your warm arms. We cuddle a bit. I can't take it anymore. Every time I think about this moment, I can hardly breath. Can't stop blushing and feeling happy. This is what you, Lee Sungmin do with me. It is our first night being together and hopefully not the last one.
I close my eyes, the moment I surrender to you. You are really amazing Lee Sungmin. I never felt so good with a person before, not even my family. Even simply lying here next to you feels like the best day of my life. I want to give all the moments of my life to you from now on, so that I can forever live with you, happily. I want to go to sleep with you very night. Dreaming about you the whole night, without waking up with you not being next to me. No, I want to actually wake up from a wonderful dream with you, and actually seeing you even when I open my eyes. I want to see you every hour, every minute, every second of the day.
Let love be blind, innocent and tenderly true. I want our love to be for ever. Not a simple love for just a moment. I want our love be blind. I want it to not see any pain and hurt. Let's not be jealous or angry with each other. Let's always love each other truely. Innocent and tenderly. I smile to myself by my thoughts and you notice it. You look at me and stare a bit until you suddenly move saying you love me. You're sitting on top of me and started kissing me gently and lovingly, but it soon started to get deeper. You unbotton my shirt and take of your own. You stroke your hands on my chest and started to unbuckle as I stroke your hair and lean forward to come nearer to you. I stopped and it made you frown. One thing kept on going on in my head. Tonight will be the first time making love to you. To anyone. And I'm worried about dissapointing you, but you got my message even without words. You smile cutely to me and you tell me it was okay and that you would help me through ut.
Lead me through tonight, but please turn out the light. I tell you and you look at me weirdly. You giggle and give a peck on my lips. I look into your eyes, and again. My mind became empty. It was only filled with that smile that made my heart beat faster and made me blush. That smile, that face, it was the most precious thing on earth. You look deeply into my eyes and came closer to me and kiss me again. You put both your hands beside both sides of my head and stare at me for a moment. You sat down again, on me, and started taking of our pants. I stopped your hands when you came to pull of my boxer. You once again frowned and look confused at me. You sigh and wanted to get off of me, but I also stop that. I ask you once more, to turn of the lights. You look at me and ask me why. You laugh and ask me in a worried and scared voice, yet a bit jokingly, if I didn't want to see you. I answered you honestly.
'Cuz I'm lost, everytime I look at you. Your face seem surprised. After realizing what I said, you smile brightly and kiss me again. You told me 'okay' and leaned forward to the nightlamp to turn it off. You said I was sweet and that you loved me. I told you I loved you back and started to kiss you passionatly now and of course, you kiss me back. You lean forward so that I would fall on my back on the bed again and you intertwined our hands as the kiss becomes deeper and deeper. We run out of breath and pant when we separate. Even in the darkness, it seems that I can see your dazling smile and eyes. You say to me to be alright and tell you when it really hurts. I didn't understand what you meant, until I feel my boxer being pulled off and feel a finger inside me. I gasped as you tell me it will be alright. You put another finger inside me and I growl. I feel some pain, but I hold it in, so that I wouldn't dissapoint you. I only see now, that our members were already hard. You whisper sweet words to me as you pull out your fingers and placed your member slowly inside me. I growl and scream as hard as I could because of the pain and pleasure. You shh- me and place many kisses on my face and lips. You ask me if you it was okay with you moving now. I nodded, still feeling a bit insecure about the feelings that would come. But I know that as long it's you who does it, I will be alright. You move slowly, but start to trust faster when I moaned out your name and told you to go faster. After awhile, we are both exhausted and you fall on my chest, as we both are panting. You look at me and kiss me. Telling me for the last time that night that love me and fell asleep on top of me. I closed my eyes and thought about the night. Hoping that it won't be a dream tomorrow and that you still be here if I wake up, I fall asleep, embracing you gently and giving my last kiss that night on your forehead before fully falling into sleep.
In the morning when you go, wake me gently so I´ll know, I told you that yesterday after we made love. You said I was being an idiot, for all those weird request. You smiled at me and we stayed quiet. But even though you said I was a idiot for those weird request, you still did them all. I hear you whisper in my ear, saying you had to go to work. You give me a peck and caressed my hair, while my eyes are still closed. You ask to me in whisper to repeat the sentence I told you last night after my request, so that you too, will believe it´s not so. A smile spread on my lips as I giggle, still keeping my eyes closed. I pull you near me so that your ear will be near my mouth and I will tell you it once again.
That loving you was not a dream and whisper softly what it means, to be with me. You giggle. I finally decided to open my eyes, and I didn´t regret it. What could be more beautiful than seeing a cute Sungmin, wrapped in blankets till his waist, smiling a beautiful smile while the sun rays are shining on him. It´s a beautiful picture. I want to see it every morning. I´m sure I will wake up immediately every morning if it would always be like that. You move so, that you could sit on my stomach. You smile and caress my body. You leaned forward and whispered the things I just want to hear so much. You whisper that I was your everything and that you love me more than anyone. You whisper that you want to be with me forever and that you will die if we were even separated for more than a week. I smile at you and tell you it was the same for me. I sit up and embrace you. I whisper a couple of times that I love you and slide my hand trough your hair while looking gently at you. It was the best morning of my life.
Then every moment we´re apart, will be a lifetime to my heart. I know that it's like that. After those words, I'm sure I can't live without you even for a second. It would feel like forever if you were gone for just an hour. You wrap your legs around my waist while we´re sitting and smile at me. You ask me if I´m sure you are the one for me and you tell me to never leave you again if it is so, since you are sure I am the one for you. You tell me to say it now, so if it isn´t you, you will not think too much of our relationship from now on. You look scared as you tell me those words, but I smiled and caressed you cheek while looking deeply into your eyes. I tell you I was sure and that I couldn't life a day without you anymore. I love you to much for that. I tell you that we will be together forever and ever, even if our life only just started. I tell you that you should come live with me from now on, since it will be to hard for me to be separated from you after tonight. I tell you that I want to marry you as soon as we get graduated in a year and that I will make you happy from now on and take good care of you. Only now, I realize you were crying. you were crying from happiness you say. I could only smile of that and kiss your tears away, one by one. I intertwined our hands and placed my hand on your chin, so that I could pull the face of the sobbing you, up and tell you once again I love you. When you tell me you love me too, we kissed once again. You stand up, to my dissapointment, and walk to my closet to grab a boxer from it. You tell me you had to work and that you would lend it from me. You put it on and grab a shirt from my closet too. I laughed at your cuteness. I giggle like a crazy person to myself and think about how great my life with you is. You put on your own pants and walk to me, to place a kiss on my forehead. I smile to you like a crazy fool in love. You tell me you are going to work now, but I don't want you to go. I pulled you on top of me again and whisper to you not to leave me now. I whisper that this crazy fool, can't be apart from you anymore. You laugh and give me a pat on my head. You tell me not to worry, that from now on you will stay by my side forever. You give me another dazzling smile, that makes me weak again. You stand up and wave cutely at me and say to me that you will be back as soon as you're done. Much of the things didn't really enter my head, since yeah... I was once again lost by your smile.
This boy, you Lee Sungmin, you perfect creature that is actually mine now.
I'm lost, Everytime I look at you...
-End!!-
A/N': keke, sorry.... I already wrote down most of the parts of chapter 7 of Let's stay together forever, but even I think it's a boring chapter, so I still haven't finished copying everything. So~~ For everyone, I made a new song drabble/fanfic and a small drabble~ I hope you guys enjoyed this fic!! I suddenly felt like writing it at school. I'm quite pleased with the fic, only the smut is fail!! SORRY ALL!! This is my first, something that looks a bit like, smut. I really am to young to write this, but it just came out when I was writing this fic!! So... smut is FAIL!! But still hope you guys liked the other parts!! You're suppose to get a warm, gently feeling with this fic, just like what I got with the songm but I think I also failed at that.... So... I'm happy about the half of this fic, but think it's a fail for some parts!! I's not fullly FAIL!! I just realized that I make all kind of different song drabbles... Hope you won't be annoyed by that =P
I'm a bit busy, because school sent me to homeworkclass, so I'm at school from 8:30AM till 5:00 PM... how horrible is that... I need an hour to get home, and when I arrive at home I have to eat... So I only have 2 or 3 hours for the pc... So I'm sorry for not uploading much those days... But luckily!! The period for Homework class is almost over!! I will be back with writing from the 9th of december on!! Sorry another time for not sayign anything about that before, but the shcool just decided it a few weeks ago. I'm very busy because of that. I PROMISE TO REPLY ALL THE PAST COMMENTS SOON!!! I PROMISE!!! I will now upload another short drabble about.... SNOW!!! I was in class today and looked outside, everything was white because of the snow and I wanted to play in it so much,... So then I wrote a short drabble in my notebook!! keke, hope this and that one will make up for me not updating much lately and not replying comments!! DID ANYONE SEE THE MV OF MISS YOU BTW!!! IT WAS SO AWESOME AND BEAUTIFUL!! OUR KYU LOOKED SO HANDSOME IN IT!!
*sigh* what a long author note.... ¬.¬