KyuMin Song drabble PART A+B!! : LATE! BIRTHDAYFIC for FANMIN!!
Title: Be with you. part a+b! [songdrabble]
Pairing: KyuMin.
Genre: romance, fluff, slight!angst
Song: Be with you
Disclaimer: Same story as ever... don't own them...
Summary: A story of a never ending love.
a/N: A very late birthday fic for fanmin!! I'm happy you liked the part~~ Here is the first and second part in one, since it's better to read them at once!! I'm very happy with it myself, so I hope it will make you happy~! <3
Lined up on the pavement, our two shadows.
They stretch out as if they try to snuggle together.
You still remember? The day I finally confessed to you. I was so happy that day, the day you gladly returned my feelings. I was an idiot for being afraid to confess to you before. We walked along the pavement as we looked at the sun set together, it was so beautiful. not the sunset... No it was you what was so beautiful. You kept one giggling to yourself as we shared some glances. You told me to look at the ground as you smiled sweetly to me. I didn't get it at all at first. I saw nothing. No. That wasn't true. I did saw something. I saw our two shadows stretching out. It was as if they tried to snuggle together. I also smiled at the sight. You looked at me and said, 'Look. It's as if they're showing our true feelings.'
In the times of rush,
so that we won't be pulled along,
we held each others hand tightly.
It was our 200th days anniversary. We decided to spent the whole day outside. We went to a cute café to eat breakfast, watched a romantic movie at the cinema, bought ice cream as we made a stroll in the park, had dinner in a beautiful, small restaurant and later walked along the dark streets. Walking in a comfortable silence and enjoy each others presence. Not caring about the rushing time. It was almost 12 o'clock, unfortunaly. We saw a shooting star pass by in the sky. You held my hand tightly as you closed your eyes to make a wish, just like me. I wished for this time never to stop again. I wanted to make it last forever. I also held your hand tightly, so that we wouldn't be pulled along the rushing people. I wanted to hold you tightly so that you will never leave me.
Among the busy crowd,
in the middle of rushing people,
I can't help feeling sad,
so I called out your name.
It has been only a month, and it was already unbearable. I left with a few other members to China to promote the new sub-group, Super Junior M. I hated the fact that I was asked for it, I hated the fact that you encouraged me to go, I hated the fact that I had to be away from you for 8 months, I hated the fact that I had to miss you so much, I hated the fact that I could't touch you, hug you, kiss you anymore. But the thing that I hated the most was your face when I left. I couldn't bear it. You kept on being strong the whole time, you told me it would be all okay and that we would see each other after some months. That it wasn't that bad since we could still call each other. You smiled the whole time before I was leaving. Because of that, I told myself to be strong. That it would be okay, since my Minnie was okay. He was smiling, so I should just ignore all the sad and lonely nights that and be strong for Sungmin. But all those thoughts disappeared the moment I turned away to see your face for the last time before leaving. You were crying. Not just some tears, but a bunch of them. When you saw me looking back you were shocked and cried out loud and Leeteuk hugged you in comfort. He was worried about us. Not just you. I wanted to walk up to you, but I got pulled in the plane by the staff who were boarding with us. I couldn't stop crying. The tears overflowed as I watched your figure getting further and further away till I couldn't see it anymore after entering the plane. I sat on my seat and cried alone the whole trip.
Just like now... I walked along the cold streets of China. I missed you so much, that it hurts. It was an unbelievable pain. I kept on thinking about you the whole time. Everyday holding back my tears, and let them go at night. But today... I can't do it... I can't hold them back. The street was so busy, so many people all rushing and among that busy crowd of rushing people, was I, walking slowly, bumping into many rushing people. Crying, while not really knowing were to go. There was no other place I wanted to be other than by your side. The sadness and tears overflow. I couldn't help but feel sad, so I called out your name. As loud as I could, hoping that the pain would at least ease a bit. I fell on the ground while calling out your name many times until I felt a hand on my shoulder and was pulled in a hug. My eyes widened and I closed them afterwards. I thought, no I wished it was you... Even thought it was impossible. And I was right. It wasn't you, but Ryeowook. He hugged me tightly and told me not to cry. He told me that you wouldn't like it at all. [a/n sorry that this part is so long...]
All the sadness that can be seen in your eyes.
Those pains, let them be wiped away.
It's been 4 months now and I feel a lot better. Even though I still miss you a lot, I don't cry anymore. I realized that the time only seems to slow down like that. I only laughed an had fun now, so that we will meet each other soon again. But recently it seems to fade away again, after seeing your last performance. You didn't seem to well, and I'm worried about you. We've been so busy, that we can't even speak to each other. Whenever I'm free, you have a scedule and when you're free, I have schedule. That made it even harder. I want to wipe your sadness away, but I can't seem to find an opportunity. But after seeing todays show, I just had to make time! No matter who was in the way, I can't let you feel sad anymore. When they talked about us, SJM members, on a show, all the sadness could be seen in your eyes obviously. It was even worse than before. So I'm gonna call you today. I want those pains to be away, I will take them away.
The scent of the passing breeze that just blew.
Went toward a new season.
Look the colors are changing.
There is only one month left and I haven't spoke with you for more than a month now. It's the last day of autumn today. I'm walking together with Ryeowook, through a lovely park. Sungmin,,, I wish you were here. It's so beautiful. I want to watch it with you. I want to see your smile again. I didn't realize I just said that out loud so I giggled innocent as I looked weirdly at me. Ryeowook suddenly asked me if I was sure that you didn't forget me, that he didn't found a new lover in this time, since you haven't contacted me at all. He said that he didn't think you had still feelings for me. And then... he kissed me. I was shocked. I pushed him away immediately. I don't know why he did that, but I hated it, since I felt like cheating on you, like I betrayed you. I asked him why he did that and that those lips were only for Sungmin. He frowned at those words. And wanted to protest, but he suddenly stopped. The scent of the breeze that just blew was so familiar, It went toward the trees, and they suddenly seemed to bloom. It seemed as everything changed, as all the colors became brighter just because of the scent. It seemed as if you were there to make it more beautiful. I smiled and totally forgot Ryeowook for a moment. I shed one tear as I breathed the scent in, It felt so natural, I guess a new season has come. I go out of my trance as I heard someone giggle. It wasn't Ryeowook, I'm sure of it. The sound was softer and sweeter. It was the sound that I missed so much for the past half year. I turned away, only to wish that what I saw, wasn't a dream.
from here on part b:
The dreams that you left,
in the distant past.
I'll make them all come true.
I've been back for three weeks now and we already had a fight. Though it began with a little thing, it soon ended up in a huge, emotional mess. It was all my fault for not understanding you at all. We never talked about it before, but of course you would think about those things when we were away for months. Even though you visited once. I didn't think you would think back about your past dreams. All those dreams that you had to give up because of me. You told me I was selfish, only thinking about myself and my computer and that I was the worst for hanging around Ryeowook that much recently, now that he confessed to you. That you gave all your past dreams up, so that we could be together forever, living happily. That it was okay that he couldn't have a normal relationship, that you could never have adorable kids from which you dreamed of ever since you where little and that you couldn't marry like normal couples do. It broke my heart when you told me that. Especially because I knew it was true. I always wanted to give you all that, but I couldn't. I'm a man... I was so flustrated and just ignored it, so that you couldn't see me cry. I walked away from you when you yelled at me to leave your sight. I did as you told, but what an idiot was I. I could have known that you didn't want me to leave at all and that you needed my comfort right now. I regret it the moment I stepped out of the door and saw Ryeowook standing in front of me. He told me it was okay and wiped my, now falling tears, away. He wanted to give me a kiss once again, but that I was in a fight with Sungmin, didn't mean my feelings changed even a bit, so I pushed him away before he could reach my lips and told him to stop with this and that Sungmin was still the only one for me. I turned around and saw you standing in the door opening. I little small curved your lips as you entered the room again and locking the door. I could only stare at it as I looked to the place where you stood just now. Knowing that your feelings didn't change either.
And now after a week of not talking to each other and ignoring each others presence, you finally gave up, later than I thought. After finishing your recording you ran to our room and swung the door open. I look surprised at you as you pouted and threw yourself on me. I managed to put away my book on time besides me. You hugged me tightly as I sat up and hugged you back. You were sobbing and whining about how much you're sorry and that you love me the most. I chuckled at those words and caressed your hair. I told you it was my fault for being selfish. I told you that the dreams that you left in the past, I'll make them all come true someday, no matter how difficult it will be, because you are my everything, you are my love and I want them to come true no matter what.
Through the always flowing time,
something will surely change,
But we hold eternity in our hands.
So we can be stronger than anyone else.
Our fight already seems like forgotten as another week passed. We never brought the subject up again and just lived as we used to, before I left to China. Despite of our busy schedule, we went on a date, we watched movies at home, not really watching the movie, just cuddling with each other, giving sweet kisses and whisper sweet things to each other. We slept together in the same bed again. I missed those nights so much, where I hold you in my arms as you hug me softly and fall asleep as I sing a sweet song to you. I would still be up for some time and just stare at your beautiful, pretty sleeping face. For me, that was the most wonderful life I could have. I would never change it for anything else. Those sweet moments with you are the best, I know that won't change. I wonder why people can't understand it. I spoke with Ryeowook yesterday after our recording. He suddenly told me to break up with you, since things will change soon and he said he was sure that you couldn't make me happy in awhile. He said that what our relationship was now, was just a childish love and that it was nothing serious, that we should end it here, since it won't be any better than this and we have been already a long time together. I just smiled to the ground as I listened to him. He was right. Time always flows and our relationship hasn't even started yet. So I told him the truth. I told him that he was right, that the time is always flowing and that we still have a whole lifetime to spent together. I know that through the always flowing time something will change. But changes aren't always bad. Something will change, I'm already prepared for that, because that won't ever stop us, because we hold eternity in our hands. That's why we can be stronger than anyone else. We won't be separated by some changes.
No matter what our past may be,
no matter what tomorrow will be,
we'll share the future.
A month later we were invited to a family party. Your parents invited both of us and told us that the other members could also come. That's how we were in the car now heading to the party. Everyone was having fun and made jokes. We arrived at a huge mansion, with the biggest garden I every saw. I couldn't even believe that a mansion could be so big. We all realized that it was not just some party. Luckily we were all dressed formal, so we didn't have anything to be embarrassed about, until Donghae came with a question that made our worries even bigger. He asked if it would be okay to show that they were together. As is lovers, not friendship. You looked worried at him and then at me. We knew that your parents accepted it, even loved it, but what would those rich people think. They wouldn't accept it so easily. We all knew that. Leeteuk came with the decision that we wouldn't act like couples, just show each other brotherly love. He told us that everything would be okay like that. We all were disappointed including you and Leeteuk. Of course we wanted to be lovey-dovey with our loving ones, but we also understood that it could end as a disaster if we did. So we walked the mansion in normally and were grated by the host of the party. We immediately were also greeted by your parents and afterwards by all the other guests, since they all recognized us. All girls were around all the members, and we slowly got separated. No matter how much I wanted to get away from all those girls they just didn't want to go away. I searched for you as soon as they finally left, but couldn't find you. I looked around and saw you talking with a handsome guy. You didn't seem to happy with him, but you didn't seem the hate it either. Suddenly the boy came closer to your ear and wrapped an arm around your waist. I saw that you were shocked by him, but you didn't pull him away either. I wanted to walk over to you but then I saw the boy kiss you. My heart broke once again. At first you didn't pull apart, but pushed him away in the end. After that I couldn't see it anymore. A group of people blocked the way, and when I finally reached that place, you were gone, so was the guy.
I felt depressed. I searched trough the whole hall for you but couldn't find you or the unknown guy. I felt suddenly felt a hand on mine. I turned away on the hope it was you, but no. It wasn't you... It was Ryeowook. He said he was sorry and told me he saw you go upstairs with some guy. I knew it was him. Though my heart was aching, I still wanted to know if it was really that you were with another guy now, so I followed Ryeowook to the stairs he saw the two of you on. I walked upstairs and followed the long hall. I had no idea where to go, until I heard something. I felt a tear stroll down my face as recognized the sound, It was a moan and it was coming out of the room next to me. I was afraid to open the door. I was afraid that if I entered the room I would see you on another guy. That you were making love with a guy I don't know at all. But I had to. I had to open the door. I believed in you. I just knew that there was no way you would go to another guy. I knew you wouldn't cheat on me. But that changed when I opened the door. I opened it and my tears felt quickly as I saw you under another guy half naked. He held your hands as he kissed your neck while wearing only a boxer. I couldn't believe what I saw. I shouldn't have opened the door, I should've ignored it. I should just keep on believing in you. Now, I was sure you would break up with me for that man. I was sure that you would end it now. You called out my name in shock and sat up, crying. Your tears strolled down your face as quick as mine. I turned around and closed the door. That was when I realized you've been crying for a way longer time, when I opened the door you were already crying. I realized that you didn't want it at all from the start.
I felt relieved but still pained. I stood still on the half of the hall way with tears falling down my cheeks. I felt empty. I felt someone hugging me from behind. It was you. You were crying out loud and begging me for forgiveness. Begging me to forget it. Begging me for not leaving you. Was it bad of me? Feeling happy about it? I was happy that you weren't going to leave me. But I was still heartbroken by what I saw just now. So I grabbed your hands and pulled you away, without looking at you and walked away. I hated to do that, but I didn't know what else to do. You called out my name again and I could hear you fall on the ground. I couldn't leave you like that so I still turned away and walked up to you. You looked confused to me. You sobbed more and more and said sorry a thousand times. I bend down and caressed your cheeks. After that I hugged you tightly not wanting to let go anymore. I never wanted to let you go. But I still asked that question that was lingering in my head from the moment I saw that from just know. You were shocked and looked hurt when I asked you it. Asking you why. You were silent for awhile. but knew you had to tell me. You told me he knew about the both of us and would tell you about your past if you wouldn't sleep with him. He wanted to sleep with you out of revenge. You didn't want to do it, you didn't want to do such a thing with anyone other than me. But you were afraid I wouldn't want you if I broke up with you. In the end you didn't told me about your past but it was okay. I was fine with it since I knew you still loved me, that was enough. I told you that to, that it was okay. I told you that no matter what your past is, no matter what will still come ahead of us. We would share the future. And nobody and nothing could come between that.
Because I realized,
how to properly love someone,
everything I see starts to shine.
Until now, I was worried about our love. I was afraid that I didn't love you properly. Worried that you would leave my side soon, because you're fed up with me. We're are almost two years together and you haven't shown anything that comes close to breaking up. But that I don't see it, doesn't mean it isn't there. Recently you seem to pay less attention to me, since until now, I still play games almost all our free time, but you still stayed by my side, watching me as you sit next to me. But lately, you just come into the room to get something or just take a quick look at me and leave again. I felt bad for you for having such a stupid boyfriend, but that didn't seem to hold me back from playing games. I should definitely do something soon about this game obsession, or it will cost me my love. That's how I decided to do my laptop away. I gave it to Donghae who just broke his own. It was a hard decision to make, especially after seeing how Donghae's old laptop ended up to be. I sighed heavily as I grabbed my laptop and the charger and walked the room out with a depressed face. I bumped into someone on my way, and realized it was you. You asked me confused what I was going to do with my laptop. i sighed once again and told you it. Then your eyes widened wide open. you chuckled and put your hand on my forehead, asking if I was getting sick or soemthing. but I didn't laugh at all. I was dead serious about this. I made my decision, from now on I'm gonna be the best lover you could ever have and I'm gonna make you more happier, so that you will never, never leave me. I looked seriously at you and told you that you have to wait for me. You looked confused at me once again and made a 'eh?' face. I told you that from now one, I would love you more properly so you didn't have to worry and I just left to Donghae's room, leaving you standing there with a bright smile on your face.
After a week, I gave up. I couldn't stay away from it anymore. I didn't know how much my laptop meant for me until now. But I couldn't stop now! I have finally become a good boyfriend but still not the BEST! I can't give up now! You are way more important so I have to bear with it. I should just find a less addicting hobby, like... Finding a turtle to play with! There is no way someone could get addicted to that! I laughed to myself, but that change after Yesung plopped in my head. It is possible... for someone. I better not try that! He's so obsessed over his turtle that he broke up with ryeowook because he yelled at the turtle. Of course the made up again, but Ryeowook broke up with him again after a month. Still don't know why. I sighed. I still couldn't find a way to forget my laptop. I wanted it so badly... Maybe... NO! NO KYUHYUN! SUNGMIN IS MORE IMPORTANT! I sighed a heavy sigh again when you came into our room. You giggled as you saw me bored on the bed. You gestured for me to move a bit and sat next to me and smiled. You held my hand and asked me if it was working. I asked to you what and you answered with, did you finally found out how to love me properly. I looked at you and sighed my nth sigh of today. You laughed out loud and said I was stupid. I looked at you with terror all over my face. You told me I was stupid, since I already loved you properly, even if I'm always with my games. You told me I couldn't love you more and better than you already do, so I could already take my laptop back. I hesitated at first, but I could see from your sincere smile that you meant it. I was so happy, now that I knew how to properly love you. After that day, I never worried about our relation. Now that I realized that I properly loved you, everything around me began to shine. It became much more brighter now that I wouldn't have to feel insecure anymore. Everyday became another happiest day of my life. And life was wonderful. Just having you next to me made everything seem wonderful.
That smile, that everything,
I will protect it.
And I always be with you.
Time passed by quickly and yes, we still held each others hand tightly. We were still living everyday happily next to each other. Through all this time, something indeed changed. Not just one thing, tenths of them. Hangeng left us, we all cried still missing him even until now. Kangin had to go to the army and is almost coming back. Kibum has returned to Super Junior once again. Shindong and Nari are married together now. Leeteuk has become more brighter recently, because of KangIn's come back and he finally decided to confess now that he saw how his children are living happily with there lovers. Heechul has become less arrogant, but even so, he's still the most arrogant guy in the entertainment world... Yesung has told us he was becoming a dad of 2 new kids. We were all shocked by it, until we saw two little turtles in his hands and everyone laughed as they understood that it weren't real children. He was confused and Siwon patted his head, giving him a peck on the lips. What surprised everyone even more. Siwon confessed to Yesung and they became a couple. As for Ryeowook, he changed again to his old self. Not trying to break us up again. Eunhyuk and Donghae were still the same. Sill the kid couple of the group. Kibum and Changmin of dbsk, started to meet each other and became also a couple. Zhoumi and Henry came over every year and are soon going to live with us, though SJM isn't coming back. Of course a lot have changed about us to. We ended up loving each other more and more. We had many fights but always made up in a day. We didn't want to be separated anymore. We would make up in one day, since we already knew that we would be together forever, so why being stubborn and ignore each other for so long. And the most important thing that changed... I finally could make your dreams come true.
Today is our 5th anniversary. It's the day we've been together for 5 years now. And this is only the beginning of a eternity. We walked once again through the park as we do every anniversary. We went to a movie, eat lunch at the same cute café as always. We played on the playground. [of course your idea] We eat icecream and did a lot of other things. Just like the previous years. But today one thing will be different than all the other years. It will be way better than before. We walked over to the bench that was placed along the river side. We sad in silence, only looking in each others eyes. You smiles a genuine smile as you told me you loved me. Your smile,,, it's so beautiful. I looked at every side of your face and started looking at the rest of your body. And once again ended to your face again. I smiled gently at you as I thought how beautiful you are. I couldn't find even a little part that wasn't beautiful. You told me once again that you loved me and kissed me on my lips as I kissed you back. We stayed like that for a while and broke apart to breath properly. I looked at your lips that were curved in a smile. And once again I was in deep thoughts about your beautiful smile and how much it meant for me, how much it made my life so wonderful. You looked a bit disappointed, probably because I haven't told you I loved you back yet, though you told me twice. I told you to smile, but you were stubborn and pouted. I kissed your pouting lips and stood up and got down on my knee as I grabbed something out of my pocket. I held the pink box open and asked you the thing that made you tear up from happiness, that made you hug me tightly and exclaim the word 'yes' many times. Will you marry me? You looked up, deeply in my eyes while smiling that same beautiful smile. With teary eyes form happiness it looked even more beautiful. I told you 'My Minnie, Lee Sungmin, that smile..' I said while placing my hand on your left cheek, my thumb at the corner of your smiling lips and continued talking,'I will protect them...' I said softly in your ear now, 'And I will always... always be with you.'
-the end-
A/N: SO?? What did you think of it?? WAAAHH!! I hope you liked it!! I'm proud of it myself so~ It's not a fail Yaaay~~!!
maybe the proposal was a bit off, but I just didn't know how to end it!! I'm so sorry for that, but still hope all the readers like it!!
Pairing: KyuMin.
Genre: romance, fluff, slight!angst
Song: Be with you
Disclaimer: Same story as ever... don't own them...
Summary: A story of a never ending love.
a/N: A very late birthday fic for fanmin!! I'm happy you liked the part~~ Here is the first and second part in one, since it's better to read them at once!! I'm very happy with it myself, so I hope it will make you happy~! <3
Lined up on the pavement, our two shadows.
They stretch out as if they try to snuggle together.
You still remember? The day I finally confessed to you. I was so happy that day, the day you gladly returned my feelings. I was an idiot for being afraid to confess to you before. We walked along the pavement as we looked at the sun set together, it was so beautiful. not the sunset... No it was you what was so beautiful. You kept one giggling to yourself as we shared some glances. You told me to look at the ground as you smiled sweetly to me. I didn't get it at all at first. I saw nothing. No. That wasn't true. I did saw something. I saw our two shadows stretching out. It was as if they tried to snuggle together. I also smiled at the sight. You looked at me and said, 'Look. It's as if they're showing our true feelings.'
In the times of rush,
so that we won't be pulled along,
we held each others hand tightly.
It was our 200th days anniversary. We decided to spent the whole day outside. We went to a cute café to eat breakfast, watched a romantic movie at the cinema, bought ice cream as we made a stroll in the park, had dinner in a beautiful, small restaurant and later walked along the dark streets. Walking in a comfortable silence and enjoy each others presence. Not caring about the rushing time. It was almost 12 o'clock, unfortunaly. We saw a shooting star pass by in the sky. You held my hand tightly as you closed your eyes to make a wish, just like me. I wished for this time never to stop again. I wanted to make it last forever. I also held your hand tightly, so that we wouldn't be pulled along the rushing people. I wanted to hold you tightly so that you will never leave me.
Among the busy crowd,
in the middle of rushing people,
I can't help feeling sad,
so I called out your name.
It has been only a month, and it was already unbearable. I left with a few other members to China to promote the new sub-group, Super Junior M. I hated the fact that I was asked for it, I hated the fact that you encouraged me to go, I hated the fact that I had to be away from you for 8 months, I hated the fact that I had to miss you so much, I hated the fact that I could't touch you, hug you, kiss you anymore. But the thing that I hated the most was your face when I left. I couldn't bear it. You kept on being strong the whole time, you told me it would be all okay and that we would see each other after some months. That it wasn't that bad since we could still call each other. You smiled the whole time before I was leaving. Because of that, I told myself to be strong. That it would be okay, since my Minnie was okay. He was smiling, so I should just ignore all the sad and lonely nights that and be strong for Sungmin. But all those thoughts disappeared the moment I turned away to see your face for the last time before leaving. You were crying. Not just some tears, but a bunch of them. When you saw me looking back you were shocked and cried out loud and Leeteuk hugged you in comfort. He was worried about us. Not just you. I wanted to walk up to you, but I got pulled in the plane by the staff who were boarding with us. I couldn't stop crying. The tears overflowed as I watched your figure getting further and further away till I couldn't see it anymore after entering the plane. I sat on my seat and cried alone the whole trip.
Just like now... I walked along the cold streets of China. I missed you so much, that it hurts. It was an unbelievable pain. I kept on thinking about you the whole time. Everyday holding back my tears, and let them go at night. But today... I can't do it... I can't hold them back. The street was so busy, so many people all rushing and among that busy crowd of rushing people, was I, walking slowly, bumping into many rushing people. Crying, while not really knowing were to go. There was no other place I wanted to be other than by your side. The sadness and tears overflow. I couldn't help but feel sad, so I called out your name. As loud as I could, hoping that the pain would at least ease a bit. I fell on the ground while calling out your name many times until I felt a hand on my shoulder and was pulled in a hug. My eyes widened and I closed them afterwards. I thought, no I wished it was you... Even thought it was impossible. And I was right. It wasn't you, but Ryeowook. He hugged me tightly and told me not to cry. He told me that you wouldn't like it at all. [a/n sorry that this part is so long...]
All the sadness that can be seen in your eyes.
Those pains, let them be wiped away.
It's been 4 months now and I feel a lot better. Even though I still miss you a lot, I don't cry anymore. I realized that the time only seems to slow down like that. I only laughed an had fun now, so that we will meet each other soon again. But recently it seems to fade away again, after seeing your last performance. You didn't seem to well, and I'm worried about you. We've been so busy, that we can't even speak to each other. Whenever I'm free, you have a scedule and when you're free, I have schedule. That made it even harder. I want to wipe your sadness away, but I can't seem to find an opportunity. But after seeing todays show, I just had to make time! No matter who was in the way, I can't let you feel sad anymore. When they talked about us, SJM members, on a show, all the sadness could be seen in your eyes obviously. It was even worse than before. So I'm gonna call you today. I want those pains to be away, I will take them away.
The scent of the passing breeze that just blew.
Went toward a new season.
Look the colors are changing.
There is only one month left and I haven't spoke with you for more than a month now. It's the last day of autumn today. I'm walking together with Ryeowook, through a lovely park. Sungmin,,, I wish you were here. It's so beautiful. I want to watch it with you. I want to see your smile again. I didn't realize I just said that out loud so I giggled innocent as I looked weirdly at me. Ryeowook suddenly asked me if I was sure that you didn't forget me, that he didn't found a new lover in this time, since you haven't contacted me at all. He said that he didn't think you had still feelings for me. And then... he kissed me. I was shocked. I pushed him away immediately. I don't know why he did that, but I hated it, since I felt like cheating on you, like I betrayed you. I asked him why he did that and that those lips were only for Sungmin. He frowned at those words. And wanted to protest, but he suddenly stopped. The scent of the breeze that just blew was so familiar, It went toward the trees, and they suddenly seemed to bloom. It seemed as everything changed, as all the colors became brighter just because of the scent. It seemed as if you were there to make it more beautiful. I smiled and totally forgot Ryeowook for a moment. I shed one tear as I breathed the scent in, It felt so natural, I guess a new season has come. I go out of my trance as I heard someone giggle. It wasn't Ryeowook, I'm sure of it. The sound was softer and sweeter. It was the sound that I missed so much for the past half year. I turned away, only to wish that what I saw, wasn't a dream.
from here on part b:
The dreams that you left,
in the distant past.
I'll make them all come true.
I've been back for three weeks now and we already had a fight. Though it began with a little thing, it soon ended up in a huge, emotional mess. It was all my fault for not understanding you at all. We never talked about it before, but of course you would think about those things when we were away for months. Even though you visited once. I didn't think you would think back about your past dreams. All those dreams that you had to give up because of me. You told me I was selfish, only thinking about myself and my computer and that I was the worst for hanging around Ryeowook that much recently, now that he confessed to you. That you gave all your past dreams up, so that we could be together forever, living happily. That it was okay that he couldn't have a normal relationship, that you could never have adorable kids from which you dreamed of ever since you where little and that you couldn't marry like normal couples do. It broke my heart when you told me that. Especially because I knew it was true. I always wanted to give you all that, but I couldn't. I'm a man... I was so flustrated and just ignored it, so that you couldn't see me cry. I walked away from you when you yelled at me to leave your sight. I did as you told, but what an idiot was I. I could have known that you didn't want me to leave at all and that you needed my comfort right now. I regret it the moment I stepped out of the door and saw Ryeowook standing in front of me. He told me it was okay and wiped my, now falling tears, away. He wanted to give me a kiss once again, but that I was in a fight with Sungmin, didn't mean my feelings changed even a bit, so I pushed him away before he could reach my lips and told him to stop with this and that Sungmin was still the only one for me. I turned around and saw you standing in the door opening. I little small curved your lips as you entered the room again and locking the door. I could only stare at it as I looked to the place where you stood just now. Knowing that your feelings didn't change either.
And now after a week of not talking to each other and ignoring each others presence, you finally gave up, later than I thought. After finishing your recording you ran to our room and swung the door open. I look surprised at you as you pouted and threw yourself on me. I managed to put away my book on time besides me. You hugged me tightly as I sat up and hugged you back. You were sobbing and whining about how much you're sorry and that you love me the most. I chuckled at those words and caressed your hair. I told you it was my fault for being selfish. I told you that the dreams that you left in the past, I'll make them all come true someday, no matter how difficult it will be, because you are my everything, you are my love and I want them to come true no matter what.
Through the always flowing time,
something will surely change,
But we hold eternity in our hands.
So we can be stronger than anyone else.
Our fight already seems like forgotten as another week passed. We never brought the subject up again and just lived as we used to, before I left to China. Despite of our busy schedule, we went on a date, we watched movies at home, not really watching the movie, just cuddling with each other, giving sweet kisses and whisper sweet things to each other. We slept together in the same bed again. I missed those nights so much, where I hold you in my arms as you hug me softly and fall asleep as I sing a sweet song to you. I would still be up for some time and just stare at your beautiful, pretty sleeping face. For me, that was the most wonderful life I could have. I would never change it for anything else. Those sweet moments with you are the best, I know that won't change. I wonder why people can't understand it. I spoke with Ryeowook yesterday after our recording. He suddenly told me to break up with you, since things will change soon and he said he was sure that you couldn't make me happy in awhile. He said that what our relationship was now, was just a childish love and that it was nothing serious, that we should end it here, since it won't be any better than this and we have been already a long time together. I just smiled to the ground as I listened to him. He was right. Time always flows and our relationship hasn't even started yet. So I told him the truth. I told him that he was right, that the time is always flowing and that we still have a whole lifetime to spent together. I know that through the always flowing time something will change. But changes aren't always bad. Something will change, I'm already prepared for that, because that won't ever stop us, because we hold eternity in our hands. That's why we can be stronger than anyone else. We won't be separated by some changes.
No matter what our past may be,
no matter what tomorrow will be,
we'll share the future.
A month later we were invited to a family party. Your parents invited both of us and told us that the other members could also come. That's how we were in the car now heading to the party. Everyone was having fun and made jokes. We arrived at a huge mansion, with the biggest garden I every saw. I couldn't even believe that a mansion could be so big. We all realized that it was not just some party. Luckily we were all dressed formal, so we didn't have anything to be embarrassed about, until Donghae came with a question that made our worries even bigger. He asked if it would be okay to show that they were together. As is lovers, not friendship. You looked worried at him and then at me. We knew that your parents accepted it, even loved it, but what would those rich people think. They wouldn't accept it so easily. We all knew that. Leeteuk came with the decision that we wouldn't act like couples, just show each other brotherly love. He told us that everything would be okay like that. We all were disappointed including you and Leeteuk. Of course we wanted to be lovey-dovey with our loving ones, but we also understood that it could end as a disaster if we did. So we walked the mansion in normally and were grated by the host of the party. We immediately were also greeted by your parents and afterwards by all the other guests, since they all recognized us. All girls were around all the members, and we slowly got separated. No matter how much I wanted to get away from all those girls they just didn't want to go away. I searched for you as soon as they finally left, but couldn't find you. I looked around and saw you talking with a handsome guy. You didn't seem to happy with him, but you didn't seem the hate it either. Suddenly the boy came closer to your ear and wrapped an arm around your waist. I saw that you were shocked by him, but you didn't pull him away either. I wanted to walk over to you but then I saw the boy kiss you. My heart broke once again. At first you didn't pull apart, but pushed him away in the end. After that I couldn't see it anymore. A group of people blocked the way, and when I finally reached that place, you were gone, so was the guy.
I felt depressed. I searched trough the whole hall for you but couldn't find you or the unknown guy. I felt suddenly felt a hand on mine. I turned away on the hope it was you, but no. It wasn't you... It was Ryeowook. He said he was sorry and told me he saw you go upstairs with some guy. I knew it was him. Though my heart was aching, I still wanted to know if it was really that you were with another guy now, so I followed Ryeowook to the stairs he saw the two of you on. I walked upstairs and followed the long hall. I had no idea where to go, until I heard something. I felt a tear stroll down my face as recognized the sound, It was a moan and it was coming out of the room next to me. I was afraid to open the door. I was afraid that if I entered the room I would see you on another guy. That you were making love with a guy I don't know at all. But I had to. I had to open the door. I believed in you. I just knew that there was no way you would go to another guy. I knew you wouldn't cheat on me. But that changed when I opened the door. I opened it and my tears felt quickly as I saw you under another guy half naked. He held your hands as he kissed your neck while wearing only a boxer. I couldn't believe what I saw. I shouldn't have opened the door, I should've ignored it. I should just keep on believing in you. Now, I was sure you would break up with me for that man. I was sure that you would end it now. You called out my name in shock and sat up, crying. Your tears strolled down your face as quick as mine. I turned around and closed the door. That was when I realized you've been crying for a way longer time, when I opened the door you were already crying. I realized that you didn't want it at all from the start.
I felt relieved but still pained. I stood still on the half of the hall way with tears falling down my cheeks. I felt empty. I felt someone hugging me from behind. It was you. You were crying out loud and begging me for forgiveness. Begging me to forget it. Begging me for not leaving you. Was it bad of me? Feeling happy about it? I was happy that you weren't going to leave me. But I was still heartbroken by what I saw just now. So I grabbed your hands and pulled you away, without looking at you and walked away. I hated to do that, but I didn't know what else to do. You called out my name again and I could hear you fall on the ground. I couldn't leave you like that so I still turned away and walked up to you. You looked confused to me. You sobbed more and more and said sorry a thousand times. I bend down and caressed your cheeks. After that I hugged you tightly not wanting to let go anymore. I never wanted to let you go. But I still asked that question that was lingering in my head from the moment I saw that from just know. You were shocked and looked hurt when I asked you it. Asking you why. You were silent for awhile. but knew you had to tell me. You told me he knew about the both of us and would tell you about your past if you wouldn't sleep with him. He wanted to sleep with you out of revenge. You didn't want to do it, you didn't want to do such a thing with anyone other than me. But you were afraid I wouldn't want you if I broke up with you. In the end you didn't told me about your past but it was okay. I was fine with it since I knew you still loved me, that was enough. I told you that to, that it was okay. I told you that no matter what your past is, no matter what will still come ahead of us. We would share the future. And nobody and nothing could come between that.
Because I realized,
how to properly love someone,
everything I see starts to shine.
Until now, I was worried about our love. I was afraid that I didn't love you properly. Worried that you would leave my side soon, because you're fed up with me. We're are almost two years together and you haven't shown anything that comes close to breaking up. But that I don't see it, doesn't mean it isn't there. Recently you seem to pay less attention to me, since until now, I still play games almost all our free time, but you still stayed by my side, watching me as you sit next to me. But lately, you just come into the room to get something or just take a quick look at me and leave again. I felt bad for you for having such a stupid boyfriend, but that didn't seem to hold me back from playing games. I should definitely do something soon about this game obsession, or it will cost me my love. That's how I decided to do my laptop away. I gave it to Donghae who just broke his own. It was a hard decision to make, especially after seeing how Donghae's old laptop ended up to be. I sighed heavily as I grabbed my laptop and the charger and walked the room out with a depressed face. I bumped into someone on my way, and realized it was you. You asked me confused what I was going to do with my laptop. i sighed once again and told you it. Then your eyes widened wide open. you chuckled and put your hand on my forehead, asking if I was getting sick or soemthing. but I didn't laugh at all. I was dead serious about this. I made my decision, from now on I'm gonna be the best lover you could ever have and I'm gonna make you more happier, so that you will never, never leave me. I looked seriously at you and told you that you have to wait for me. You looked confused at me once again and made a 'eh?' face. I told you that from now one, I would love you more properly so you didn't have to worry and I just left to Donghae's room, leaving you standing there with a bright smile on your face.
After a week, I gave up. I couldn't stay away from it anymore. I didn't know how much my laptop meant for me until now. But I couldn't stop now! I have finally become a good boyfriend but still not the BEST! I can't give up now! You are way more important so I have to bear with it. I should just find a less addicting hobby, like... Finding a turtle to play with! There is no way someone could get addicted to that! I laughed to myself, but that change after Yesung plopped in my head. It is possible... for someone. I better not try that! He's so obsessed over his turtle that he broke up with ryeowook because he yelled at the turtle. Of course the made up again, but Ryeowook broke up with him again after a month. Still don't know why. I sighed. I still couldn't find a way to forget my laptop. I wanted it so badly... Maybe... NO! NO KYUHYUN! SUNGMIN IS MORE IMPORTANT! I sighed a heavy sigh again when you came into our room. You giggled as you saw me bored on the bed. You gestured for me to move a bit and sat next to me and smiled. You held my hand and asked me if it was working. I asked to you what and you answered with, did you finally found out how to love me properly. I looked at you and sighed my nth sigh of today. You laughed out loud and said I was stupid. I looked at you with terror all over my face. You told me I was stupid, since I already loved you properly, even if I'm always with my games. You told me I couldn't love you more and better than you already do, so I could already take my laptop back. I hesitated at first, but I could see from your sincere smile that you meant it. I was so happy, now that I knew how to properly love you. After that day, I never worried about our relation. Now that I realized that I properly loved you, everything around me began to shine. It became much more brighter now that I wouldn't have to feel insecure anymore. Everyday became another happiest day of my life. And life was wonderful. Just having you next to me made everything seem wonderful.
That smile, that everything,
I will protect it.
And I always be with you.
Time passed by quickly and yes, we still held each others hand tightly. We were still living everyday happily next to each other. Through all this time, something indeed changed. Not just one thing, tenths of them. Hangeng left us, we all cried still missing him even until now. Kangin had to go to the army and is almost coming back. Kibum has returned to Super Junior once again. Shindong and Nari are married together now. Leeteuk has become more brighter recently, because of KangIn's come back and he finally decided to confess now that he saw how his children are living happily with there lovers. Heechul has become less arrogant, but even so, he's still the most arrogant guy in the entertainment world... Yesung has told us he was becoming a dad of 2 new kids. We were all shocked by it, until we saw two little turtles in his hands and everyone laughed as they understood that it weren't real children. He was confused and Siwon patted his head, giving him a peck on the lips. What surprised everyone even more. Siwon confessed to Yesung and they became a couple. As for Ryeowook, he changed again to his old self. Not trying to break us up again. Eunhyuk and Donghae were still the same. Sill the kid couple of the group. Kibum and Changmin of dbsk, started to meet each other and became also a couple. Zhoumi and Henry came over every year and are soon going to live with us, though SJM isn't coming back. Of course a lot have changed about us to. We ended up loving each other more and more. We had many fights but always made up in a day. We didn't want to be separated anymore. We would make up in one day, since we already knew that we would be together forever, so why being stubborn and ignore each other for so long. And the most important thing that changed... I finally could make your dreams come true.
Today is our 5th anniversary. It's the day we've been together for 5 years now. And this is only the beginning of a eternity. We walked once again through the park as we do every anniversary. We went to a movie, eat lunch at the same cute café as always. We played on the playground. [of course your idea] We eat icecream and did a lot of other things. Just like the previous years. But today one thing will be different than all the other years. It will be way better than before. We walked over to the bench that was placed along the river side. We sad in silence, only looking in each others eyes. You smiles a genuine smile as you told me you loved me. Your smile,,, it's so beautiful. I looked at every side of your face and started looking at the rest of your body. And once again ended to your face again. I smiled gently at you as I thought how beautiful you are. I couldn't find even a little part that wasn't beautiful. You told me once again that you loved me and kissed me on my lips as I kissed you back. We stayed like that for a while and broke apart to breath properly. I looked at your lips that were curved in a smile. And once again I was in deep thoughts about your beautiful smile and how much it meant for me, how much it made my life so wonderful. You looked a bit disappointed, probably because I haven't told you I loved you back yet, though you told me twice. I told you to smile, but you were stubborn and pouted. I kissed your pouting lips and stood up and got down on my knee as I grabbed something out of my pocket. I held the pink box open and asked you the thing that made you tear up from happiness, that made you hug me tightly and exclaim the word 'yes' many times. Will you marry me? You looked up, deeply in my eyes while smiling that same beautiful smile. With teary eyes form happiness it looked even more beautiful. I told you 'My Minnie, Lee Sungmin, that smile..' I said while placing my hand on your left cheek, my thumb at the corner of your smiling lips and continued talking,'I will protect them...' I said softly in your ear now, 'And I will always... always be with you.'
-the end-
A/N: SO?? What did you think of it?? WAAAHH!! I hope you liked it!! I'm proud of it myself so~ It's not a fail Yaaay~~!!
maybe the proposal was a bit off, but I just didn't know how to end it!! I'm so sorry for that, but still hope all the readers like it!!