Growing Up Out of a Glass

[mikeybelcher]

Growing up sucks. We've heard it a million times. There's the constant working at boring, useless jobs, only to come home and be tired and need to go to bed in order to do it all over again. There's the friends you miss and the places you miss. There's the wrinkling of features and the aches in places you didn't know had a name

Comments

[thaone]

sounds like you are in love. it kinda makes me hard.

good for you man. i just realised, that i dont have the time for a boyfriend.

so that "sucks" right? or am i being tested...

i still have to watch the season finale of studio 60...

[gleefullygloomy]

It's always good to look back and realise that it wasn't so bad. Often times we get caught in the cycle of regretting and lamenting that we never really step back and say "You know what? All the stuff I went through made me who I am." And as long as you can remember what got you where you are today, then it was worth it :-)

[herenowhere3]

when i grow up i want to be you...
It never ceases to amaze me how clearly you see things and how deeply you feel them.

it's been a very long time since i've seen you name come across my f-page, i've missed you and your writing.

[mikeybelcher]

Oh my - that just shot me with a happy arrow! Thank you for saying something so amazing.

I still read your journal every chance I get - so you are never far from my thoughts. You are amazing my dear.

:) Mikey

increasingly complete

[perfectscore]

I have on few occasion quoted entire sentences from your livejournal entries to make myself look "deep."

You are one of the very few individuals in the blogosphere that writes things worth quoting - your word combinations just 'shzzing' (that word Jessica Biel's character in Rules of Attraction tells her friend she needs prozac for saying).
I just wanted to write this because if entries were judged on technical difficulty, like an olympic gymnastic event, you would always be a medal contender.

Re: increasingly complete

[mikeybelcher]

Wow - that really, really means a lot. You sure know how to make a guy feel all warm and fuzzy!!!

:) Mikey

[chinkieqban]

When growing up happens on your own terms, it's an amazing thing. You're living proof of that. But I think for most people, growin' up sucks because it's forced upon them by parents, necessity, or a combination of both. It doesn't make the experience any the less invaluable- just harder to embrace.

Then again, there are those of us who resist growing up because of deep-seeded insecurities. In the last few months I've become absolutely terrified of anything new and unexplored. I've forgotten what trying feels like.

In any case, always great to read what's on your mind 8)

[mikeybelcher]

Flash to me about a year ago. What's that I hear? Oh yeah, the "neener neener" of about a thousand airraid sirens, haha.

I have been a mess my whole life - full of insecurity and doubt and misguided illusions (and I still got a healthy dash of each of them left). That's what I mean about "growing up." I think growing up is the point where you start to bury those on your own terms. And growing up can happen at any time; at any age. And when it does happen, it'll be because you found a reason to try.

Or at least that's my take. Everyone is different. But in my fucked up life, this new peace of mind feels...right. It feels adult. I used to hate that word. But now I just think of it as a metaphor for how I feel.

God, I sound like an idiot. I probably could explain this better in person. But anyways, thanks for reading, and thanks for your comment. As always, you're a great guy.

:)