Open Letter to Rachel Bloom
Dear Rachel Bloom,
My name is Maria. I’m a 27 year old woman living in Belgium. I’m bisexual, polyamorous and happily married to my high school sweetheart. I work from home as a project manager for a translation company and once upon a time seriously considered a career as an accountant.
I am nothing like Rebecca Bunch.
Yet when I was 18 years old, I fled an unhappy life and moved to a city in a foreign country where they spoke a language I barely knew because I had fallen in love. Granted, I’d fallen in love with a city not a guy (and brought my girlfriend with me), but love is love and I was convinced it would make me happy. I quite often make no sense. I struggle with borderline personality disorder, and a lot of Rebecca’s struggles are mine.
In all the ways that count, I am exactly like Rebecca Bunch.
One of my favourite moments of the series so far was when Heather told her classroom: “I don’t wanna label her. I just wanna be her friend.” This was quite the eye opener for me. When people get to know Rebecca, they don’t want to run the other way, they want to get closer. People care about Rebecca!
And more importantly - I care about Rebecca. To the point that during some episodes I can hardly breathe because I want things to go well for her. I desperately want her to be happy. When her entire life fell apart and her inner refrain of “You stupid bitch” sounded, I just wanted to hold her and tell her everything would be okay.
Slowly, episode by episode, I started to realise that if I’m Rebecca, which is something I feel quite strongly about, and I care about Rebecca… The logical conclusion would be to start caring about myself, and want the same things for me - happiness, love, acceptance - that I so desperately want for her.
And so a show called Crazy Ex-Girlfriend taught me how to love myself. I’m not there yet - but every time I rewatch a scene, or listen to one of the songs, or recognize something in my life that reminds me of Rebecca, I’m reminded of it.
Your show is quite literally changing my life.
Thank you.
Maria
Oh, LJ and DW, I love you both. Thank you for keeping my social life, well, alive. Feel free to comment on either site.
My name is Maria. I’m a 27 year old woman living in Belgium. I’m bisexual, polyamorous and happily married to my high school sweetheart. I work from home as a project manager for a translation company and once upon a time seriously considered a career as an accountant.
I am nothing like Rebecca Bunch.
Yet when I was 18 years old, I fled an unhappy life and moved to a city in a foreign country where they spoke a language I barely knew because I had fallen in love. Granted, I’d fallen in love with a city not a guy (and brought my girlfriend with me), but love is love and I was convinced it would make me happy. I quite often make no sense. I struggle with borderline personality disorder, and a lot of Rebecca’s struggles are mine.
In all the ways that count, I am exactly like Rebecca Bunch.
One of my favourite moments of the series so far was when Heather told her classroom: “I don’t wanna label her. I just wanna be her friend.” This was quite the eye opener for me. When people get to know Rebecca, they don’t want to run the other way, they want to get closer. People care about Rebecca!
And more importantly - I care about Rebecca. To the point that during some episodes I can hardly breathe because I want things to go well for her. I desperately want her to be happy. When her entire life fell apart and her inner refrain of “You stupid bitch” sounded, I just wanted to hold her and tell her everything would be okay.
Slowly, episode by episode, I started to realise that if I’m Rebecca, which is something I feel quite strongly about, and I care about Rebecca… The logical conclusion would be to start caring about myself, and want the same things for me - happiness, love, acceptance - that I so desperately want for her.
And so a show called Crazy Ex-Girlfriend taught me how to love myself. I’m not there yet - but every time I rewatch a scene, or listen to one of the songs, or recognize something in my life that reminds me of Rebecca, I’m reminded of it.
Your show is quite literally changing my life.
Thank you.
Maria
Oh, LJ and DW, I love you both. Thank you for keeping my social life, well, alive. Feel free to comment on either site.