why don't you notice me (10/?)
Title : why don’t you notice me?
Author : midori_013
Pairing : inoobu, yabudai, takanoo
Rating : PG
Genre : romance, friendship, angst
Warning : i made kei and daiki become girl here, don’t read it if you don’t like it :-), and too much grammatical error coz i am not good in english m(_ _)m
Summary : yabu, daiki, dan inoo are childhood friend. Yabu loves daiki, and inoo loves yabu, and this is their loves journey *suck at summary*
Kota POV
Maybe this is my revenge because i can’t recognize you when the first time we met, although i told you that i will recognize you.
I don’t know why i should have been approaching dai-chan when we were in airport that time. but this is not my fault, right? because you never show me your picture and when you send an email to me you use the dai-chan’s name.
Ah, but still this is my faults because i didn’t recognize you when the first time we met. I was fascinated by the beauty of dai-chan,with her long straight brown hair, cute, and very interesting. I didn’t notice you who just standing beside dai-chan from earlier, smiling brightly toward me. I’m stupid, right?
“inoo-chan, inoo-chan right?” i look suprised when suddenly you have talked with me, and I didn’t notice that your face changed because I just recognized you, that time there was only daiki in my mind.
“ hai yabu-kun, hisashiburi.” You said to me with your bitter smile, and still i don’t recognize it.
“ah hisashiburi inoo-chan. It’s been a while. You’re look great too ne inoo-chan, same like my dai-chan. Thank you for always take care of her until now ne inoo-chan.” That’s time how greatfull i was cause you always took care of dai-chan, and i just reached out my hand as sign my gratefull to you. Then you took my hand and shaked it, but i loosened my hand from your smooth hand and faced dai-chan again. But still i don’t recognize that you must be feel the pain when you sees me looking at dai-chan, lovingly.
And the first day in our school, how happy i am cause i became your class mate, but still i feel gloomy cause i can’t be dai-chans class mate. Then i asked you who sat behind me where dai-chans class is, hopes that i can find her when we have a break time.
“she is in 3-3, it’s beside our class yabu-kun” you said to me with your bitter smile, but still there only dai-chan in my mind that time, and i don’t recognize your bitter smile. I just faced our teacher again after i knew where dai-chans class is.
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The next day, i asked you to go home with me because dai-chan had a dance practice that time, and because i still don’t have a friend in this school except you. You nodded as sign that you wanna go home together with me.
But how suprised i was when you know that i loved oden so much. You invited me to eat oden that time. I wondered why you could know that my favorite food was oden. then I asked you where did you know that I really like oden.
“ah, i know it from dai-chan, she told me before yabu-kun”, you always said that you know everything about me from dai-chan. And that time I still did not realize that you're the one who has been sent an email to me. I am stupid, right?
and you know, how stupid I was when I reached out my hand to you as a sign that I want to be friends with you. But you just smile and reply my hand and said “yes i will be your friend from now on”
but I do not know what made me invite you to accompany me to buy the book at that time when we just on the way home after eating oden, I do not know why I was so fit with you, and I feel comfortable making friends with you. probably because you know all about me and maybe because you really understand me. But still i didn’t notice you.
and the next day at the bookstore, I headed over to the novel shelf and find harry potter books there. because I have found what I want, I asked you to go out from this bookstore. when we walked to the cashier, i can hear my favorite song, and once again I was very surprised because you know that I really like that song. And still you said that you know it cause dai-chan told you before.
after paying the book, I invite you to go to a jewelry store. I want to buy daiki a ring, and want to listen an opinion from you. but suddenly dai-chan called me, and make me leave you alone in that store. that moment I felt very guilty and always thinking of you even when I was with dai-chan at the time. I do not know what made me think of you, but it may be true that the love and heart can not be deceived. and then from that day I became interested in you.
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and that day comes, the day when I know that you're the one that had been sent emails to me. how angry I am, as I know that you lied to me during this time. I could not hold my anger and make me say a little rude to you. but you just keep quiet and not say anything.
“Although I never saw you and never see your photos , I'm sure when the first time we meet I will directly recognize you, you still remember that words kou? You still remember it? you know, i really hope that you will recognize me when the first time we met. But you just don’t notice me. You choose daiki cause daiki more beautiful than me. You hugged her and you don’t notice me at all. It’s really hurt kou, it’s really hurt me kou. that’s why i don’t told you about the emails.” You burst all of your feeling, and your tears fall down from your eyes.
That time I felt so stupid and felt very guilty to you. I feel guilty for not recognizing you from the first time we met because I was too fascinated with dai-chan. but I just like the person who sent the email to me for 11 years and that was you.
but you just said that it was too late and left me alone in that music room. I paused for a moment, but then I ran after you and hug you from behind. I do not want to let go of you because I love you. only you that I love for 11 years not dai-chan. Please accepted my feeling towards you. suddenly I kissed you and how shocked I was because you kissed me back. This is the first time i kissed you, your smooth lips and makes me wanna taste your lips again. to me all of this is not too late, we will tell daiki about our feeling and we will start it over again.
“i love you kei, and this is not too late”
~~~~~~~
but the happiness was gone after we know that daiki hospitalized, and I do not know what makes you not tell about our feelings to dai-chan. I know that daiki start loving me. but kei, I just love you and I can not lie to my feelings. And i can’t love dai-chan and accept her feeling toward me.
since the day you decide to release me for daiki, I do not know what makes me angry to you. since that day I did not greet you and talk with you. yes, I'm angry. I'm angry with you because you prefer daiki than me. and you did not understand my feelings.
maybe I'm too selfish, because I do not want to let go of you. but kei, my heart can not lie. I will not be able to love daiki again after i know that you who sent emails to me.
You look paler day by day, I want to hug you, hug you and kiss you. make you feel comfortable and calm. but nonetheless, my angry feelings towards you are still in my heart. and how stupid I am for not reach you when you need me. I'm sorry kei.
and there is a day I heard that you fainted, I am very worry and at that moment I ran to the school clinic to see how about your condition. but when I entered I heard you mention a person's name. Takaki, who is takaki kei? I approached you and put my hand to your forehead, want to check how your temperature. I cupped your face with both of my hands, how i really miss your soft skin kei. But suddenly You let go of my hand from your face and asks me to get out of this room.
I can only be silent and obey what you want. I got out from that room and wait for you outside the room until you fall asleep. and when I walked into the room once again, I see you've been asleep. I approached your bed and sit next to your bed. I hold your hand and stroke your hair. I really miss you kei, forgive me, have made you become like this.
I approached you and kissed your forehead, and then get out of this room and hope you will recover soon.
“ I am so sorry kei.”
~~~~~~~
Today daiki asks me to go on a date with her, but i can’t answer her cause i can’t accept her feeling. But how shocked i was when suddenly you approach me after our lesson finished. I was happy when you approached me kei, but i was wrong. You approached me cause you wanna ask me to go on date with dai-chan. I just can be silent after heard what you said to me, and i can’t say anything. I just be silent and wanna leave you alone in this class. But suddenly you grabs my hand and make me faced you. You begging me to accept dai-chan invitation. Why you never considered with my feeling kei. And now i can’t stand to see you crying in front of me. I approach you and tell you that i will go on date with dai-chan, but i wanna you to go to with us too kei. And i just leave you alone in the class.
“i love you so much kei, please consider with my feeling”
And maybe this is my revenge ne kei, cause i never approach you and never recognize you. In our appointment day, you brought someone who name takaki. Is he the same person with the person who you called before in the clinic room? What your relationship with him? I can’t think clearly that day cause a lot of question in my mind about this takaki person.
Suddenly he told me that you are so cute. Yes kei, you are so cute and beautiful to me. I don’t know what i was thinking now. On the way to the cinema i just told him everything about you. i don’t know why i must told him about you, but maybe i just getting jealous and tell him that you are mine and i really love you. ne kei, i was so selfish ne? I just told him that i really love you.
But still this is my revenge ne, cause in the way back home i found something which made me feel so much pain. After i drove daiki home, i don’t know what make my step to go to your place. I just wanna meet you and tell you that i can’t accept dai-chan feeling cause i really love you, and i always do.
But once again i tell you kei, this is my revenge cause i just sees you hold him tightly and crying into his embraced. I don’t know why i feel so much pain in my heart, i just walked away from your house and leave you alone with him.
“i know this is my revenge and i’m so sorry if i never notice you in the first time we met. But you know kei, that i really love you and i always do”
---TBC----
Author : midori_013
Pairing : inoobu, yabudai, takanoo
Rating : PG
Genre : romance, friendship, angst
Warning : i made kei and daiki become girl here, don’t read it if you don’t like it :-), and too much grammatical error coz i am not good in english m(_ _)m
Summary : yabu, daiki, dan inoo are childhood friend. Yabu loves daiki, and inoo loves yabu, and this is their loves journey *suck at summary*
Kota POV
Maybe this is my revenge because i can’t recognize you when the first time we met, although i told you that i will recognize you.
I don’t know why i should have been approaching dai-chan when we were in airport that time. but this is not my fault, right? because you never show me your picture and when you send an email to me you use the dai-chan’s name.
Ah, but still this is my faults because i didn’t recognize you when the first time we met. I was fascinated by the beauty of dai-chan,with her long straight brown hair, cute, and very interesting. I didn’t notice you who just standing beside dai-chan from earlier, smiling brightly toward me. I’m stupid, right?
“inoo-chan, inoo-chan right?” i look suprised when suddenly you have talked with me, and I didn’t notice that your face changed because I just recognized you, that time there was only daiki in my mind.
“ hai yabu-kun, hisashiburi.” You said to me with your bitter smile, and still i don’t recognize it.
“ah hisashiburi inoo-chan. It’s been a while. You’re look great too ne inoo-chan, same like my dai-chan. Thank you for always take care of her until now ne inoo-chan.” That’s time how greatfull i was cause you always took care of dai-chan, and i just reached out my hand as sign my gratefull to you. Then you took my hand and shaked it, but i loosened my hand from your smooth hand and faced dai-chan again. But still i don’t recognize that you must be feel the pain when you sees me looking at dai-chan, lovingly.
And the first day in our school, how happy i am cause i became your class mate, but still i feel gloomy cause i can’t be dai-chans class mate. Then i asked you who sat behind me where dai-chans class is, hopes that i can find her when we have a break time.
“she is in 3-3, it’s beside our class yabu-kun” you said to me with your bitter smile, but still there only dai-chan in my mind that time, and i don’t recognize your bitter smile. I just faced our teacher again after i knew where dai-chans class is.
~~~~~~~
The next day, i asked you to go home with me because dai-chan had a dance practice that time, and because i still don’t have a friend in this school except you. You nodded as sign that you wanna go home together with me.
But how suprised i was when you know that i loved oden so much. You invited me to eat oden that time. I wondered why you could know that my favorite food was oden. then I asked you where did you know that I really like oden.
“ah, i know it from dai-chan, she told me before yabu-kun”, you always said that you know everything about me from dai-chan. And that time I still did not realize that you're the one who has been sent an email to me. I am stupid, right?
and you know, how stupid I was when I reached out my hand to you as a sign that I want to be friends with you. But you just smile and reply my hand and said “yes i will be your friend from now on”
but I do not know what made me invite you to accompany me to buy the book at that time when we just on the way home after eating oden, I do not know why I was so fit with you, and I feel comfortable making friends with you. probably because you know all about me and maybe because you really understand me. But still i didn’t notice you.
and the next day at the bookstore, I headed over to the novel shelf and find harry potter books there. because I have found what I want, I asked you to go out from this bookstore. when we walked to the cashier, i can hear my favorite song, and once again I was very surprised because you know that I really like that song. And still you said that you know it cause dai-chan told you before.
after paying the book, I invite you to go to a jewelry store. I want to buy daiki a ring, and want to listen an opinion from you. but suddenly dai-chan called me, and make me leave you alone in that store. that moment I felt very guilty and always thinking of you even when I was with dai-chan at the time. I do not know what made me think of you, but it may be true that the love and heart can not be deceived. and then from that day I became interested in you.
~~~~~~~
and that day comes, the day when I know that you're the one that had been sent emails to me. how angry I am, as I know that you lied to me during this time. I could not hold my anger and make me say a little rude to you. but you just keep quiet and not say anything.
“Although I never saw you and never see your photos , I'm sure when the first time we meet I will directly recognize you, you still remember that words kou? You still remember it? you know, i really hope that you will recognize me when the first time we met. But you just don’t notice me. You choose daiki cause daiki more beautiful than me. You hugged her and you don’t notice me at all. It’s really hurt kou, it’s really hurt me kou. that’s why i don’t told you about the emails.” You burst all of your feeling, and your tears fall down from your eyes.
That time I felt so stupid and felt very guilty to you. I feel guilty for not recognizing you from the first time we met because I was too fascinated with dai-chan. but I just like the person who sent the email to me for 11 years and that was you.
but you just said that it was too late and left me alone in that music room. I paused for a moment, but then I ran after you and hug you from behind. I do not want to let go of you because I love you. only you that I love for 11 years not dai-chan. Please accepted my feeling towards you. suddenly I kissed you and how shocked I was because you kissed me back. This is the first time i kissed you, your smooth lips and makes me wanna taste your lips again. to me all of this is not too late, we will tell daiki about our feeling and we will start it over again.
“i love you kei, and this is not too late”
~~~~~~~
but the happiness was gone after we know that daiki hospitalized, and I do not know what makes you not tell about our feelings to dai-chan. I know that daiki start loving me. but kei, I just love you and I can not lie to my feelings. And i can’t love dai-chan and accept her feeling toward me.
since the day you decide to release me for daiki, I do not know what makes me angry to you. since that day I did not greet you and talk with you. yes, I'm angry. I'm angry with you because you prefer daiki than me. and you did not understand my feelings.
maybe I'm too selfish, because I do not want to let go of you. but kei, my heart can not lie. I will not be able to love daiki again after i know that you who sent emails to me.
You look paler day by day, I want to hug you, hug you and kiss you. make you feel comfortable and calm. but nonetheless, my angry feelings towards you are still in my heart. and how stupid I am for not reach you when you need me. I'm sorry kei.
and there is a day I heard that you fainted, I am very worry and at that moment I ran to the school clinic to see how about your condition. but when I entered I heard you mention a person's name. Takaki, who is takaki kei? I approached you and put my hand to your forehead, want to check how your temperature. I cupped your face with both of my hands, how i really miss your soft skin kei. But suddenly You let go of my hand from your face and asks me to get out of this room.
I can only be silent and obey what you want. I got out from that room and wait for you outside the room until you fall asleep. and when I walked into the room once again, I see you've been asleep. I approached your bed and sit next to your bed. I hold your hand and stroke your hair. I really miss you kei, forgive me, have made you become like this.
I approached you and kissed your forehead, and then get out of this room and hope you will recover soon.
“ I am so sorry kei.”
~~~~~~~
Today daiki asks me to go on a date with her, but i can’t answer her cause i can’t accept her feeling. But how shocked i was when suddenly you approach me after our lesson finished. I was happy when you approached me kei, but i was wrong. You approached me cause you wanna ask me to go on date with dai-chan. I just can be silent after heard what you said to me, and i can’t say anything. I just be silent and wanna leave you alone in this class. But suddenly you grabs my hand and make me faced you. You begging me to accept dai-chan invitation. Why you never considered with my feeling kei. And now i can’t stand to see you crying in front of me. I approach you and tell you that i will go on date with dai-chan, but i wanna you to go to with us too kei. And i just leave you alone in the class.
“i love you so much kei, please consider with my feeling”
And maybe this is my revenge ne kei, cause i never approach you and never recognize you. In our appointment day, you brought someone who name takaki. Is he the same person with the person who you called before in the clinic room? What your relationship with him? I can’t think clearly that day cause a lot of question in my mind about this takaki person.
Suddenly he told me that you are so cute. Yes kei, you are so cute and beautiful to me. I don’t know what i was thinking now. On the way to the cinema i just told him everything about you. i don’t know why i must told him about you, but maybe i just getting jealous and tell him that you are mine and i really love you. ne kei, i was so selfish ne? I just told him that i really love you.
But still this is my revenge ne, cause in the way back home i found something which made me feel so much pain. After i drove daiki home, i don’t know what make my step to go to your place. I just wanna meet you and tell you that i can’t accept dai-chan feeling cause i really love you, and i always do.
But once again i tell you kei, this is my revenge cause i just sees you hold him tightly and crying into his embraced. I don’t know why i feel so much pain in my heart, i just walked away from your house and leave you alone with him.
“i know this is my revenge and i’m so sorry if i never notice you in the first time we met. But you know kei, that i really love you and i always do”
---TBC----