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i cant do this, i cant even go out and have fun.
i was doing so well for a while.
i was going out and having fun and meeting new people.
then he came back, he strung me along, he got what he wanted, then he left.
that is the story of my life...

went dancing tonight.
it was fun.
thought about that boy all night...
i dont know, i just cant seem to face that there is never gonig to be anything between us again.
as much as i want it...
he doesnt.
i guess i will be waiting...
waiting til the end of time.

went to a party tonight.
drank a bit, and met new people.
thought it would ease the pain...
it didnt.
it just made me miss him even more...

im so lost.
i wish i knew what to do...
i want the happiness back.

have a happy christmas everyone. i hope you get everything you wanted, i know i did.
:)

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

i hate feeling so helpless...

tonight was a good night...

have a happy and healthy thanksgiving everyone.
take care and be safe.