[Filter: Private; Ayothayan]At least I didn't expect much this time. You'll never change. I think that's always been your best quality
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[Filter: Siri]semperfinisNovember 24 2006, 22:13:48 UTC
[False starts scribbled out go here!]
No.
I'm the one that needs to apologize. Beg forgivenes, even. I said a lot of things that were cruel and unfair.
I did what I did to him because I felt sick to my stomach about what he kept saying to you, how he kept disrespecting you and everybody else at every turn... and then I turn around and say the same things because you, out of the kindness in your heart, protect someone weaker than you.
I won't lie to you. I still believe he's scum. But even scum like that deserve better than what I gave him. And you certainly deserve better than what I gave you.
I just wish that sometimes you could see that you also deserve better than what you give yourself.
[Filter: Arden]breaksowellNovember 24 2006, 22:47:29 UTC
[ditto on the false starts]It's nice of you to say those things. Too nice for you to say them, actually, after what you did. I've been so confused. I can't fit you together, the things you say and the things you've done for me and the things you've done to others. It makes me glad that we stopped where we did. I can't get attached to another stranger
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[Filter: Siri]semperfinisNovember 25 2006, 00:42:23 UTC
You may believe that what I said was me lying if it makes things fit better in your mind. That's fine. I've never paid much attention to what others may think of me.
But I do want you to know that I'm looking forward to holding our child in my arms, and that I will do my best to remain on the straight and narrow, for the sake of that child.
[Filter: Nora Lein]driftwood_smileNovember 24 2006, 22:57:34 UTC
Help? You call what you did help? Ha! You had to come to me to assuage your own guilt after you sent your insipid lover to attack me. Do not act selfless, Nora.
[Filter: Marlene]breaksowellNovember 25 2006, 03:13:27 UTC
You don't have to thank me! I've just been worried sick over everyone. I wish I could've done more to help.
You should visit there sometime with him. I'm sure they'd love to meet you; my parents always get so excited when I bring new people home. People back home like to make sure everyone feels welcome.
I was, too. I'm so glad I got the chance to go and do something about it, or I would have driven myself crazy with worry.
I'd like to. I think it's some kind of matter of pride for him, though. He hasn't contacted his parents since he left Ayothaya.
Einbroch is all right, for the most part. Einbech was just decimated, though, from what I've seen and heard. I never really liked Einbech much, but this just makes me feel guilty.
[Filter: Marlene]breaksowellNovember 25 2006, 05:01:53 UTC
All your schooling finally became useful in real life? That must be nice.
Oh, he left home on bad terms? A visit to Ayothaya would still be nice, even without seeing his parents. You could drop through Kunlun and Louyang on your way.
The mining city? How horrible. It was in such bad condition to begin with. I wonder if this will finally bring the government to their senses and force them to clean it up.
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No.
I'm the one that needs to apologize. Beg forgivenes, even. I said a lot of things that were cruel and unfair.
I did what I did to him because I felt sick to my stomach about what he kept saying to you, how he kept disrespecting you and everybody else at every turn... and then I turn around and say the same things because you, out of the kindness in your heart, protect someone weaker than you.
I won't lie to you. I still believe he's scum. But even scum like that deserve better than what I gave him. And you certainly deserve better than what I gave you.
I just wish that sometimes you could see that you also deserve better than what you give yourself.
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But I do want you to know that I'm looking forward to holding our child in my arms, and that I will do my best to remain on the straight and narrow, for the sake of that child.
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I'm looking forward to that, too. Only a few more months.
Just don't hurt anyone else for me or the baby and that will be enough.
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Ayothaya was a lovely place. I just wish I'd been able to stay longer, perhaps talk Arun into letting me meet his parents.
I'm glad we were able to get there in time, before things got too bad.
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You should visit there sometime with him. I'm sure they'd love to meet you; my parents always get so excited when I bring new people home. People back home like to make sure everyone feels welcome.
Me too. Is Einbroch safe?
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I'd like to. I think it's some kind of matter of pride for him, though. He hasn't contacted his parents since he left Ayothaya.
Einbroch is all right, for the most part. Einbech was just decimated, though, from what I've seen and heard. I never really liked Einbech much, but this just makes me feel guilty.
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Oh, he left home on bad terms? A visit to Ayothaya would still be nice, even without seeing his parents. You could drop through Kunlun and Louyang on your way.
The mining city? How horrible. It was in such bad condition to begin with. I wonder if this will finally bring the government to their senses and force them to clean it up.
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