Comments | michiko147: "to live is disease, All of us die with it."

michiko147

"to live is disease, All of us die with it."

Mar 12, 2009 21:12

It's only been six months since my grandpa died.
Last night, my other Grandpa, Papa Marcos, died.
I've already lost three grandparents: My (step grandpa), Grandpa Lee, my mom's father and my dad's father, now.
I think my grandma. Mama Lita, will die now, too. She always said that if my Papa Marcos goes, she will leave not so long after.
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emveytrend March 13 2009, 03:03:09 UTC

I felt that way sitting in the hospital......michi i wish you didn't have to feel that but your right in the end we only have ourselves........and we have to deal

michiko147 March 14 2009, 02:24:22 UTC

Yeah. I haven't felt like a teenager for a long time.
However, I suppose I can't be bitter about life because it just happened to ruffle my feathers.

tomandakaulitz March 13 2009, 10:39:04 UTC

hmmm.... well i remember when my grandpa died last september at first i didn't feel anything ( just like you are describing)... then a wave of emotion hit me all out once... and i don't think there is ANYTHING wrong with someone who doesn't react the way people expect... idk saying one only has themself is kinda depressing... i like to think that there are people you trust enough to talk about your problems...

michiko147 March 14 2009, 02:27:50 UTC

What I mean about only having our self is that most of the time I think I am not enough, or I am too much. I suppose, though, that if we were either of the two, we could not exist. Therefor, we have to be enough.

On the other hand, I hardly think that there are many sincere, and meaningful relationships in life. It is depressing, but when you are constantly fighting, you eventually get tired and the positivity fades.