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[mica_mirrors]

Hey, everybody.  It's been a long, hard few months and I figured I should update those of you who don't know about it.

I applied to 11 grad schools; I've been rejected from 10 and am expecting my last rejection letter any day now.  It's been a huge blow.  I didn't write for months, longer than I've ever gone without writing since I was 11 or so.  I'

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[mica_mirrors]

thanks. you're always sweet. mostly they're the sort of problems that I need to just plow through, just keep going, so I haven't really felt that talking would help. But it's good to feel supported by friends, so thanks for that.

[mica_mirrors]

:) thanks for making me smile.

[dusky]

:hug:
It sounds as if you've been through so much upheaval lately; but the best that I can say is that your gut instincts are good, better than advice I could give.
Please do have a housewarming gathering at some point in May :) or I may just have to drop by anyhow. Take care.

[mica_mirrors]

How have YOU been? It's been so long! Did you get into the grad program you wanted? I think I remember you saying you won't be around for the summer, but if you are for part of it, I'll be nice and close, in Woburn. It would be wonderful to see you; I miss you!
(speaking of which, if you're back in lexington now... wanna help us move on saturday? Or come by to see the new place and hang out any day after?)

We will be having a housewarming party, but we're already booked for every weekend in may, so we'll have to try to snag a date in june before they're all taken up too. Summer's always busy!

and damn, I sure hope my instincts are good! they're getting me through, anyway.

[_shedonist_]

I was just thinking of calling you tonight to see how you are. I realized it was too late, but I see this which at least fills me in on the stuff I missed.

I'm so sorry to hear about grad school. Of all the stuff you mentioned above, I know this must have been the toughest part. On the good (but greedy) side, I was worried about missing you when you left for grad school and now I can instead look forward to visiting your new place in Woburn.

Good luck with the move on Saturday! Hugs!

[mica_mirrors]

yeah, the rejections really made me doubt myself and for awhile, it really didn't help to talk about it. I just tried to stay busy. Now I've just started writing again and told my references what happened. They were all amazing and so supportive. I saw the last one today and he said that, luckily, you don't need an mfa to be a writer! He also told me about his experiences with grad programs and people in admissions, that it really is more about luck and the mood of the person reading it, than merit. And that the pool of students really varies year by year - some years they have more great students than they could possibly accept, and some years they accept students not as good as ones rejected the year before.
It hurts, but the pain will fade with time. And I really think the move will help me get on with my life.

[liam_earthsong]

*hug* The life of a writer. I'm sorry to hear all this has happened, but I have no doubt that you're right -- this will be good for you -- hard times nourish a writer's soul, don't they?

I got a rejection too. It does feel personal, at *first*. But I found something better, and I'm sure you will too. You know what to do... keep writing.

I was going to mention... and then I wasn't... and then I thought maybe I should anyway... Goddard's low-residency (rolling admissions) MFA program. Maybe this and this could be helpful sometime in the near or distant future.

I wish I could get a tutoring job like that. Wow. What would you be tutoring?

I was just thinking about and listening to a radio show about Otto Rank today. He was Anais Nin's lover and she was really supportive of his work. He writes about the neurotic as the failed artist, and that's really basic to his thought. It was interesting to see how these ideas are in her writing as well.

[mica_mirrors]

I haven't been on LJ in ages, so I can't say I know what's going on with you. Wanna catch me up a bit? What are you doing

[liam_earthsong]

I just like throwing out possibilities when I can. I like brainstorming. If someone is benefited by even one of the suggestions I throw out, it's worth it. :)

Sure, send me the ad. I actually wouldn't mind tutoring delinquents. I like a challenge and it would be a good experience. I've had good luck tutoring problem kids in the past. It's been a while since I've done math stuff, but yeah, send the info my way.

The last few months have mostly been occupied with grad school stuff: applying, visiting schools, writing out study plans and personal statements, digging deeper into subjects I want to explore in grad school. I went to Goddard a couple weeks ago and loved everything about the place. I'm planning to go there for an MA in Education in Individualized Studies. My inspiration for that can be found in my personal statement. I'm really excited. This is what I've always wanted to do, but somehow, it never occurred to me that I actually *could

[sandprints]

OH MY GOD I MISS YOU!!!!

Hey girl, I'm sorry things have been so hard for you lately. Despite everything you always impress me with your new revalations. The fact that you're willing to grow and change so intensley every time is so heartening to me. Growth fucking hurts anyway you look at it but it's essential to healing and so important to one's 'craft' (your writing, my art.)

Your sense of deep spirtualism always inspires me and I miss not being around you to remind me of that other world. I would like to see you on LJ more for my own selfish reasons of wanting to still feel connected to you and Ron's life.

I miss you a million, love you to death and beyond and I'm always rooting for you. *crazy hugs*

~Rosie

[mica_mirrors]

Rosie, you kick so much ass! I love you and I miss you too! And thank you. Everything you wrote here is beautiful and comforting. It helps to be reminded that I am coping well, even inspiring others in how to do so. And it really helps to feel appreciated even when things aren't going well. This really brightened my day. And I will be on LJ more... soon. Don't know when just yet.
Are you going to Burning Man? It would be so wonderful to see you there!
I love you! Hope you're doing well. Haven't read anybody else's LJ either, but it'd be nice if you'd write me how you're doing...

I love you again!
erica

[sandprints]

Not this year. :( I just can't afford Burning Man right now... but one've these years I will so be there and we'll have a blast.

I'm doing... I'm learning A LOT... and it hurts but it's amazing too. I miss my friends. The desert does not so much agree with me. Did you know it's really hot here? What craziness! :P

Love you a million.