That's what friends are for

[mewmewmew_]

FUCK :
Is the extremely immature and unintelligible word I would like to say right now in large font similar to this, but it's not really my style.

However I really do feel the need to express how I have no way of expressing myself the way I need to. I can't talk about my feelings to friends, to family, to here or anywhere else. I have no one who I

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[mathwhiz78]

i heart you, kite.

you have my number. or you can just show up and get hugs. either way.

[mewmewmew_]

Thanks Mike. I know you're always there for me. A lot of people are, even if they aren't here. I just find it more difficult to talk to people that aren't right here in front of me, because they're less likely to know what's going on in my general day-to-day life, you know? To express one little feeling may require a full hour-long story to explain it all in a way that's really understandable to the context of the feeling.

[mewmewmew_]

However sometimes just a hug alone can do wonders :)

[mathwhiz78]

my address is in my fb. text me when you're close and i'll tell you where the keys are so you can let yourself in even if i'm not home.

(and see my lj--this is why i travel all over the country continent meeting people--because in person hugs are way better than internet hugs. and having awesome friends jump up and wrap their legs around you and hug you in the air is the best of them all.)

[derekja]

travel!

come live on my boat in Victoria.

It does suck having friends move away :-(

<3

[mewmewmew_]

I am traveling this winter actually, so logically I shouldn't be upset my friends are gone. It's just that a sudden realization has hit me that I am without friends, despite this being the case for the last four months. It's just I had been so busy I'd kind of ignored it till I'd forgotten till now. These are friends I will see again in some capacity though so so there's no good reason for sadness. But reasoning and emotions seldom correspond.

[derekja]

yup, I can certainly sympathize. *hug*

[raspberrybelle]

I hope you know that if it would ever help you, you can certainly talk to me about anything. We used to bitch and moan and complain about lots of stuff ;). So please talk to me should you need it and should you deem that it would help. <3333!

[mewmewmew_]

I think we should both start up our bitch fest conversations again. I've been so lost without them. Let's meet up on MSN this Sunday, like the good old days where we thought Sundays were out to get us.

[raspberrybelle]

Haha deal. And I swear they are. Every time I feel down or bored or lonely or something, and then start to wonder why, it's a freaking Sunday!

[mewmewmew_]

Yep. I think of you almost every Sunday. It's a societal thing though. Our society forces a lot of aspects of our lives to either stop or decrease on Sundays, therefore we are left to catch up and process everything else that has happened that week up until that day. It could easily be a Monday or a Wednesday, but it's Sunday because we have constructed and appointed it as such.

[mewmewmew_]

I'm pretty bad at the "screw 'em" attitude, I have to admit. I don't want to ruin a potential good friendship by scaring them off with bad first impressions. Obviously if a person can see your bad side first and love you anyways, well then you're set. I've lost friends before though, because I expressed myself unto them too much. I don't want anyone to feel responsible for my feelings. I'm capable of talking sense and logic into myself about situations that make me sad or angry. But I also believe that emotions are some of the most true aspects of life, and I don't want to deny myself or have shame over them. I feel, therefore I am a living conscious being. I appreciate my feelings, even if they are difficult to handle.

[mewmewmew_]

As much as that is true, I don't feel that a mall is the best place to go for comfort. And the thought of trying to confide my feelings to you over the Subway counter is quite humorous. But in all seriousness, you are one of my friends that I want to be closer with, but just don't know how to. I thought about you a lot specifically, while writing this entry. I want to hang out more, but despite you working near where I live, we don't live all that conveniently close to each for regular visits. I'd like to try though.

[mewmewmew_]

Hehe :P yes I think that you dropping by before or after work would be cool. I would like that a lot. I'm about a 20 minute walk from the mall, plus there are two buses that go by me that go there too. However I do not enjoy hot beverages, but I do like juice so we can go for tea and juice if you'd like.