I think about you still, way too much. I have few things I can say that I truly regret, the biggest of which was you having to deal with me during a dark time in my life. I have no excuses and can only take responsibility. I sincerely hope you are doing well, and I hope you have found yourself some measure of happiness. I wont ask you to forgive me. I allowed my own miserable existence to overshadow what a great friend you were, and failed to appreciate what you tried to do. Wretched, and ungrateful, I do not deserve to be forgiven. I want you to know, that I miss you more than I can ever convey here. I owe you more than I can ever repay. After we parted, I was forced to put away the child I never grew out of being. When faced with the reality, that I had lost something I had cared so much for, I realized that it wasn't the world or you that had put me in such a bad place, it was myself. I was utterly insistent on blaming everyone else but me. I had to change, and so I did. It has taken far too long for me to come to terms with this.
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