Comments | messyone: Pipe dreams

messyone

Pipe dreams

Apr 27, 2012 00:13

I'm not doing so well. The first week alone and not talking to Mike was, weird but ok for the most part. I tried to enjoy the time to myself, but it didn't take long before I began to realize how much it sucked not having someone around to tell about my day, and just lounge on the couch with, someone to bounce ideas off of.... you get the picture ( Read more... )

relationships...., dessert, i make myself sad sometimes, love bites

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elixxir April 27 2012, 13:48:46 UTC

Oh baby I would totally be your Single White Female stalker for serious! I know it doesn't feel like it right now but it isn't that you HAVE to do this again, it's that you GET to do this again. And it's going to be such perfection you don't even know. But I do. I will keep having faith for both of us. Because you're THAT awesome! :)

messyone April 27 2012, 16:18:46 UTC

I just can't imagine that perfection. I can't see it, I don't understand it, and I totally don't believe in it. I guess that's why I'm so scared, because it's exhausting to think of getting out there and doing this all again, only to end up right where I already am.

When did I become so forlorn and pessimistic?

I hate this. I hate that this is me and my life. And I really need to suffer a little more silently. I promised I wouldn't whine about the end after whining about the middle for so long, but look at me whine anyway. Sigh.