The straw that broke the camel's back

[mereprototype]

First of all, before I get to the big stuff, I'm going to say here that I plan on doing a friends list overhaul soon, mostly to get rid of people I don't really pay attention to anymore or whatnot. It'll make my life easier

Comments

[fuzzy_squish]

Amitriptyline was...special? Special. (skip this stuff if Met's explained it already, I don't know how much she does/doesn't know) I was one it through most of high school, Sair was on it for a few months or so a few years ago. The reason that it can cause anxiety is that while it's used as a migraine preventative, it's actually an anti-seizure medication. In smaller (and I do mean smaller) doses, it's used sometimes as an anti-depressant. It can, most definitely, affect your mood, and I know it affected mine. That was actually the reason that I stopped taking it, because I got too moody. (Like I'm not moody enough already without it. >.>)

Onto the rest of this post...I am so, so sorry, and I wish for all the world there was something I could do to help you feel truly better about this whole mess. All I can say is that I'm still here as your friend, just as much as ever, and I don't plan on going anywhere anytime soon. I never changed my cell phone number, so don't be afraid to text or call me if you still have it (and if

[mereprototype]

Met's on a different dose of it because it has a billion uses and they're trying it for her chronic pain. She's just not getting side effects while I might be. I'm waiting to see how my moods shift once I'm off the damn prednisone. I like hearing other people's experiences with psych meds, so thanks for the input.

I don't have your number, but adding it would be nice for when I need to whine about the moon or something. Thanks for always being a great friend.

[fuzzy_squish]

Yeah...prednisone is all kinds of special too. *hugs some more*

[daffodil_brill]

Your dad's...kind of a dick, to put it mildly. And rather ignorant of just what hormone therapy entails. And if you've let him know time and time again that you're not the gender he thinks you are--then maybe cutting things off with him is for the best.

/hugs

[mereprototype]

/cuddle

I've stopped talking to him before for various things, but none quite as vital to me as being seen as a guy is. Hopefully he gets the hint and leaves me alone now. I didn't want to take it this far.

[shanaqui]

Go you for being so... determined about getting your father out of your life. I hope he listens and gives you no more stress.

[mereprototype]

I hope he listens too. The only decent thing about him being in the same state is that if he continues, dealing with legal routes will be a little easier.

[darkelf105]

Huge, huge hug. Man, it sounds like you need to do what you've been doing and cut him out of your life. I am just so sorry that it hurts so bad. Hugs, again.

[mereprototype]

It hurts, but I should be used to it by now given everything else he's done in my life to hurt little by little.

Hopefully this is the end for good and I can rest easier.

[darkelf105]

I really, really hope so. Life is hard enough as it is without people who should totally be there for you being dick weeds instead.

[newsbean]

I'm sorry your father is being such a shit. If you need five bucks for the follow up, let me know. I'll slip it in an envelope and you tell me where to drop it off. The ash has been terrible for everyone with asthma. I can't wait for this stupid fire to be controlled.

[mereprototype]

Ohman, thanks a ton. We have a stupid keyed mailbox, but if you can get to the Satellite on Central and Harvard, right across from UNM, that's walking distance and I can meet you there tonight/tomorrow before class.

The last few days before financial aid arrives = living off of food stamps and spare change.

[newsbean]

Oh good, I'm glad I can help. I can totally meet you over at that Satellite. I have a meeting tonight, but I could come by afterward (probably around 8:30 or 9) or I can meet you in the morning or tomorrow afternoon. I'm going to leave a comment with my number and delete it immediately, so if you don't get comments mailed let me know. (You can email me at the address in my profile and I'll get it tonight.) I'm better about answering texts than phone calls, but if you're a nontexter, I'll make sure I answer tonight/tomorrow.

[newsbean]

It was great to meet you! Sorry I'm all awkward and stuff in person. I love the internets. I am much less awkward here.