I-- I don't know. [Dana looked truly bewildered and confused, lifting her hand to push back over the top of her hair.] I didn't mean...well, I did mean all of that, but I didn't mean to say it. You asked me how I was an I just started to answer without any control.
Okay... [Baby relaxed a little, glad that Dana wasn't possessed or something.] I have a feeling this isn't a coincidence. Witch, maybe? Powerful spell...
...But all of that was true? [Baby frowned slightly, eyes full of concern.]
Dana... [Baby's voice lowered as he spoke, stepping forward hesitantly as he decided that she wasn't going to attack him. It was hard to decide which part of her confession to address first.] It will never be safe. Nothing will ever be safe. It's a part of life. Even if you sent me far, far away, it wouldn't change anything.
[There was a deep frown etched in her lips and she curled her arms around herself, staring at the ground hard as he drew closer to her.]
Nothing will ever be safe when you're with me. Everyone I ever love or care about always ends up hurt or dead. Everyone. I don't deserve to have anybody in my life and certainly not you.
[Dana didn't want to bring this up. Didn't want to talk about this at all right now. But it was happening because she couldn't stop fucking talking.
She was glad for his arms around her though, he always made her feel better.]
Yeah, for now he is. [And she didn't even want to imagine how she would be when he wasn't.] Baby...I don't know about that. People, demons, monsters, will always try to get to me through you. It's already happened before and that...that didn't end well. I would rather live knowing you're alive and okay, than live a life in a world where you don't exist at all.
You think that would stop if I left? [Baby pressed his cheek to Dana's hair, one hand brushing in it gently.] You think they wouldn't try to spirit me away from whatever stronghold you left me in?
I don't know what to do anymore. It's too much, it's always too much. I just want a break Baby, from all of this-- this crap in my life. Why can't I have something normal? At least Sam had had it for a while... [She took a breath, burying in close to him as he cradled her to his chest.]
So let's take a break. We'll go on a roadtrip. How about the Grand Canyon? We've always wanted to see that. [Baby pressed a kiss to Dana's head, wishing he could make the pain go away. It was happening, but very, very slowly.]
Normal's boring. Dana Winchester doesn't do boring. [Baby tried to find a bright side to propel.] If you had normal, I'd still be a car.
I can't take a break. I do what I do because I help people, sometimes. No one else is gonna do my job for me. [There was a lot of pain buried deep in Dana Baby. He had a long way to go with her.
Sighing, she shook her head a bit.] Maybe boring would be nice though. It's not like I haven't thought about it before.
But you are right about that, I do have you because of my weird life, and I will always be grateful for you.
You can take a roadtrip. Hell, a case might come in along the way. [Baby pulled back to look Dana in the eye, building confidence in the idea now that it had been brought to his attention. Maybe some new scenery would help her relax.] We're going.
You wouldn't survive. Apple pie life, two kids and a dog? No way. [Baby smiled softly, brushing his thumb against Dana's cheek.] See? It's not all bad.
My whole life has been one giant roadtrip. [Dana couldn't help but point out, but her eyes locked with his own and she melted in his gaze as per usual.] Alright Baby. If you think it will help.
[Tipping her face into his hand as he brushed his thumb across her cheekbone, she sighed and averted her eyes.] I might. I've had dreams about it. And it's usually with you.
[How could she not smile when his blue eyes sparkled at her like that.] Well, it's not much different. I just ride you now instead.
[That was better, the teasing. But again, with his questions, and his surprised look, Dana was compelled to answer truthfully.]
Yes. I had dream once we got married. I'm not so sure about the kids part, but we did have a house, with a damned white picket fence and a big dog. It was...nice.
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...But all of that was true? [Baby frowned slightly, eyes full of concern.]
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She wanted to say no to his question.]
Yes.
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Nothing will ever be safe when you're with me. Everyone I ever love or care about always ends up hurt or dead. Everyone. I don't deserve to have anybody in my life and certainly not you.
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Bobby's alive, isn't he? [Baby practically crushed Dana to his chest, looking down at her with wide, blue eyes.] I'm safer with you than without you.
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She was glad for his arms around her though, he always made her feel better.]
Yeah, for now he is. [And she didn't even want to imagine how she would be when he wasn't.] Baby...I don't know about that. People, demons, monsters, will always try to get to me through you. It's already happened before and that...that didn't end well. I would rather live knowing you're alive and okay, than live a life in a world where you don't exist at all.
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Normal's boring. Dana Winchester doesn't do boring. [Baby tried to find a bright side to propel.] If you had normal, I'd still be a car.
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Sighing, she shook her head a bit.] Maybe boring would be nice though. It's not like I haven't thought about it before.
But you are right about that, I do have you because of my weird life, and I will always be grateful for you.
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You wouldn't survive. Apple pie life, two kids and a dog? No way. [Baby smiled softly, brushing his thumb against Dana's cheek.] See? It's not all bad.
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[Tipping her face into his hand as he brushed his thumb across her cheekbone, she sighed and averted her eyes.] I might. I've had dreams about it. And it's usually with you.
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[The laughter dissolved into surprise, however, at the revelation.] ...Really? You'd want that...with me?
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[That was better, the teasing. But again, with his questions, and his surprised look, Dana was compelled to answer truthfully.]
Yes. I had dream once we got married. I'm not so sure about the kids part, but we did have a house, with a damned white picket fence and a big dog. It was...nice.
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