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ANGST MEME

Sometimes we all want to play some angst and see just how far our characters and and will fall.

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1. just depressed.
Things are tough, you're feeling worn out, or whatever the case, you're depressed. You need help or someone

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[alifeordinary]

[Dean isn't about to go spilling the details of his feelings, not now, not when he's riled up and it's so much more satisfying to just be a complete and utter dick. He does pissed off so much better than he does sad, and he's never claimed to be the most rational, well-adjusted guy. He doesn't display it to Cas very often- he has no reason to- but make no mistake, he can be a real dick.

The first comment he brushes off, lost in the move from the door to the fridge, and he's too busy searching for alcohol, precious alcohol. The second hits harder, though, because there's no alcohol, and it bites a little more.

What? Shit, what is it? What's he done now? Why is Cas being a fucking douchebag? A man can't walk into his own goddamn apartment pissed off without being on the receiving end of one of Mom's lectures, topped off with ample amounts of sarcasm and the smell of weed? Seriously? Seriously, universe?]

God damn it. What? What do you want? Shouldn't you be smoking something or something? Tapping into the karmic wheel, or whatever

Wtfery is my new favorite term.

[alifeordinary]

[Dean is a grudge holder, but even though that Sam comment was... a little low, it's not Cas he's pissed at. It's Sam, and that douche in the shop, and, well, the universe. Also, whoever backed into his car. He's going to seriously track that guy down and murder him in his sleep.

Also he's... admittedly slightly worried that he's going to screw this whole thing up, that Cas is going to get fed up with his shit like any normal human being would- like normal human beings have done in the past, and just tell him to go fuck himself and the horse he road in on. Dean really, really doesn't want that. Which is a testament to how screwed he is, and he's going to conveniently ignore that fact.

The next text that comes through is a simple me too, but it's damn good enough for him. Eases some of the tension out of his chest, though he still feels like a righteous jackass. Which makes him all the more adamant for his sucking-up apology gesture to work. He cranks up the stove, puts on a pot of water and dumps in the noodles

AND GOPHER BITCH IS MINE. Worked that into convo today negl

[mojofree]

[It was low, it was really, horribly, undeniably assholeishyly low, and Cas feels like the worst human being ever for saying it... But completely awful delivery or not, it is something he worries about- not that it stops him from doing it, of course- and maybe... Maybe it's better, now that it's off his chest. Or maybe he's just trying to rationalize being a huge douchebag. He'll make it up to Dean. Hasn't figured out how he's gonna go about doing that, but he's resolved to find a way. The beer is just until he can come up with something better.

And, well, they're out of beer. Can't have that.

Fuck, talk about the most inadequate I'm sorry gesture ever... No wonder he's never done... Whatever this is before, he doesn't have a fucking clue how it works. His inexperience isn't for lack of prospects, of course, he's had plenty of opportunities for something other than casual sex, and had come relatively close to an actual... thing a few times, but he'd still be searching for himself then, and after being told who he was for

Hell yeah, man. Did anybody get it at all?

[alifeordinary]

[Dean's not exactly experienced in long term relationships, either. He's had a few that were more serious than others, a few people that were more than just casual hook-ups. Nothing like... nothing like this, though. Nothing he'd be legitimately broken up about if it went south- he's got so much more at stake here than he's ever really had before, it's really starting to freak him out a little.

It's only the fact that it's Cas, who was firstly his friend, that keeps him from dancing around and having mini panic attacks over little things. Cas is Cas. Cas is chill. Cas is his best friend. He doesn't give a fuck if Dean's a little late home from work, or if he has to leave in the middle of the night to pick up Sam, or if he comments on Angelina Jolie's frankly magnificent rack. Fighting, though... that's a lot harder than it was with piddly bitches that didn't mean anything

I actually think the person I was talking to did hahaha

[mojofree]

[Hey, no arguments from Cas, Angelina Jolie does have a truly exceptional rack

Hallelujah

[alifeordinary]

[All things considered, Dean thinks they managed to stave off the inevitable for a particularly impressive length of time. Cas has been living with him for months now, even if they weren't, you know, together during that entire time. Living with someone still opens up plenty of room for argument- not to mention Dean's truly assholeish nature, which surfaces fairly regularly even if 95% of the time it isn't directed at Cas.

Then again, Cas is like a hippy peace guru. Maybe they didn't do as impressively as he's hoping. He's pretty sure if they were at an ashram right now he'd have been kicked out for disturbing the vibes. Whatever, screw it, the Beatles got kicked out of an ashram and they're the Beatles.

He can't help the petulant frown that forms as Cas smirks at him. Stupid fucking nature and boiling water and pot and Jesus what the hell. But then he reaches into the sink and actually eats a soggy, crappy noodle.

That's probably the sweetest damn thing he's ever seen. Also the grossest.

Rewind. Cas brought beer. That's the

[mojofree]

[Eeeeeeh... Cas isn't as peaceful as he lets on. Oh sure, he tries to be, but in truth he does have a bit of a temper that he works to keep clamped down most of the time. The smoking helps, but really... Underneath it all he's a pretty grumpy guy, cynical and sarcastic and with pretty good reason. Still, for the most part, he manages to keep it under wraps and shoved away, compartmentalized into that section of his brain with Old Life stamped on it. It takes a special combination of factors to bring it out... But that doesn't mean it's not there.

If they were in an ashram, they'd probably have been kicked out around the time they decided to fool around in the shower, or even decided to get together at all. Abstinence is one teaching Cas chooses to ignore, and if that disturbs the vibe, well... He's willing to deal with that