in which I emulate Jesse Eisenberg, minus cats, plus some skirts

[meiface]

Fannish things that continue to make me happy: Elementary! Jesse Eisenberg and his face! (And interviews and writings.) Georgette Heyer! My brief tour back through Tim/Kon

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[meritjubet]

It can be hard sometimes. I know when I was studying law (endless emotion sucker that it was) I drifted away from things for a few years and wondered if I was truly a fangirl. I tried to just enjoy things, but you know, evil brains. I've started going back to doing more fannish things lately and it is fun! And sometimes I do get stuck of performing femininity, because it always felt comfy for me and then femininity is sometimes held up as bad thing, so more evil brain time.

Well if it helps I'm checking out a kitty this afternoon and I will post pics so you can live through the adoption? If she likes us!

[meiface]

I WOULD LOVE PICS OF A KITTY. :D And I wish you a successful adoption! Two cats! I envy you, though when I get around to it, I will of course have to start out with just one. And the boy loves dogs so I suspect at least one dog. :)

Yeah, brains are evil and overthinking and self-guessing is awful, especially when these things hardly matter at the end of the day! Just wrestling with the doubt and fear of lacking credibility because, dang, we do what we do and we do it well. Whatever it is!

[chaos_harmony]

GAH, I empathize with so many of your girl neuroses, especially the label-seeking/avoidance business (like, in different ways, obviously, since you and I are different people with different interests/hobbies/etc., but the core of the issue is there!). There are many, many things I want to say, but in an effort not to make your journal All About Me, I'm just going to settle for vigorous Internet nodding. :P

[meiface]

It all goes back to our identity issues, I think (what doesn't?) and the need for labels to help define what or who we are. When we're unsure about that -- oh, neuroses. Am I too much this or not enough that? The inability to meet defined parameters leaves a lack of clarity and certainty. :(

And of course the perception by other people. We have I think grown into adults who can mostly handle brushing off other people's opinions, and be proud and confident in ourselves, but sometimes those creeping worries... Well, they're pesky.